schlugliminal

fortune finding form

Big mask progress photo dump. I’ve been working on this mask a little bit every day. It’s at the point where it is both starting to look like and inform it’s own vision in a more tangible way.

juggling video 3: a shadow enters the ring

Another week of juggling progress. A friend left her fancy water lights in my care, so I turned one on for *ambiance.* I am working on my overhand throws, trying to get to a point where I can do the "juggler's tennis" trick. I've got overhand from the right pretty consistently at this point--gott...

laser juggling: engage

New juggling balls came in the mail today.

juggling video 2: pillar throws

Practicing me pillar throws. It's harder than one might imagine to throw straight up and down in three places at once. Sometimes also in one place at once. When I practice bilateral pillar throws on the go, I've been balancing the 3rd ball on my head (not featured in this video). Music is Forgott...

*fortune shrugs

Motion on the mask. 70% of sculpting with plaster strips is dry time. The light weight and versatility are absolutely worth it.

Ps Those are no horns.

Pss This one might need a ballast.

nascent mask

I’ve been working on a couple of projects this month. One of them is this mask process. A coworker/collaborator stayed late at work a couple of Wednesday’s ago to help me cast my face (again). This time, with closer attention to the brow and cheek bones (we are learning). I poured more plaste...

don't feed the trolls // what are birthdays for?

Most people are into birthdays, even if they’re into not being into birthdays. It’s our earliest and most reliable rite of passage in this shambling rot of a dominant culture whose other rites of passage are kept at the gate by capital and various proofs of our devotion to/investment in it. W...

crochet // it's all in the schlime

One of the projects I worked on this month was a crocheted cloak. I roughly followed Jayda InStitches' hooded cloak pattern on YouTube, subtracting stitches and feeling out the lengths to account for size. The vid...

on a saturday afternoon

I have such a lovely little work community. As I process through my experiences, my own trauma and grief, I have to remind myself to look at the joy and compassion that I am so ruthlessly surrounded by. My job is engaging, and relaxed, and the community we have cultivated is one of compassion and...

zine work

The road to hell is paved with works in progress.

- Philip Roth

pennies

sitting with grief, i am

an exhaust

drawn of daze,

daisies,

hold your cheeks in the steam

rising from the well

cracked, shallow,

bursting with heat

you should know

not to touch the pennies

the wishing will give you a fever

but the ...

social distance / a horse by commitee

I made this playlist in early March last year, when the euphemism "social distancing" was first entering the vernacular. A friend shared the idiom "A camel is a horse by committee" with me around that time, and it seemed astute. Returning to this playlist recently, I've been feeling nostalgia for...

(isolation) in blue

After garishly carving words backwards, filling the cracks with layers of mod podge, sanding, and carving through uneven textures, my holiday print is finally done, and I think it turned out pretty good all things considered. This one is called (isolation) in blue.

parable for codependents

My mother wanted desperately to be needed by me, to be the biggest part of my life, and in some ways I think to start over and be me instead, and she inserted herself in all kinds of forceful and unproductive ways to meet that desire. When she could not establish the relationship she wan...

backwords

Hoo hoo, here's a picture of my little workspace and my latest mistake. I am working on my holiday card here at the studio, on track to arrive in homes definitely by 2021. I've never carved words the wrong way on linocut before, and I'm honestly impressed that I

1) made it this far in my ar...

wedne didde (extendo)

I made this little song with the time lapse in mind, but it ended up having something more to say.

mask timelapse

I made a time lapse! This is the process of making a mold and getting the first layer of paper mache set, in 410 photos.

November has teeth

I've tied hands a bit with more middle-term projects than I'm used to. I'm still figuring out how to practice discipline to keep things moving even when the creative inertia feels insurmountable. I think it's ok to drop the bar if you're having trouble getting over it, and it's ok to forgo the ba...

graveyardStory_outline

Exposition

Two people in a cabin, it is a full moon in winter

[C1] has been preparing a ritual for this night for some time

[C2] is a caretaker of [C1] and supports their wants, but is worried about [C1] going out at night with their failing health.

There ...

baby's first juggling video

Quick and dirty video of me practicing juggling. Music is Impostor Syndrome by Sidney Gish.

plaster molds

Cast a couple of faces in plaster this week. The goal is to use them to make fitted masks without having to go through the messy process of making a new mold on a live face for each one. I learned a lot on the first pour--I'd never used a plaster negative to pour a plaster positive before. The fa...

death smokes cigarettes

death smokes cigarettes

sucking sticky yellow

into hollow bellows

and blows hot cream

two anubis sputter

rapt with stale assiduity

whetted with nicotine adrenaline

have you found joy in this life?

have you brought joy to others?

chrome obstacle

I got myself stuck painting a chrome ball in the mouth of this bird. Painting chrome is hard, and trying new things requires patience--something I’ve been struggling with lately. I’m going to do some studies tomorrow on little canvases to try to pull myself out of the schlump.

slosong

A fresh song to drag your feet to.

My family's ashes

I found this picture on my mother’s kitchen counter after she died. I was named after the woman on the left, my great great grandmother (mother’s mother’s mother’s mother?). My mom always told me she was a Chiricahuan Apache shaman and one of Geronimo’s daughters, but I know very little...

Birb process pics, up to today's birb update

I have been wanting to reacquaint myself with oils, and my therapist suggested I should paint standing up. Here is this week’s daily quest to describe light and shadow.