What was with that post on my Reddit account? Also, a few of you said you'd like to listen to me talk about my brothers organ transplant...

Hey everyone,

If you follow me on Reddit, then you are probably aware of the post I put up where I asked for people to stop asking for nudes or things from NSFW performers and what my reasoning for it upsetting me is.

I haven't really talked about this much, or I've tried to play it off as not being a big deal but I've been dealing with depression for about the last 4 months. My grandmother died at the end of July and her death unraveled everything in my life. My depression has affected not only my day to day and my emotional health but also my self confidence and my ability to deal with negative situations. Another part of my reaction to everything is that there is a bit of negativity that comes with having a big audience. There are always bad apples and I know my skin should be thicker by this point but coupled with everything else going on in my life, I don't feel like I have the emotional capacity or I'm in a place to successfully brush those types of interactions off so easily. I wish my skin was thicker but it's not right now and I'm trying to get back on my feet.

If you're interested in listening to my thoughts about this, I covered this subject from 0:00-29:33.

From 29:33- 1:12:47, I talked about my experience taking care of the most important person in my life when they had end stage kidney failure and the miracle that is their kidney donation.

4 years ago, my brother went from being the happy upbeat kid who ran track at school and skateboarded to being sickly and thinking he was going to die while on dialysis. I know some of y'all care for family members or have gone through similar situations so I thought I'd share this with you.

This is probably one of the most personal rambles I've ever done on here and if you listen to this, I appreciate you being interested in my experience and my story.

I appreciate every single one of you and while I might be stepping back from Reddit for a little while, I'll still be trying my best on here, for all of you and I thank you for awarding me that opportunity.

-M