You are free same as I am free
Added 2021-12-21 14:36:29 +0000 UTCMantra for relationship
You are free same as I am free.
We were on our casual night walk in beach with Suki(our dog)
When we got to pier and stop there to take a look on sea π we have been already in some conversation I donβt even remember about what but what I remember is the feeling that Fabian was in some of his process and talking out of it and I just didnβt resonated with it. I stand on edge of the pier and look in deep water moved by waves with strong shine from moon and I couldnβt help myself but feel strong sensation from that whole
moment, sounds of the sea was taking me to presence deeper in that moment.
Suddenly Fabi turn back and walk away.
I wanted stay. But all that time I felt lil voice pushing from inside that was pulling me to go after him and my thoughts started create stories that maybe he got offended and I wanna run after him to make sure that is all okey (aware that this pattern is connected to my child trauma resp. pattern base on wound that is so fragile), but I also heard calling to stay in that moment for my Self.
I saw this lil inner battle from position of inner witness and bc I was curious & I know that I am not my patterns I simply decided to not act, to not move but Stay
It helped me to ask my Self :
if I was there alone if I would stay or go and answer was so clear: I WOULD STAY AND JOIN THAT MOMENT.
that made me realise I donβt want to abandon my self for nothing and no one even for my beloved partner.
& I set my self free
Strait I did it this same program came from different direction with thoughts that now he is waiting for me and maybe he feels abandoned
And there it came so strong and clear from inside
YOU ARE FREE AS I AM FREE
β¦ & I let go
