12/3/25

Hallo everynyan... Long time no talk and by long time i mean 5 days.. ish..

It's been pretty awful for me lately cause I'm artblocked and im having scammer syndrome again where I feel like I'm scamming everybody by taking too long with the comics and the nsfw comics and the paintings and it's just too many things I wanted to do with so little time 😭😭AND ITS FREAKING DECEMBER PLS THE YEAR IS ALMOST OVER? ARE U KIDDING ME??? I FEEL LIKE I HAVENT DONE SHIT THIS ENTIRE YEAR... and u guys can see that I post pretty much every week... and i also wanna cry so bad bc the comic's nowhere near where I thought it would be by this time, there's way too much to do and so little time but I don't even have time to draw or paint anything else.. OR DO SHORTS, oh god i miss doing shorts so much but i really just dont have the time.. it's cooking me really bad😭😭

I've been meaning to do another christmas special episode but at this rate it's not getting done like at all, i'm way too behind on everything I planned and I dont want to take a hiatus bc the patreon's all i have 😭 i'd probably go crazy if I don't have a place to yap like just trying to make it through the day is hard lately.. there was a really big snow storm where I lived a couple days ago and it's just been so freaking cold in my room since the window's not sealed properly and I'm scared I'm gonna get sick again BUT let's pray i don't.. my victorian child immune system's really gonna take it hard as it gets colder and colder..

I feel really bad for not being more active on here and while everyone's super understanding as always the only way for me to NOT feel so bad is to post more, but Idk what I would even post if all my time's spent on doing the comic 😭😭 I feel like my art's going nowhere and people are already losing patience with the webtoon and i fell off and im unc and im chopped and all the bad adjectives that the kids use nowadays cause I really just can't keep up with the pace I set for myself 2 years ago.. But things have changed and so have i and maybe I should just accept that I can't draw fast no more... the nsfw comic last week really drained me bc I was just so frustrated drawing some of the scenes bc i hate my art style so much it's like I've been drawing for THIS LONG and i still struggle so hard with anatomy.. I tried doing studies but you know when you're in a math class and everyone just gets the answer right immediately but no matter how you look at the problem you still dont get it..? that's me whenever i try doing anatomy studies.. i just get so frustrated with myself like isn't this YOUR JOB? SHOULDN'T IT LOOK GOOD? WHY CAN'T DRAW A SHOULDER? WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME.... I wish I knew how to use 3d models so I never have to worry about anatomy ever but i have a piece of shit pc that literally freezes when I open youtube for too long so.. it's really a me problem atp and I need to get my shit together .. I'll try to be active on patreon soon I'm sorry november hasn't really been a good month for me but hopefully December will be better.. I so want to do the christmas special but I just don't have time I'm really sorry.. I feel awful about it..

Anyways... sorry for the vent, but this is what I'm talking abt like if I didnt have a Patreon to yap i'd probably go crazy by now 😭 I hope everyone's keeping warm and thank you sm for supporting me here.. I'm always so grateful.. i still hope u guys like the slop that I drew today even though they're not as good as usual.. 😢😢 Have a nice day everynyan i lav you..!