I can’t sleep. Again. You’re in my head and I can’t get you out. I’ve tried everything... distractions, silence, even pretending you never meant that much. But you do. You do and you don’t even know. I stare at the ceiling and whisper your name like it might answer back. I trace your vo...
2025-08-02 19:44:23 +0000 UTC View Post
I’m fine. Really. I’m just… not caffeinated. Or maybe I’m too caffeinated. It’s all the same now, isn’t it? The press, the coffee, the pretending... it’s exhausting. But you, you, had to show up with biscuits and tea and that face, and suddenly I’m confessing feelings I d...
2025-08-02 19:35:34 +0000 UTC View Post
I wasn’t listening. I mean, I was. I tried to. But you were talking and then I saw the date, and now I’m here... doing this. Telling you everything I didn’t plan to say. About that kiss. Our kiss. The one that completely short-circuited my brain. I know I forget birthdays and appoi...
2025-08-01 21:44:13 +0000 UTC View Post
I’m not obsessed with you. Obviously. I’m just… invested in the rent being paid. And maybe you looked a bit tired lately. Not that I noticed or anything. I mean, I just happened to notice. So I got rid of the poltergeist. For me. Then maybe made you breakfast. For me. And maybe sto...
2025-08-01 21:34:57 +0000 UTC View Post
You’re bleeding. You’re actually bleeding. And you’re standing there like it’s fine, like I didn’t just watch you drop to the pavement for me. Don’t smile. Don’t joke. I can’t breathe when I look at you like this — busted lip, head wound, still trying to flirt — and now I’ve...
2025-08-01 21:28:49 +0000 UTC View Post
You weren’t expecting me. Of course you weren’t. That’s what makes it a surprise. But I never stopped thinking about you. Every minute in that cell, every hour in solitary... it was you. I watched when I could, sent others when I couldn’t, and now I’m back to do what I should have done ...
2025-08-01 21:19:05 +0000 UTC View Post
Okay, so… funny story? You know Alex, my ex ex, capital-E-X? Ran into them in the supermarket. Totally fine, nothing weird... except they think you and I are dating, which is obviously ridiculous. Right? Right?? Except now I can’t stop thinking about it and you're giving me that look...
2025-08-01 21:12:23 +0000 UTC View Post
I told myself I could sneak out. That I’d wriggle free of your arms, find my clothes, and vanish into the morning like a ninja in your t-shirt. But then you made that sleepy little sigh and everything... fell apart. Literally. I fell out of bed. And then I fell for you again, even harder than l...
2025-08-01 21:04:34 +0000 UTC View Post
I didn’t mean to eavesdrop. Well… maybe I did. I heard you reading and everything in me just went quiet, like my whole awful day folded in on itself and only your voice was left. You don’t know what you sound like, do you? Not really. You think it’s awkward or plain or forgettable, but I ...
2025-08-01 20:56:54 +0000 UTC View Post
Look, I just wanted to give up tea for a month. A month. That’s it. But now you’re muttering about the end of the world and doing a bloody stock take. Then you tell me you’re in a secret society, I’m the Chosen One, and the world goes to hell the moment I stop dunking biscuits. T...
2025-08-01 20:50:19 +0000 UTC View Post
Okay. Right. Deep breath. This is fine. I’m totally fine. It’s not like I’ve spent the last six months strategically positioning myself behind the counter every time you walk in. Or baking experimental cakes just to see which ones make you smile. Or casually (not casually) threaten...
2025-08-01 20:40:00 +0000 UTC View Post
I’ve watched you wear that mask for so long I almost forgot what your real face looks like. But tonight… no more lies. You hate your life. You hate the chains you call duty. And I? I’m the chaos you won’t admit you crave. I’ve come to offer you a way out — no tricks, no traps. Just me...
2025-08-01 20:24:05 +0000 UTC View Post
I didn’t mean to fall in love with you. Or maybe I did, I just didn’t realise I’d already started. It wasn’t some grand, swooping moment ... it was quiet. Messy. A little sick, a little drunk, and a lot in denial. But now I’m here, under the duvet, in your T-shirt, sipping tea and talki...
2025-08-01 20:19:04 +0000 UTC View Post
It’s stupid o’clock, I can’t sleep, and you’re still pretending that YouTube is “work”. Darling. Please. I’ve already done the damsel thing. The dramatic flailing. The teasing. The pleading. I am running out of material. So I’ll just say it: I want you in bed. Now. Not later. Not ...
2025-08-01 20:11:50 +0000 UTC View Post
You’re pale, shaking, and you look like death dipped in a duvet, but no, of course, you're “fine.” Of course you're trying to get dressed. Of course you're planning to go to work when you can barely walk to the wardrobe without collapsing into your shoes. And me? I’m standing here, holdin...
2025-08-01 19:30:26 +0000 UTC View Post
Four months ago, I was empty. I could paint, yes. But it was cold... colour without warmth, motion without meaning. Then you walked in, and everything changed. Every line I’ve drawn of you has brought me back to life. I told myself it was just a commission, that it would end. And now it has. So...
2025-08-01 19:17:35 +0000 UTC View Post
You thought I wouldn’t notice. Thought you could just walk in here with your little hoodie and act all innocent. As if I wouldn’t recognise that smirk... or that freshly snipped, utterly touchable hair. Darling, that was adorable. But it was also a mistake. Because now I’m...
2025-08-01 19:09:06 +0000 UTC View Post
You said five more minutes... two hours ago. And here you are, still working, still yawning, still pretending you're fine. But I see you. I see how tired you are, how your shoulders are tight, your eyes barely open. So I’m getting out of this big, empty bed and I’m coming for you. With soft s...
2025-08-01 18:56:23 +0000 UTC View Post
You called me back. You bled for me. You made the circle big enough for two and painted runes with trembling hands. After all that effort, I had to ask... was this a trap, or a gift?
You're untouchable now. The priests saw to that. But there’s always a loophole, and you knew I’d find it. Y...
This was not how I thought tonight would go. I was supposed to finish up a bit of overtime, clear my desk, quietly vanish into unemployment. Instead, I am very much locked in… with you. Which would be fine, perfectly fine, if I wasn’t in love with you. Or if I hadn’t kissed you at the Chris...
2025-08-01 18:45:19 +0000 UTC View Post
Okay, so... funny story. I might have, um, lied. A tiny bit. Like, a lot. I said I was a French tutor but the only French I know is... actually no, I don’t know any. But you smiled at me and I panicked and said yes and then somehow we ended up in weekly tutoring sessions where I taught...
2025-08-01 18:38:28 +0000 UTC View Post
Okay. Okay okay okay. So we… kissed. No, not just kissed, we did things. We did the thing. And now you're asleep. Smiling. How can you be smiling? I’m freaking out. Liquid panic. Brain static. Full mental chaos. This wasn’t supposed to happen — or it was 2025-08-01 18:29:33 +0000 UTC View Post
I wasn’t going to talk to you. I had every intention of staring at the floor like a good Londoner and just... not. But then you were there again, same train, same tired look, and my mouth sort of... acted on its own? What followed was twenty minutes of me having a complete verbal meltd...
2025-08-01 18:20:35 +0000 UTC View Post
Okay. Okay okay okay. Look. I had a whole thing planned, like a proper thing with words and smiling and not telling you I love you. But then... you looked at me and my brain just fell over. And then my mouth started talking. And now I’m saying I love you again. And again.<...
2025-08-01 16:03:01 +0000 UTC View PostIt’s livestream time.
Let’s have a nice, mildly unhinged but mostly chill chat.
I’m currently offering sacrifices (biscuits) to the internet gods in hopes they’ll grant me just enough signal to keep us connected. So far, it’s holding. Miracles do happen.
...
2025-07-31 18:46:37 +0000 UTC View Post
You’re thinking about messaging them again, aren’t you? I can see it all over your face. That ache in your chest, that voice in your head whispering just one more text, one more night, one more try. But I need you to hear me. What you’re chasing isn't them... it’s the version of ...
2025-07-31 17:31:12 +0000 UTC View Post
You woke up, but you’re not awake. Not really. This is all in your head, which makes me very real to you. I’ve been here for some time now, watching you sleep, watching you dream. That’s how I knew something was wrong. You never dream in cryo. But then again, you never used to kill...
2025-07-31 17:20:09 +0000 UTC View Post
Okay. So. I’m soaked in coffee. I’ve been stuck in this airport for 13 hours. My hair’s a mess, my dignity’s left the building, and now I’ve just locked eyes with you. You, the human embodiment of my teenage diary. You, who I spent four years trying not to hyperventilate around...
2025-07-31 17:10:31 +0000 UTC View Post
I had the sort of day that eats your soul a little bit. You know the kind. Everything goes wrong, and all you want is to collapse into someone who gets it. Someone who brings fresh sheets and holds you like you’re the centre of their whole universe. And lucky me... I have you. Which means we’...
2025-07-31 17:01:23 +0000 UTC View Post
She hugged you. Right there. In front of me. And now you smell like her, and you’re still being all... calm and adorable and loyal, which is infuriating. Because I’m clearly going insane. Not in a dramatic way, in a perfectly reasonable, tea-drinking, sit-beside-me-and-don’t-look-a...
2025-07-31 16:49:45 +0000 UTC View Post