Announcement.

Hello everyone.

First of all, I want to thank you all for your support. It truly means a lot to me.

But, there has been some sad developments in my family lately.

   As some might know, I only recently lost my dear grandmother. I didn’t realize how much her passing would mean to me. After all, she was 92, and she was not in a good state, mentally or health wise. She couldn’t even recognize any of her children or grandchildren.

It’s my first real time dealing with loss, and it’s harder than I thought it would be.

I have been so stressed lately, also with the prospect of some new affairs that I don’t wanna bother you with - it’s a private matter.

I have also been dealing with a character on the internet.
Not on this page, but on DA. I don’t know if he is a patron here, I don’t think he is. But I will not name anyone. But this character is partially why I don’t feel like going back to DA. It is a behavior I have had since I was a child. When I didn’t like somewhere or some place… then I would simply avoid it.

This said character has over several months (years in fact) been messaging me over DA With a continuing bombardment - and yes, I mean bombardment - of “ideas”

This has shortened my fuse so when anyone, anywhere sorta brings up an idea that might/might not be a good one I am simply fed up already.

I have taken steps to ensure that this character doesn’t contact me again. I admit I might have been a little blunt, but he didn’t seem to get the picture when I was being subtle and gentle. At long last (bonk under the table) he seems to have understood and left me alone.

   I am still a little over sensitive to suggestions from any angle. Please understand that it is not because your ideas are bad.
It is simply a matter of containment from my part. I can’t know everything. I can’t know every character out there. That is why we have google.

And please understand that when I say; “I don’t know a character” I am in fact not asking a question.
I am not asking for elaboration - I am simply stating a fact.

This has been an issue of late, and I admit that it is in a huge part my own fault.
I am not good at saying; no.
I have tried to get better, but it is really hard to change.

My oversensitive emotions of late, the endless suggestions I have been getting from this unmentioned character, and my own continuing struggles back home…

I beg you all to remember, that it is not a giant boulder but a grain of rice that breaks the camels back.
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    Please understand I do not want to discourage anyone from commenting.
Some of your comments (most of them actually) really make my day - every single day - They are that funny and they are that nice and entertaining.
   And they are so encouraging for me to continue my work. Especially the reception of Ron‘s New Cat featuring my OC Tonnie.
That I had truly not expected and I was really thrown back by.

I want to be welcoming and I have taken a few ideas from patrons here on patreon and I am working on them.

But please be considerate.

It might feel like consulting a robot or an emotionless creature on your end, and sometimes I actually feel like one those…
But on the other side of the screen is a human being, who goes through a lot of crap every single day - just like you do I imagine.

I am not a machine that you type in a few suggestions and out pops some stuff.

I am in fact only human.

And I am at a very low point in my life at the moment. And winter doesn’t make it all better.  

I fully admit I might have come across as aggressive and short lately, but here is an explanation for it.
As much as it wasn’t my intention, it is not an excuse though.

I can only apologize and hope for your understanding.

So I am truly and deeply sorry.
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Hammer