(Sketch) Molly Stretches

I'd like to vent a little about something, feel free to ignore it i'm just rambling...

I've been having a hard time focusing and actually putting time and effort into things. I guess it's social media burnout. It's so easy to get caught up in the numbers game because a larger audience equals more ability to make a proper living doing this and everything, but I get caught in this trap where I feel like the numbers game is poisoning my creativity, siphoning my mental energy, interfering with what I really want to make and thus making the quality of my stuff actually go down. My main issue is that instagram is my main platform and with the way instagram works now it's so crazy sensitive with what gets you like shadowbanned anymore, if I want to be recommended to people I can't even show a butt in shorts anymore. Even that traditional drawing of Molly in her shorts keeps getting restricted. It feels like when the adpocalypse was first rolling out on youtube and it was like damn, you can't swear at all in your video and have it be monetized anymore. It's very discouraging because Instagram has been my main space for a long time, I have this whole community and i love the comments and everything that I get but it's seeming like I have to censor myself more and more. I'm not trying to push the guidelines or draw super borderline stuff, I just wanna draw my cute characters with a little bit of skin showing. There's a lot of focus on reels and so i've been doing them but it kinda just feels like throwing stuff out into the void and hoping it'll catch on, and it feels kinda forced. I'd like to hope that i could still do well with regular posts, even if they haven't been doing too well. I could start using the other site(s) more, and maybe that would pay off. I really just want to draw and have fun, I don't want to spend all day thinking about how many views my art is getting, it's pretty silly. I know that the solution is always to just focus on actually creating what makes me happy, put my heart and soul into things and that's the literal foundation that everything else sits on top of. I can't be truly creative if I'm constantly worrying about numbers, what i need to do is stay true to myself. Period

Tl;dr I'm gonna keep drawing what i want and that's all that matters