I'm burned out
Added 2021-05-25 05:31:53 +0000 UTCI'm burned out, I get waves of messages around here on Patreon, Youtubue, Iwara, etc. My PC keeps malfunctioning, I have 2 graphics cards. One burned completely and the other only works half and when I want to convert the project into an mp4 video the card stops working. These days, in order to finish the videos I have brought you, I have had to borrow their graphics cards from two friends. Causing them annoyance, obviously. Everything to meet the schedule on time.
In addition to dealing with all that, I am studying and practicing new things so that I can improve a lot more this year. It is very hard because I work alone. And I want to continue alone to be able to capture my ideas 100%.
This year is being hard because I want to improve, but my head hurts when I make a video and it rains down messages of claim, that they want me to do a specific thing and another group of messages asks exactly the opposite. I can't satisfy everyone, seriously.
Some time ago I did a sex scene, many liked it and others were offended. In the end, what I do bothers many and instead of enjoying my work as I did before, it is now stressful for me.
For that reason, i was no longer replying to messages to anyone. It's just more stress for me.
That is why I have decided that from now on I will do what seems best to me and what I like. As it was in the beginning. When a job becomes stressful, you stop enjoying it, it stops being a hobby and becomes a fucking torture.
If you are agree with my terms(I will do things as I see fit, I will continue listening to suggestions as always, but the final decision will be mine) you can stay and continue enjoying as always (that's the main idea, I work, you support me and we both enjoy).
If not, you are free to go, if you feel upset or cheated, I will return your donation, no problem.
I'd rather work with fewer people but relaxed and enjoying myself than getting bored and stressed to the point of closing my channels.
Please, It is not necessary to comment, because I do not want any more discussions with me or between you all. If you stay, it means you are agree with my terms and that's good enough for me.
Comments
Your work is amazing my friend. I am glad you have finally realized the ways of a true artist. True artists create art not based on what others may think but from what they feel it is that they want to create. Your message seems to suggest that you have finally understood this and I'll keep supporting you as I'm sure many others will. Thanks for your wonderful art and take it easy, remember that there's a saying that goes "No one is a golden coin to make everyone happy."
knot
2021-06-12 05:53:22 +0000 UTC크리에이터의 활동이란, 참 힘든점이 많죠. 자신의 개성을 주장하고싶은데, 보러오는 손님은 다들 서로 다른 취향을 가지기 때문에 충돌하는 일도 많구요... 원하시는 대로 활동하세요. 응원합니다
trickster177
2021-06-12 01:57:37 +0000 UTCIt is strssfull to be the best))) Don't give up)))
2021-05-26 16:38:27 +0000 UTCjust make what you like. we support you because we like your works, but not because you work for us.
2021-05-26 15:16:37 +0000 UTCHey man do what you gotta do I dont care as long as Your happy and I find the video sexy @oriondobledosis
2021-05-26 14:45:43 +0000 UTCHey man, if you think that is necesary a little vacations just doit. Your health is far more important that anythin else. Your videos have an eccelent quality and the 5 bucks i pay for you worth it. Just don't push yourself too hard.
Youkai_ Escritor
2021-05-25 22:03:42 +0000 UTCPlease keep yourself safe, mentally and physically. If you need to reduce your output, then do so. Take all the time necessary to put yourself in the proper condition for your work to keep going. Those videos are not worth your safety, neither are us.
Ribosoman
2021-05-25 20:15:45 +0000 UTCI've found that you make the best MMD ass out there, and the LCA are amazing. you've met and exceeded all my expectations. If there's a video I'm not a big fan of, I just skip that one. keep on keeping on!
Erik the Red
2021-05-25 18:24:53 +0000 UTCwhy not just do commissions? if people want something specific, then they can put their money where their mouth is. you could charge like $50+ for a commission, then if people want to claim things, you can direct them to commissions, and if they're willing to shell out the money, then you'd probably have a better time actually doing it, and you'd be able to get a nice new graphics card too
Erik the Red
2021-05-25 18:21:57 +0000 UTCI support you all the way, Orion.
RES
2021-05-25 17:14:18 +0000 UTCcheer up, your work was always best
dadinaian
2021-05-25 16:27:23 +0000 UTCdon't push your self and work at your own pace
Adam Minchin
2021-05-25 13:27:31 +0000 UTCYou could pause pledges for a few months if you need to. You've been posting videos for a little over 3 years now and I'm sure a little time off while you get everything back in order is more than reasonable.
stifledyawn
2021-05-25 13:26:06 +0000 UTCFrom what I have seen, most content creators that do reply to private messages come to this decision at some point. And I think that this is the correct choice to make, especially without moderators to handle some level of community management for the creator. 100% support your choice here and I hope your other problems find solutions soon. Also don't kill yourself with work! If you need a break to recharge, take it! I see creators do it all the time.
xilyflob
2021-05-25 12:39:52 +0000 UTCI'd rather you make what you want at your own pace. I became a Patron because of the quality of your work, no other reason.
Dominic Pernicone
2021-05-25 12:05:33 +0000 UTCI agree with you very much and do what you want to do.
Austin Wu
2021-05-25 09:53:51 +0000 UTCI agree and would take it a step further, I think we all need to be more tolerant of other people having different tastes than our own. For example I'm not super into sex scenes, but if Orion enjoys doing them, then that's good enough of a reason. Telling a creator what he's allowed to do is a great way to get him to quit.
2021-05-25 08:26:09 +0000 UTCThanks for being honest. I think these kinds of open letters are good for everyone. Hopefully there is good news about a hardware solution soon, it sounds awful to have dealt with it as long as you have.
2021-05-25 07:59:09 +0000 UTCokay
Frank Leo
2021-05-25 07:02:09 +0000 UTCI personally like and prefer them
Michael Smith
2021-05-25 06:17:31 +0000 UTCI prefer you doing whatever you want because that makes the best content possible when you do what you want
Michael Smith
2021-05-25 06:17:01 +0000 UTCI’m so sorry, we all will enjoy with what you make and support you every step of the way...
Itchyio
2021-05-25 06:13:21 +0000 UTCPlease get some rest. I will keep supporting you. I Love your work! : )
Kakuyon Afi Solwazi
2021-05-25 06:06:36 +0000 UTCSorry to hear you feel that way, take care of yourself <3 I hope things brighten up for you soon and I'm excited to see what you make in the future!
Neon Trance
2021-05-25 06:05:59 +0000 UTCThis is my last comment, and I will not make any further comments if this is what you want. How you plan to solve this matter, you decide for yourself, you know everything you need to know.（https://discord.gg/Y8dwxb2DAW for someone want to talk）
Jcgnavy
2021-05-25 05:55:57 +0000 UTCall of the best nsfw content creators always end up stressing themselves out to the point of getting physically ill and quitting permanently....so yeah, don't end up like them. It's starting to get really old at this point.
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2021-05-25 05:54:42 +0000 UTC
