Update 08/31/2020: Returning to Work and Cutting Ties

Hey everyone so my break/hiatus is almost over. I wanna thank everyone  for being so supportive and caring. Like with everyone else, this whole year has been hard on me, emotionally, mentally, physically, financially, socially, etc. I do feel like I am better than I was last month when I had a huge mental break down. 

So again, thank you to everyone for your kind words, people checking up on me, sending good vibes, chatting with me, and basically supporting me.  You guys help lift me up from the darkness so many times I don't know how to repay you all. I'm sure I'll think of something in future. 

If it weren't for everyone, my followers, patrons, reliable friends and loved ones I'd probably be in a dark place right now. All your love and support really helped me.

I'm confident to say I've recovered for the most part and I should be back to drawing this week, maybe by Saturday you'll see more wips. 

And I'll be getting back to commissions that are long overdue , big thanks to my clients for being SUPER patient. I'm sorry it took this long. 

Although I'm not gonna say I'm 100% stress free. Parents are still a huge pain. Mom still owes me 3 grand and is obsessed with finishing the extension on our house. But then again when don't our parents drive us insane? 

I also recently had to cut ties with someone recently. A once near dear to my heart, long time friend, Chris, who I loved very dearly who has been rolling down an ugly slope the past few years now. I hoped beyond hope to help him get better but there was only so much I could do. He's become very sexist, inconsiderate, apathetic, ignorant, gun-obsessed...basically the classic case of the worst kind of white guy. A privileged white incel with a gun problem, who drives his friends away with his douchbagery, and is probably going to be assimilated by the alt-right someday. I tried my best with him, but over the years he kept finding new ways to disappoint and anger me. And yesterday it was the last straw. 

He messaged me saying "Kenosha Kid is a hero." The very same kid who shot three people, killing two of them and the other injured, in Kenosha, Wisconsin during a counter protest against BLM protesters. The fact he'd sympathize with a murderer...I was shocked and angry. I was done. I told him off, told him I never wanted to talk to him anymore. A part of me still feels sad because he was one of my oldest friends. I feel like I lost a huge part of my life. However the rest of me feels like I did the right thing. I just have to keep telling myself he's not my problem anymore and it's for the best. I may be sad, but I do feel stronger now. 

Sorry if that got a bit ranty, but I just feel like you guys should know. I'm also in the process of looking for a new drawing tablet. If anyone could recommend where I could get a new replacement that'd be wonderful. The one I currently have was a gift from Chris and I wanna replace it as soon as possible. I'm already planning to give it to a friend who wants it. 

But yeah, I'll be back soon, I do feel stronger, recovered and better and thank you again guys. I love you all so much! 

Expect more art from me later this month!