I AM LOSING MY GODDAMN MIND

So if you’re not in my server, you probably didn’t hear about this but I had a few audios to knock out before the 30th and stupid me, I thought I was FINALLY thriving again and back on top of my recording schedule. So I told everyone I’d post today and I’d send out audios by the 30th and then life was like “Not TODAY BITCH”

I woke up at 8am today super ready to kill a full day of work and MY GODDAMN NEIGHBOR IS BUILDING A GARDEN FOR HIS FUCKING WIFE and their construction people were DRILLING CONCRETE AND SHOVELING ROCK ALL GODDAMN DAY.

LITERALLY. ALL. DAY.

I tried to move my mic to other rooms but you could literally hear the drilling and the rocks EVERYWHERE because when I bought this house, I clearly NEVER thought I’d get into doing audio porn and thought the high ceilings were ~*~*~*~*amazing*~*~*~~*

So I thought, ‘okay I’ll take a nap and then when it’s dark out and stuff I’ll still be able to record.’

IT IS DEADASS 8PM AND THEY ARE STILL OUT THERE DOING GOD KNOWS WHAT.

NOT ONLY THAT BUT I’m having my house painted but I told my mom to tell the dude who’s doing it to paint her house first because I needed till the first to get all my work stuff done and she made me go to Home Depot today with her where we stood in the paint aisle for AN HOUR COMPARING 6 DIFFERENT SHADES OF WHITE FOR THE CROWN MOLDING IN HER HOUSE and then I ASKED HER TO BUY ME SUBWAY AND SHE SAID NO

WELL I WOKE UP FROM MY NAP AND I HAD A MISSED CALL FROM HER AND SHE TELLS ME THAT THEYRE COMING OVER TO PAINT TOMORROW. WHEN I TOLD HER I COULDNT DO TOMORROW BECAUSE I DO AUDIO PORN AND I CANT HAVE ANYONE IN MY HOUSE WHILE I RECORD BECAUSE I SCREECH LIKE A HYENA WHEN I CUM BUT I XANT TELL HER THAT BECAUSE SHE’LL DISOWN ME OR WHSTEVER

SO like any sane adult, I’m laying in bed crying.

If I’m able to get an audio recorded and uploaded when these construction people finally fucking leave, I will but for not I’m going to upload the pod in a sec

I just don’t understand why things can’t just fucking work out. Like I was so hyped I was back on top of my shit and then life has to knock me the fuck down. I’m literally so exhausted. I just want things to work out. I want to make good content for y’all, I want to deliver everything. I hate it because it’s such a reflection on me and this isn’t who I am and I hate it so much you have no idea

Also I’m sorry for talking shit about my neighbors, they’re actually lovely people when their construction isn’t ruining my fucking life

Anyway that’s it. Thank you for allowing me to vent.

OH ALSO, if you want proof of the construction people ruining my life. There’s sound clips on my Discord server I have provided. Thank you.