MAG 170 - Recollection
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The recollections of Martin Blackwood.
Recorded in Situ.
Content warnings:
- Isolation
- Depression
- Anxiety
- Depersonalisation & self-disorder
- Self-hatred
- Financial distress
- Elderly neglect
- Emotional / Caregiver abuse (mentioned)
- Neurological impairment / Mental deterioration
- Instances of memory loss
- Funerals (mentioned)
- Perceived abandonment
- Persistent droning (SFX)
Thanks to this week's Patrons: MacKenzie Cummings, Elizabeth Boyer, cordsycords, Ace of Artemis, Amanda Dalton, Becky S Chapin, Lorec, Jessica Snyder, YungBrood, Sandra Vucenovic, Kimberly, John Biegel, Nemo Nemiroff, Paula Salkeld, Sophia Anderson, Rheine, William Wold, Milana Tatarenko, Haley Morris, elliot, Katie Barrowman, Bob Charlton, RinM, TeaReesa, Madison Mason, Charly Nygaard, Jurgen Leitner, crxcrvs, Andy Juell, Henry Tschudy, Eboni Daniels, Ms Natalie Catchpole, A_Wild_Sonne, Malediction, Alex, Dante Rowe, Katia, Eric Patterson and Lynn Coy, Harmony Mills, Ronnie Stewart
Edited this week by Annie Fitch, Elizabeth Moffatt, Brock Winstead & Alexander J Newall
Written by Jonathan Sims and directed by Alexander J Newall
Produced by Lowri Ann Davies
Performances:
- "Martin Blackwood" - Alexander J. Newall
- "The Archivist" - Jonathan Sims
Sound effects this week by lwdickens, Sheyvan, altfuture, Anthousai, 13GPanska_Markova_Lucie, 190175, EricsSoundschmiede, mistorcaveman, Joljo, giddster, E0las, offthesky, lartti & previously credited artists via freesound.org.
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Comments
I wonder if the insinuation is that... with Peter Lukas out of the picture, Martin would be the defacto Avatar of the Lonely? Like... this place was *his*? If it was just a trap, the fear that wanted to feed on him, I don't think Jon would have offered to let him stay, right? That could have been Martin's house, if he wanted it.
Rurrie
2024-11-12 13:45:59 +0000 UTCI'M NOT CRYING, YOU'RE CRYING
Rurrie
2024-11-12 13:40:54 +0000 UTCTHIS ONE! Damn near broke me.
Mary M Spila
2024-09-12 12:56:00 +0000 UTCI'm very jaded to most fears, but this episode just *guts* me. Alzheimer is my biggest fear. Having your soul die slowly inside of you. I have to pause this episode every 5 minutes or so just to look out the window and breath. My absolute favorite and the one I dread the most.
Grace 'Gengar' Soria
2024-04-29 16:24:39 +0000 UTCKACHOW!
FyreFlye23
2023-11-26 04:34:36 +0000 UTCThis is the episode that finally prompted me to go back and listen from the beginning again (I missed so much! Even stuff like Martin being locked in his flat for 2 weeks and nobody bothering to check on him...). I can't help feeling that the audience is being drawn towards investing in the characters just as a set up for emotional devastation though...
GugTheGoose
2020-06-10 07:51:08 +0000 UTCWow, that was incredible. One of the best episodes of the series. Fantastic acting and writing, really sticks with you.
Copernicus J Dogg
2020-06-08 15:39:20 +0000 UTCThis episode is one of my personal favorites so far. I love it as much as it broke me.
Kat
2020-06-06 20:04:50 +0000 UTCmy heart broke multiple times. phenomenal work.
ledgem
2020-06-06 10:07:51 +0000 UTCI wonder if this was the Lucas manor. Now, there's nobody left to inherit. The house is empty and the family name forsaken.
Robbie Lyons
2020-06-04 22:53:42 +0000 UTCThat was brutal... so unbelievable well done!
Denise Schi
2020-06-04 19:04:56 +0000 UTCWow, this... this hit me so damn hard. The anxiety, depression, dissociation, self-loathing - all hit too close to home. But the ending, just before Jon gets there, when Martin is reassuring himself. That was really cathartic. This is seriously one of the best episodes, both writing and acting wise, as well as soundscape. Alex and Jonny just keep one-upping themselves and it's so brilliant.
TJ Hoffer
2020-06-04 17:17:41 +0000 UTCThis episode was amazing and intense. I haven’t been this disturbed/upset by an episode since Zombie. Echoing everyone else, i have to say that Alex knocked it out of the park with his performance
elizabeth p.
2020-06-04 15:33:24 +0000 UTCI was wrong. THIS is the most heartbreaking episode so far this season. Oh God, Martin. That just hurt.
Heather MacKenzie
2020-06-04 14:34:36 +0000 UTCNo you're not the only one, I was definitely feeling that as well.
Zorya Dolgushkin
2020-06-04 12:33:16 +0000 UTCOh God... and I thought The Buried was the worst. I now have a new worst fear. Yay?
James Rule
2020-06-04 12:09:09 +0000 UTCAnother week, another heartbreaking episode from Rusty Quill 😍
thefarunlitunknown
2020-06-04 12:03:40 +0000 UTCBest episode you ever brought out! Phenomenal voice-acting, I'm really blown away!
zombie
2020-06-04 11:47:56 +0000 UTCThis episode was incredible. It hit harder for me than any other episode and I had to take a few minutes after to calm down, but the direction, the soundscape, the acting, everything about it has put it at the top of my list. Fantastic work.
Rapsodia
2020-06-04 11:42:33 +0000 UTCI may be the only one who feels that way and that’s totally fine if so! But I wonder if there could be an added cw for anxiety attacks because I wasn’t prepared based on the content warnings provided (even though I love that there are content warnings at all!) and going into it unprepared and basically experiencing what felt very similar to one of my own thirty minute panic attacks made me feel serious levels of anxiety.
Lex Adams
2020-06-04 04:09:13 +0000 UTCthis was a really great episode, loved it a lot! i think you should probably add something about anxiety attacks in the CW for when the episode releases publicly
Sameer MANGOCITRUS
2020-06-04 04:08:02 +0000 UTCI actually had to take a huge breath at the end of the episode because I realized that I had been holding it
Kaitlyn Meloche
2020-06-04 03:06:39 +0000 UTCThis was a really amazing episode and a really satisfying pay off for several seasons of building up to really showing Martin's mental landscape and why he's been the type of person to talk to tape recorders like they're people all along.
liz
2020-06-04 02:43:47 +0000 UTCI started getting existential halfway through this and I’ve never been so scared at an episode before cheers
trinity
2020-06-04 02:11:21 +0000 UTCOhhhhhhh man this one HIT.
Camryn Rennie
2020-06-04 01:51:43 +0000 UTCrelistened almost immediately also i feel seen
oliver
2020-06-04 01:39:12 +0000 UTCYa know, listening to this at 9 at night was probably a mistake, my husband is very confused at how viscerally I'm reacting to this, covered in goosebumps
Katie Knight
2020-06-04 01:37:53 +0000 UTCbruh
Samantha Banaszak
2020-06-04 01:17:06 +0000 UTCThat was amazing. It felt very much like the air was slowly being crushed out of my lungs. Shall have to relisten.
Oltanya
2020-06-04 00:47:08 +0000 UTCI LOVE MARTIN BLACKWOOD A NORMAL AMOUNT
red
2020-06-04 00:30:03 +0000 UTCrq really said gay rights with this episode
Liz Wooten
2020-06-04 00:27:14 +0000 UTCthe bit where he starts talking about being forgetful and always seeing his mother's face when he does something wrong... i rarely hear anyone talk about that aspect of things so candidly. how the shame of emotional abuse from an ill parent follows you forever. how nothing you do is ever enough. anyway, i ate six popeye's biscuits while listening to this. thank you for such a great ep 🕷🎻
martin kachow blackwood
2020-06-04 00:08:39 +0000 UTCWow. Amazing writing and acting. I've made it this far through TMA without crying but this utterly broke me. Tears and shaking and jabs to the heart. Breathtaking episode.
Carolyn Thraves
2020-06-03 23:08:29 +0000 UTCThis is a new level of hurt that I didn't expect. This will take some time to process, but I do commend both Jonny and Alex for this special brand of pain. Well done.
Diamond Schulz
2020-06-03 23:01:56 +0000 UTCHeart-achingly relatable. Really needed this one. Thank you. <3
Mantha Grant
2020-06-03 22:35:39 +0000 UTCThanks for the hopefulness in this episode. I was tearing up over Martin's memory. One of my worst fears is losing myself like that. That and burning to death But hope came from Martin fighting back to himself. He rescued himself and stood up to his gear. He reminded himself that not only does he exist but who he was and he is loved.
Rahlly
2020-06-03 22:20:52 +0000 UTCY'all I am COMPROMISED
Candelantern
2020-06-03 22:13:07 +0000 UTCI made the mistake of listening to this at work. You'd think I would know better?? Truly crushing stuff in this ep. I love it and I am thankful but it hurts
AJ Budd
2020-06-03 22:08:01 +0000 UTCAs someone whose mother died from frontotemporal dementia and had a slow decline into memory loss five years ago, this episode just about killed me. Also since said aforementioned mother wasn’t generally the nicest parent, much like Mahtin’s mother, I’m feeling punched in the gut in the best way possible. The depression/fog is also incredible as everyone else has commented but it was the horror of Mahtin’s failing memory that really did it for me this episode. Jonny and Alex, please work together forever and ever. You two are truly a golden creative pair and the world is better for you sharing your collaborative work. Thank you.
Gilligan Mungus
2020-06-03 21:52:20 +0000 UTCI feel so bad for Martin. But I'm endlessly still curious about the recorders. Maybe the eye uses them to help the archivist "see" things the eye wants him to?
Vortex Eclipse
2020-06-03 21:37:16 +0000 UTCMartin’s speech at the end was so amazing!!! Alex’s voice acting in this episode was absolutely incredible. This episode made me feel emotionally raw in the best way
Liz Wooten
2020-06-03 21:30:46 +0000 UTCholy shit this was so good. the writing was so good. i feel like ive been demolished emotionally.
Chiara Iannelli
2020-06-03 21:06:33 +0000 UTCBest episode of the season so far! honestly one of my favorite episodes of the show. Wow!
carlee
2020-06-03 20:55:50 +0000 UTCWeb Web web
Milan Nigam
2020-06-03 20:52:52 +0000 UTCGreat episode. I don't know if I'm the only one who had myself convinced it was the spiral tricking Martin (memory wipes and playing with perceptions) almost until the end.
Milan Nigam
2020-06-03 20:52:23 +0000 UTCthis was the most painfully upsetting thing i've ever listened to, but it was so so so good. the bit right before jon finds martin is probably the most powerful the show has ever been. i love this. i hate this. alex j newall why must you make us all suffer every single week (please never stop doing it <3)
gojo fujoshi
2020-06-03 20:46:45 +0000 UTCwell this was incredibly painful, the best/worst lonely episode yet. I loved how martin was able to break out of it by thinking of jon in the end though. beautiful writing and voice acting all around, thank you
SpookyArchivist
2020-06-03 20:36:07 +0000 UTCThis was an amazing episode guys! I cried the whole time!!! Thank you for my life!!! Alex you blew the acting out of the water bc yeah, every time it circled back i felt it like a punch to the stomach and started crying more!! thanks!!
Gerry St.Amour
2020-06-03 20:31:10 +0000 UTCI can't believe it. They're fucking doing it. They're ending the series with its strongest season. Holy shit. So...WHERE are the goddamn recorders coming from?!? This all but confirmed it ain't The Eye, since it can already see everything now anyway.
Brian Taulbee
2020-06-03 20:16:33 +0000 UTCCool I hated this thank you :(
Megan Aguilar-Ames
2020-06-03 19:36:02 +0000 UTCHonestly one of the best episodes ever, but so, SO difficult to re-listen to...amazing. well done
Mary A.
2020-06-03 19:21:14 +0000 UTCwow that was fucked up anyway top 10 jonmartin moments <3
olliegarden
2020-06-03 18:56:44 +0000 UTCThis episode is AMAZING, wonderful job, I'm in absolute pain.
RubyDian
2020-06-03 18:30:01 +0000 UTCYes....it was so hard to listen to what mirrors a dissociative depressive episode for those of us that have had them. This will be one episode I don't think I can discuss much...but the fact that Martin found himself says so much about his strength. I cried, and then shed happy tears when he said "Not anymore". Alex's acting is incredible. Jonny's writing is out of this world.
LainyJP
2020-06-03 18:19:40 +0000 UTCThank you for my rights
sAZAndorable
2020-06-03 18:12:47 +0000 UTCrq would it KILL YOU to let them be happy for 5 MINUTES
kodamaiser
2020-06-03 18:08:21 +0000 UTCThis episode hurt so good. The ending showed how strong Martin really is!
Aline Macambira
2020-06-03 18:04:09 +0000 UTCWow guys, you've absolutely smashed it out of the park again. Alex's voice acting in this was especially brilliant. I've been on my own for 85 days and counting so I really felt for Martin in this one. Thank you for continuing to create such incredible content and keeping to your shedule despite such difficult times.
MuddyHippy
2020-06-03 17:29:36 +0000 UTCThis felt like a vice to my heart
Marissa Mendoza
2020-06-03 17:29:18 +0000 UTCThat was incredible but also incredibly painful =,,,) thank you for the episode (also that acting damn!)
Lilmouse
2020-06-03 17:21:42 +0000 UTCAlex absolutely knocked this one out of the goddamn park. Made me want to curl up and go cold. Astonishing work
Deneb
2020-06-03 17:15:09 +0000 UTCDamn, just...damn. I'm going to need a bit to process this one. It felt a little too real, especially the last little bit of Martin's monologue. On a happier note, I'm guessing Tumblr is going to be flooded with tons of Martin and Martin/Jon fan art over the next 24-48 hours. This episode deserves it.
Mark Sutton
2020-06-03 17:13:22 +0000 UTCThat hurt so good
Deleady .
2020-06-03 16:53:14 +0000 UTC:,,,) wonderful, wonderful depiction of issues like depression and memory loss. Seeing the way Martin is truly scared of it but also knows how to deal with it and fight against it was such a powerful thing to listen to as someone who has dealt with both. Thank you guys.
Levi Curtis
2020-06-03 16:29:19 +0000 UTCI just spent 25 minutes crying non-stop. One of the best episodes to date, but possibly one I couldn't handle listening to again.
Linnéa Sandberg
2020-06-03 16:22:56 +0000 UTCMy god, this was incredibly cathartic to listen to, and with that comes the all heart wrenching pain of it. Such beautiful writing and voice acting. The element of fog is so poignant, that total disconnect from mind/body and soul, of all sense of identity and self worth being dissolved and the lack of articulation to convey what it is you are going through. It just hit home so hard, I was in tears throughout. And that declaration at the end, breaking out of the lonely: You didn't choose to be here. I am not lonely anymore, I am NOT lonely anymore, I want to have friends, no, I have friends. I am in love, I am in love and I will not forget that. So beautiful and powerful. Thank you so much for this.
Zorya Dolgushkin
2020-06-03 16:22:37 +0000 UTCEven last week's fire sounds didn't get to me the way that ticking did, 10/10 acting as well
Eituoe
2020-06-03 16:17:30 +0000 UTCSomeone better get this man a good cow to hug or I SWEAR TO GOD
Ghost Dandy Mi
2020-06-03 16:15:17 +0000 UTCoh Beholding, we really in it now
HoloXam
2020-06-03 16:08:52 +0000 UTCThank you for my TEARS
Cassidy
2020-06-03 16:08:35 +0000 UTCOw :c
Ghost
2020-06-03 16:06:33 +0000 UTCUsually I don't like characters that have so much in common with me, like Martin here, with the Lonely and depression and just overall a big spiraling mess, if left alone, but I think this is the rare case of really rooting for the character that I can so strongly relate to. GO MARTIN
sasmus
2020-06-03 16:01:30 +0000 UTCThis episode hurt me. Alex's voice work is so good that you can practically feel Martin's distress at being in the Lonely.
Spicy Hot Take
2020-06-03 15:59:19 +0000 UTCThis felt like getting slapped in the face. I loved it.
GriffinsTreehouse
2020-06-03 15:57:33 +0000 UTCI'm sad
starryecho
2020-06-03 15:57:04 +0000 UTCim going thru it alexa play nobody by mitski
danny
2020-06-03 15:51:13 +0000 UTCThis episode was so good!! I have short term memory loss and often forget what I’m saying while saying it so this definitely hit close to home. I guess that’s why I enjoyed this episode so much though, the subtle horror of forgetting is terrifying. Thank you guys for such a great episode!
Meg Shergold
2020-06-03 15:51:03 +0000 UTCowww oof my heart
Yael Zombie
2020-06-03 15:48:48 +0000 UTCI didn't know my heart could break that many times in a row. Kudos to Jonny for amazing writing and to Alex for a beautiful performance.
E C Marlowe
2020-06-03 15:48:40 +0000 UTCThis hurts so much!
Fizzer
2020-06-03 15:47:45 +0000 UTCWoah that was painful.
Victoria Lapteva
2020-06-03 15:46:44 +0000 UTCThat's fine, I wasn't using my heart for anything else today
Aydenburd
2020-06-03 15:45:36 +0000 UTCOhh myy, it was soo goood! My heart broke to billion pieces, but still it was soo good! the soundscaping, the emotions , oh my, definitely one of my fav episodes!
kogla
2020-06-03 15:42:49 +0000 UTCAHHHHH this episode was so beyond amazing thank you so much
Kit
2020-06-03 15:42:32 +0000 UTCHonestly extraordinary episode. My new favorite by far. Extraordinary voicework, extraordinary writing, extraordinary soundscaping, just everything is UGH so so so good i am in tears this was so good
Gladiolus
2020-06-03 15:40:17 +0000 UTCAlex, your acting was utterly superb during this. This episode broke me. Poor Martin. I really do think he isn't as free from the Lonely as he thinks
Rene Hardigree
2020-06-03 15:39:50 +0000 UTCwhat can I say except oof
serenfire
2020-06-03 15:35:56 +0000 UTCoop there it is. my heart. shattered into little pieces. on the ground. you've stepped all over it. look at it. SAD.
ScarletWitch
2020-06-03 15:35:40 +0000 UTCThis episode was incredible....I can't even put into words how much this moved me.
LainyJP
2020-06-03 15:35:11 +0000 UTChooo boy the RELIEF I felt when jon showed up!!
Finn Patrick
2020-06-03 15:33:42 +0000 UTCCool I just broke down
Morgan Emrys
2020-06-03 15:32:00 +0000 UTCMan FUCK The Lonely!
Brian Taulbee
2020-06-03 15:31:38 +0000 UTCMAH-TIN
Flick
2020-06-03 15:29:55 +0000 UTCThe DREAD in this episode is so real. What a different feeling. TMA crew said we don’t mess around and never have.
james evelyn
2020-06-03 15:29:43 +0000 UTCThank you for my weekly dose of pain it was wonderful
Andrew 'speccyferret' Mercator
2020-06-03 15:29:18 +0000 UTCThe emotional goddamn rollercoaster this episode took me on is going to take me a week to recover from and then it'll all start over again
Maddie
2020-06-03 15:29:07 +0000 UTCCongratulations, Jon! You've set a new bar of insidiousness!
JA Baldwin
2020-06-03 15:28:41 +0000 UTCAND THE PODCAST OSCAR GOES TO ALEXANDER J NEWALL
Arcturus
2020-06-03 15:28:11 +0000 UTCI had to hide behind my hands for half the episode!!! this was Intense and I loved it
PeriPeriwinkle
2020-06-03 15:27:08 +0000 UTCshoutout to Alex for really fucking selling this performance
ieatahottchip
2020-06-03 15:27:07 +0000 UTCshit ow
mistmistly
2020-06-03 15:27:02 +0000 UTCwho gave y’all the right
Jessica Cantrell
2020-06-03 15:27:02 +0000 UTCyo
Jessica Cantrell
2020-06-03 15:26:47 +0000 UTCyou really are trying to kill me huh
Soph
2020-06-03 15:26:31 +0000 UTCI finished the ep and I’m just staring at a wall, feeling every emotion. Hands down, my favorite episode. The acting alone was incredible.... and the soundscaping... wow
Isabelle
2020-06-03 15:25:31 +0000 UTCI'm screaming
Stephanie Leacock
2020-06-03 15:21:18 +0000 UTCJust seeing the content warnings and I am already terrified
Rebecca Dupont
2020-06-03 15:20:01 +0000 UTCoh so we're just jumping straight in huh??? just right in huh????
aubree
2020-06-03 15:19:19 +0000 UTCoh my god oh my god here we go oh my G O D
Sarah Larkworthy
2020-06-03 15:11:57 +0000 UTCthree minutes in and i already had to switch to waterproof mascara geez
cereal
2020-06-03 15:10:16 +0000 UTCoh no
Kaz
2020-06-03 15:09:49 +0000 UTCI’m scared to listen
Roro
2020-06-03 15:06:31 +0000 UTC😨
Jon's Rib
2020-06-03 15:05:59 +0000 UTCUh oh
Roo Jones
2020-06-03 15:01:25 +0000 UTC
