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digital wallpaper downloads (finally!)

hi :) here's the link to a google drive with the high res digital wallpaper downloads. attached to the post are some screenshots showing a few of them on my phone. I did variations of mobile and desktop so you will have some options of each photo/piece – there are a few on there but I will add ...

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lake shore limited

The woman next to me on the train stares at her phone with thumbs frozen momentarily 
She is thinking of how to word the message she’s typing 
She scrolls up to look at the above messages quickly 
As a guide 
She types and then pauses again 
Thumbs frozen...

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glass menagerie

hot off the scanner :)

new york botanical garden — shot on 35mm film

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pizza tattoo reveal

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careful

You asked if you could touch me 
That first night 
Just on my leg as we drove 
Fully clothed and innocent still 
You said it like I was something precious 
That you didn’t want to break 

I told you to be careful 
You thought I meant wi...

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tucked away

new york botanical garden — shot on 35mm film

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forever

Today I used the word ‘forever’ to speak about our future 
I didn’t follow it up with any maybes or we’ll sees 
It felt heavy in my mouth 
Foreign 
Like chewing on the other side 
And maybe I’m the last to arrive here
Unfashionably late <...

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freckle update

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everywhere

I am in the shower bending my arms behind me 
Reaching 
Trying to wash my back 
I think of you because I wish you were there to wash it for me
I guess maybe thinking of someone when you’re in the shower usually looks different than that 
I think of you in tha...

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you are the ocean

shot on 35mm film

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braindrain

I can’t stop crying and my plants are dying 
That makes it sound like I’m unhappy but I’m not 
I’m everything everywhere all at once 
But I haven’t seen the movie so maybe I’m just lost 
I once thought I knew which direction to go 
But a cat in ...

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pov I sweat thru my clothes at dance and it’s late and I have to get in the shower but I’m wondering if you wanna get in with me

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emergency

Total distrust in my own sight 
Retire from knowing anything, I just might 
Head on collision, fatal fated night 
Fall from grace by shattered headlight 
Certainly I must be certain concerning this uncertainty 
Slow motion symphony 
So breathtaking,...

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life still

shot on 35mm film

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transatlanticism

I planned on just posting A Lack of Color today, but over the past couple weeks I’ve connected with a different song on the album. I knew the song, I liked the song, but I had never lived the song. It’s taken on a completely different sound and different life to me. When I was a teenager and ...

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a lack of color

I’m seeing Death Cab for Cutie live tonight for the first time. They are playing Transatlanticism in its entirety for its anniversary tour, and one of my very favorite songs by them is on that album. 

This song has followed me throughout the years. Historically I’ve loved people w...

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inheritance

I look into my mothers eyes and I see myself 
Fierceness resilience and devotion
I will inherit instead of wealth 
I look into her mouth and I see an endless ocean 
One that will drown you then perform CPR
Make you feel like you’re chosen 
My inheritance ...

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innerbloom

Most of the songs I’ve shared so far have been rock or alternative, and most coming into my life when I was young. This one is in some ways my favorite song of my adult life. I fell in love with electronic music as an older teenager, and it’s been my most listened to genre for a long time. Th...

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a note & update

just wanted to say thank you guys for supporting me here and reading my shit and being a part of this. means a lot to me and I’m grateful.

endless vibes tier — my account got marked as ‘adult content’ (oopsie) so I’m not able to offer digital downloads in app because of that. so ...

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look for the light

bryant park, new york city — shot on 35mm film

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the distance

A user on threads replied with a voice note with this song in the background a few days ago, and it was once again a song integral to my life growing up finding me for the first time in a long time. Cake is from my hometown but I didn’t conceptualize that as a child, I just had this album poure...

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curriculum

He had 4 faces and I loved them all
It gave me a long way to fall
I’m starting to think life is just a sharpening
A tearing away
A revelation of searing reality and raw flesh underneath
We carry pain in our arms like school books
Our curriculum
This time I don’t th...

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if i was green, i would die

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when i pray

When I pray, I pray for clarity 
For guidance for protection 
For eyes to see the hilarity 
I ask for sight 
For wisdom 
For doors to be opened 
And closed accordingly 
I let myself cry out energetically 
In search of becoming who I ...

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betrayal

Betrayed by the only thing I truly have 
My body holds me but it hurts me too 
My truest love and I have a toxic bond 
Together forever but I don’t think we’re happy with each other anymore 

My beloved makes me sick 
Makes me convulse with pain ...

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silent conversation

shot on 35mm film

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sinner

Chapped lips and intoxicated eyes
The day before I started to become aware of your lies
Slowly at first 
Curiosity becomes thirst 
In the delicate art of love and war
I’m painfully well versed 
Giving me just enough 
Specializing in calling your bluff...

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destiny

I was recently at a bar, not having a very good time tbh. I was tired and not feeling social and trying my best to carry on conversations when I felt completely flat. I could feel myself being unimpressive and out of it but I didn’t care. This song randomly came on the playlist at the bar and m...

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swings

Color in my face 
Light in my eyes 
Energy in my body
Love on my mind 

Blankness on my face 
Emptiness in my eyes 
Numbness in my body 
Death on my mind 

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Lust in my eyes 
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ascension

shot on 35mm film

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