Burnout (Not the Game)
Added 2021-03-26 13:01:01 +0000 UTCYou'd think the burnout of making videos would come immediately after finishing a project. That spending days waking up to Adobe Premiere, and going to bed after shutting down Adobe Premiere, would be the motivation behind letting your script document completely empty.
Yet, I find that's often not the case.
In-fact, that period is when you're most excited!
You're getting sweet comments, friends that see it talk to you about it, peers comment and you reply with onlookers seeing the exchange as wholesome.
Why wouldn't you want to repeat this immediately? It's a great experience.
Where the burnout starts to creep in is the midpoint between the next project getting off the ground, and the last video hitting its peak. You're isolated. You're alone. And the only way you change that, is if you produce something new. But if you're going through all of this, only to end right back at this midpoint, that's when there's a voice whispering "Why bother?"
However, before I continue writing paragraphs of depression, I have been doing this long enough to learn something.
The desire always comes back.
I quit Youtube for three years after a venture to Machinima Respawn failed, and what happened? I made a new channel from scratch, with my longest video yet. My return barely netted 1k across three videos, and what did I do after that? Make an even longer video on the first Halo.
I think that's when I discovered one of my passions was making videos. Not Golf, Music, or Driving. Because even when there was no money, no viewers, no pressure, no belief if it becoming something more... I did it anyway.
Burnout then isn't torment.
It's just part of the process.
