The Relief Of Pounding | The Horny Post | 1/19/23

Sex is for pleasure and love when it comes to same sex relations. Most of the time, a man having sex with a man does not serve our reproductive function. And yes, it can be quite thrilling when one finds themselves having sexual intercourse, but recently I have come to realize a new-to-me aspect to sex that is quite beneficial. 

When I fuck myself with one of my toys, it hurts. Getting bred like a subservient boi comes with pain no matter how much lube I use. I like a little bit of pain in sex as it reminds me of my place. This is why I cry during my audios. I always tear up a little when I'm being used, but I find pleasure in that. Men often like making their bottoms cry a little and honestly it is a beautiful thing. A man ravaging a boy's hole causing tears to spill and that same man holding his bottom while he does can be very sweet. "You're taking my cock like a champ. You're so good." Maybe I am a minor masochist, but the pain itself is not what I wish to talk about. 

As I am fucked, I find myself distressed. Sometimes it hurts so much I just want it to end. When a cock or toy starts pounding my prostate I start to feel the sensation of urination and deification. If you have bottomed before, you know what I mean. While neither of those functions are being performed, my body starts telling me it is. And the threat that I will do either of those gross actions during sex is incredibly nerve racking especially when I am being fucked by a real man. The embarrassment and shame of being a gay bottom includes the fear of making a disgusting mess of one's self. I am not into scat or pee and feel that for me they should stay far away from sex. Hence the sensation that I might along with the pain of the act creates a sense of worry and fear that can be very heart retching for a bottom like me. Being a gay bottom comes with a lot of responsibility to be perfectly clean less something unsightly occur. And I will tell, sometimes something *did* occur. And I have yet to forget the shame that followed.

However, the last time I fucked myself with my toy, gifted by my oldest Patron Kelter Melter, I realized something that has always been there. After a man is done and takes out his cock there is a grand sense of relief. A cathartic feeling of accomplishment washes over me. I did it! I didn't make a mess of myself! These are the words thought afterword. The pain leaving my body after a breeding session is euphonic. I feel like I can conquer the world after I've been seeded. In fact, fucking myself is the reason I feel motivated enough to continue my work right now.  I am so good at simulating sex with my toys that I feel the same that I do when experiencing the real thing. For the moment, I feel good! My trauma of the last two years doesn't matter for the days following a good fuck. I feel sublime! Sex for me is like a cleansing process. It hurts, but you feel good at the end! Now, if only I had had a man to feel good to. Then we'd both feel happy (;