Nuki News #86 - All that Glitters
Added 2022-03-10 01:43:40 +0000 UTCI've been thinking about a character in my mind- a sort of Robotic, protogen like kangaroo. I've taken to nicknaming it 'Gold'.
Character design is by far not my forte'- I don't even do ref sheet commissions publicly, and when I do take them on, it has to be someone I've worked with and drawn their character a few times beforehand, and the happen to enjoy how I draw them.
My problem, as ever, is when I have to draw for myself, I lose almost all my energy. I enjoy doing things for others, and it's been especially thankful I make my living doing that for others. But it gives me pause that I struggle so much more these days to draw for myself. The most I can usually manage, is doodles like this- and trust me, these take a lot of energy. The time it took to make these doodles *individually* took hours compared to what it takes to get a fully detailed drawing for a commission.
I guess it's a motivation issue; but I'm very aware that motivation and inspiration are fleeting concepts, fleeting resources to draw from or depend on, so naturally, I don't depend on them. However, it gets weird when I've got my free time away from commission work, where I can't bring myself to draw for my own sake to grow things or create something new for myself. It feels like molasses or trying to pull something very heavy from a hole.
It's not often I have such a struggle with art-making; but it's also not often I draw for myself either. Sometimes it comes easier, especially when I have a clearer image in my mind. I have a character-design process i could go down too, and if I do that I'm sure i'll share the results with you of this more fleshed out & realized character.
Till next week! Thank you for your support once again!
