Wolf Milking
Added 2021-05-07 22:56:49 +0000 UTChttps://e621.net/posts/2729935
I think I'm pretty much done with this wolf for now. He's been through a lot.
This is the first result of my unemployment. Started it yesterday morning with the old wolf model. Removed the image-based fur and gave him some proper fur around the key areas, trying to blend it in with the existing textures. Then I had a look at his underbits. The model was pretty decent, but the testicles were just a lump, so I pulled them off and nailed on a new set, which I think came out ok.
It's definately not perfect. The sheath and dick sort of seperate a little on the thrusts, but camera angles can hide that issue, as long as you don't watch the shadows on the wall...
The whole premise is dumb anyway. He pulls out far enough to escape, and the restraints aren't really restraining, but who gives a shit, it's a quick 1 day animation. Yes, it has taken 2 days, but that's because I fucked up the first render and had to fix a few issues, but the edit has been done since last night.
Anyway, the blurb on e621 is accurate. I suffer from depression and after the last few months, culminating in losing my job, I've been feeling like I can't do anything right. That's the kind of feelings that turn your days completely unproductive. I'm not going to claim that I'm actually doing nothing but animating in my free time, I'm not. I switch between things. Sometimes after a hard week at work, I'd spend a day doing nothing or going biking, just so I had some time to pretend that I actually exist.
I'm shit with words about myself. I can usually turn a good phrase when I need to, but I'm inept at personal feelings and shit, so this is going to sound suspiciously like an advertising thing or guilting people into doing stuff. It's not. It may sound like it, but it's not supposed to.
Having people supporting what I do, even people just commenting or liking or whatever is what keeps me going most of the time. Not even from an ego point of view. More of a guilt-tripping. It sort of helps with the doubts that I'm wasting my time for no reason. It helps me sit down and make the next thing, because people cared enough to click a button or subscribe or whatever.
Of course, then the mental issue come storming in because you've just made something, and you're convinced this is the thing that's going to drive everyone away, but it hasn't happened yet, so just keep going.
Long story short, I will be looking for another job, but the last few months have been constant work. I'm taking some time off first. I'm going to put in some more work on the animation. I want to get some more content going. But I also want to take some time off and go away for a few days. I don't want to think about jobs for a little while.
Finally, I might try streaming this next week. Should be interesting seeing if I can get it to work on shitty wifi, inside a van. It probably won't work, but it's worth a shot. If I do go ahead, I'll chuck up a schedule on sunday.
Finally finally, and TL;DR, thanks for your support. If I've articulated it so badly you have no idea what I mean, then you have no idea how much your support keeps this stuff coming.
Comments
I really like that model and somehow the bondage stuff in it. Yeah the pandamic sucks really hard. It´s so depressing. I wish you good luck for the future and take your time
OurFavDolphin
2021-05-25 05:49:11 +0000 UTCAn impressively long animation for a day of work! The model definitely looks better, didn't notice much separation even looking at the wall. The rubber entrance to the milker looks particularly good to me, timed well with his thrusts. Wouldn't worry too much about the logistics, Porn Logic covers any inconsistencies, haha! Depression is unfortunately common these days, and it hits every sufferer differently. It's good that you're taking time for yourself, working and stressing is exhausting, if necessary. No worries about how the words read, the message is the important part. I imagine every artist eventually has the struggle of whether to continue working on art, but have undeniable evidence that someone likes what you're putting out there is absolutely motivating. I've written a few amateur stories, nowhere near the time you've put into learning and creating animation, but getting comments/votes on them makes my day. People that make art for their own sake are a rare breed. It's certainly a nice idea to strive for, but man does it not pay well, heh. Understandable to take a break, especially after a job loss. It's a hard thing, particularly if you've been doing it for a while. The pandemic fiscal recovery will be slow, those openings can wait. In the end, glad to help in our own small ways. I think I speak for all of us in wishing you well, whether that be a decompression day, a productive day, or somewhere in between. Keep fighting the good fight!
Dargon
2021-05-10 06:41:11 +0000 UTC
