8/24/25

Hallo everynyan!

SORRY FOR NOT POSTING ANYTHING FOR 5 DAYS STRAIGHT I FELT SO BAD WHEN I REALIZED HOW MUCH TIME PASSED but i rly didnt have enough drawings to post and even the patreon requests ive taken aren't getting done soone enough i've just been drawing season 4 like crazy this past week 😭😭😭 i didnt wanna post any speedpaints either bc theyre not that interesting or fulfilling to make at all.. but here are some paintings i've done in the five days.. theyre not that high quality cause im still preoccupied with season 4 prep i barely even do anything else these days..

You'll notice more Kangshiro drawing this time around bc im writing for them again in the nsfw comic, everytime i write for someone i always start drawing that character or that couple a lot in my doodle posts, thats why cherie crush are always present cause in my head i might never rly stop writing for them 😭😭 i'm not even that far ahead of schedule but i really want to get more work done by the time August ends, can u believe it september is next week already, i try not to look at things too negatively but bc rn i dont have audience's reaction to gauge how well it'll do i kept thinking that the day season 4 drop is gonna be the worst day of my life or something, like there's that sense of impending doom that all this hardworking and hemming and hawing over plot and shit will just be for nothing and ill get made fun of again n thats just been my state of mind for the past 6 months basically..

I dont even think its imposter syndrome bc its more like scammer syndrome bc im literally taking everyones hard earned money to draw yaois and if i cant even deliver on that im just a scammer.. but then i dont even think my comic is that interesting since i'm in that phase where writing everything feels final, like once you lock in a plot point youre closing the door on future plot, future plot that couldve been better but will never be written bc i chose this point specifically. Everytime i reread cherry crush i just cringe so bad bc i always find moments that couldve been written better, panels that couldve been worked on longer.. i think the longer the series go the bigger the anxiety and stress is bc im losing my whimsy and my sense of adventure.. there's nothing else to be aiming for anymore ive explored all i could with these characters and i have to write their conclusion, the ending is the whole point of the story, if a storys good but the endings mid everyone's gonna remember that shitty ending forever, i dont want cherry crush to be a story thats only remembered for its bad ending...😭 i want it to be good so bad but in my hearts i know its not good theres already a bajillion stories like cherry crush but better written with better characters and better art and i KNOWWW i shouldnt compare but i genuinely feel like im scamming people bc everyone here deserves to see cherry crush have a good ending, youve all supported me through sm and i dont wanna scam people 😭😭😭I'M ALREADY SCAMMING BY NOT POSTING ANYTHING FOR 5 DAYS.. IM SORRY AGAIN

Anyways thats a huge yap but yeah ive just been losing my mind drawing and writing season 4 and i hope u like the paintings at least.. ill try to be more consistent again next week, the next art update will be the kangshiro nsfw comic cause i rly need to get that out of the way so i can focus on comic crunch.. 😭Have a good sunday everynyan i lav you thank you so much for still supporting me even though all i do is complain.. also i have a stomachache rn pls pray for me