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My Billionaire Triceratops Craves Gay Ass

Added 2022-07-12 20:00:04 +0000 UTC

As you can tell from my posts today I’m in a particularly goofy mood, particularly because I got no sleep and partially bc im driving myself crazy with trying to befriend people but also not being capable of it even though it’s what I desperately want. Bro im convinced my weird social patterens are directly linked to my childhood. I know that I WANT to be social and I do okayish on social media and stuff but real, close, and authentic friendships would be nice too, and I have no idea how to do it right, even with the friends I do have right now, they know I love them deeply but I have a very hard time keeping in touch via technology with them. Im the acception for them. To them I’m that one good friend that disappears for months at a time and when I come back it’s like nothing changed. Most people don’t like that, and I understand the few friends that likely don’t consider me friends anymore bc I don’t live by them, I may have hurt them but I don’t know. I’m also scared to make new freinds even with people I find really cool and interesting. Maybe I’m scared of being vulnerable and use social media as a way to be social without being social? I mean I like being vinerable, but I think I’m just scared of it? Well, I’m going to talk to a therapist and maybe see what they think.