february 2022

hiii everybody, happy new year! you'll never guess what i did in january!! i messed up my hand by pushing it when it hurt on that last "do you still think about it" update!!!

more seriously, it's still somewhat achey, but i can draw for a few hours without pain again most days without making it worse. however, knowing that it can hurt and that i need to be careful means that i work a lot more slowly. it's like one constant distraction. still, it's better than nothing. maybe this time i'll learn not to push it out of anxiety.
i have an appt on the 15th to see a different doctor, but she will probably need to refer me somewhere, so more waiting anyway. i went to an urgent care like a week ago and they gave me a round of steroids, which actually did not really seem to fix the problem. on march 2nd, i see the doctor i've been seeing about the hand and wrist pain and i get to hear if she actually begot a PT referral for me or not.

the other thing is i built up a tolerance to my strattera, and tolerance can be hard to identify, because it's just kind of a slow backslide, so it got REALLY bad before i would even attempt to communicate this to my psychiatrist. now i'm on a tiny dose of methylphenidate. it gives me spoons and some mental clarity, but not a lot of focus.

either way, better than a medication that isn't really affecting me at all, and better than constant pain, so hopefully february will be better than january.
very much thinking i'll need to push off catharsis until at least march. i'm unsure how much i should focus on catharsis vs. do you still think about it, so i will probably also throw up a poll.

anyway, thanks for the patience. i also have this worm comic i'm working on out of passion for it or something and i'll post that up as it develops as well. i do like writing about story development a lot.