Those of us who suffered from childhood trauma of not being loved/acknowledge or being abandoned

We have to face in future the decision of choosing ourself instead to pleasing people for their love

To choosing yourself will feel like you are abandoning your very root need and it is so hard and head is confused

It is to choose to not follow the only direction your heart desires to go for all life..

sound extreme? But yes, exactly like this this feels..

And this is the hardest lesson to face in this trauma..

To decide to not follow it bc it leads you to destruction and constant suffer out of your power

But choosing to stay loyal to your self by stepping back or out of this toxic circle

takes practice until you realise that the very need that brought you to this, is actually fulfilling by this very act with the difference that the love doesn’t come from outside but from within..

that you are your hero/parent/partner and this act is act of love and protection that you were always looking for…

How did I recognised when i was falling back to circle ?

In moments that felt like if I don’t self abandon my self I will not be loved

Moments that feels like : Me vs. Receiving love from others …it looks like if u choose either of it u will win something, but for real it feels opposite… it feels what ever U choose U LOSE, your Self or the love..

In healthy way that is by soul, you deserve both, u want both bc both are align

Both the Self and the Love are the same Oneness

If You are so attracted by this dream of love(which is just desperation to meet your unmet need) like night butterfly to light and same like it it will always burn u down if you keep going again and again, there is no other end

Sorry not sorry to clear it out for you but this dinamic will never end differently but with you suffer

Bc to continuously self-abandon ourselves in r/f-ship+supported by your partner/friend/family member is sign that the relationship is played out by unhealthy dynamic

Then The question is :

What do you want to live? What are you choosing for yourself? Who are you?

We all got this limitlessly powerful compass 🧭 to lead us through life

Intuition/emotional intelligence/emphaty/sensitivity/guts feeling/heart/SELF AWARENESS

To show us what is good for us for REAL

All is necessary is to choose it

and practice will follow when u truly want something..

I have it that way now, when I chose anything it starts happening within minutes without me putting pressure or extreme effort just to make simple first steps towards it I attack it in my life

It is really just about surrendering in to endless evolution of Self and believe the flow of it

Those who read this and understand comment ,,🫂”

Those who think da fuck is she talking about comment 👽

Love

Tezz

Photos from Amazing photoshoot with Stefan Beutler