When you die i don't cry mr P

I was thinking whether I should write it or not, and then I thought oh well, this is my blog. Damn it, give me my blog.

I'm generally a fan of my inner dialogues, I constantly study my inner chamber, I promote the idea to them, and then listen to their arguments, whether to approve them or not, do I need to write that this set was originally dedicated to my abstinence or is it bad? What does my inner tent think? You all say something at once, I don't understand, oh, so I take the decision on myself)

Yes, initially this musical live set was dedicated to my abstinence. I came up with poems for it, a dance, picked up the sounds, and then on February 24 I woke up and saw the speech of the president of Ukraine, that Russia had started this senseless and terrible war. And as I realized later, this is its typical abusive strategy in relations with neighbors.

There are sensations from this pose and the bed as a kind of coffin state.....

White dress as a call to peace, a call to freedom.....

As if a young creature is dead and will not wake up anymore, it was somebody I woke up as on February 24, it was no longer the same creature....

The words that I sing while dancing do not exist in this world, but they exist in my world of feelings, these are the sounds of my feelings

I know how to speak with my feelings, I feel that way, for me music is the output of my emotions, where you don't need to use the brain as direct information processing of text, I just listen to sounds and feel them, music for me is feelings, I don't think it, I feel music. It's like learning to think with feelings in music. I choose sensations!

I don't like the form in music, when they try to tell me about it, about the tonality and so on, I get sad and angry. I came into creativity to be free, why should it be like this, and not how I feel? I'm just traveling through time in this world, and I broadcast what is happening to me, and music for me is like an element of intertwined living feelings that have not yet disappeared into thin air, and I grab them and preserve them in a jar and transfer them to the viewer to consider) I really hope that these musical cans are not like creepy unborn children of animals and people who are usually canned: something I'm trying to say here.

All that was inside me was the shock of the beginning of this war, nothing cut me like this information, I chose similar sounds that resonated with what I felt — the shattering pain. A quick change of reality, because what is happening now, it seems to be already winding up on this link that pierced my heart.

This is a verse that I'm humming in Russian.

A small light in my hand

The little psycho in your head

What have you done, you bloody murderer

You took away my light bird

Where should we go

Nobody knows anymore

And no one understands how we would live

But you must be so happy and glad

Little psycho your own hell

It seems to me that everyone has a psycho in head who harms himself and his loved ones, but how much should he have a big and small, unoriented in reality, psycho in his head? And apparently lonely! Because somehow the inner tent would say something.... Or did he just ruthlessly knock out his ward, which doubted his decisions……

I was asked about this handkerchief, it has been with me since the end of 2021, I found it in this apartment, washed it and wear it, because I fall in love with such things. There is so much information in this handkerchief, for me it is really a worthwhile and valuable thing. it is definitely with a story that is a mystery to me. But I made it my own and in this set it played the role of Slavic attribute.

When you die i don't cry mr P

Quite a worthy name, because it was based on what was happening.

This amazing letter P, which incorporates three words Present Putin, and the third word, people who know Russian will understand...

I also want to say that this is my first live set, I was preparing for it and I'm happy that I expressed myself through it, it's amazing that it was dedicated to the topic of war, as at school on May 9 we were taught to celebrate the victory over the fascists with all sorts of crafts, drawings. But I'm 27, it is 2022 and I'm performing my first live set against the war, the aggressor of which is my country.

The words that I sing while dancing do not exist in this world, but they exist in my world of feelings, these are the sounds of my feelings...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hspP5JffQSA&t=1135s

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hspP5JffQSA&t=1135s