Spidey Skirt!

   I spent the entire day script co-writing for the upcoming movie! I am SO EXCITED you guys! Everyone working on it with me agrees that it's going to be a spectacular success! We will start filming this December!

  All my life I wanted to be an actress. From kindergarten through 8th grade I got lead roles in plays and musicals.  It was the only class I attended most of my senior year in high school! I graduated A.C.T. theater in San Francisco. I got married young and my now ex- husband one day presented me with an ultimatum. He said he couldn't stand the thought of me potentially being cast in any movie where I might have to interact with another man. He had often threatened to kill other men in grocery stores, just for looking at me. He literally wrote up a contract stating that I would not ever attempt to become an actress or He would have no choice but to divorce me. I was very young, and had never lived in my own, since I had been with him since I was 16. I didn't know  had the choice to leave or that I could even make it on my own. Seven years later, I finally made the decision that I would rather be alone forever than spend another day under his thumb. And then, feeling free, I went to a casting call, and they liked me very much, but said, "I'm sorry but you're going to have to come back when your skin is under control". At the time I did have awful hormonal cystic acne, and though in my mind I was very good at covering it up, the reality is that I wouldn't look good on film. I was so embarrassed I left without saying anything. I was holding back tears I just nodded my head, tried to smile, and burst into tears as soon as I was back in my car. I did all that I could to clear my skin, every topical treatment, lasers, peels, evvverrrything... I didn't realize the condition of my skin had everything to do with the condition of my spirit, which was still messy, helpless, chaotic.. It was nude modeling and stripping that oddly brought me the security I needed to calm my skin. I had money for the first time in my life, and a new sense of confidence. Sadly, I was left with textured scarring, and though I have tried every laser for the past 3 years, nothing has really helped even them out. So I'm writing my own damn movie! And I'm going to look beautiful and act even better!