A Change of Vision

It's April, so how did March go for Lapras and what's the quiet period this time?

Started well, and then at the end, not so great.

I'll be honest, I had a bit of a mental breakdown.

I wouldn't say it was anything to worry about but yeah, my mental health did take a small nosedive recently.

How do I put this...I've been feeling like I'm going around in circles. Like I can never continue into a straight path, get to my goals and ambitions. I'm just stuck in the same place and never going anywhere.

This really isn't regarding my content creating, I love creating art and finding time to write, its more about my personal life. You guys have supported me for many years and I'm forever thankful for the support via Patreon and Fanbox. As much as the donations have helped over the years, the one thing I can never overcome is the debt I created with not much choice before the Patreon was set up. As much as I've paid off, I find myself using said credit to pay for the little emergencies or things I need and never getting it any further paid off.

I made the promise up updating daily as one of my draws to the Patreon but other the last 2-ish years, either my anxiety plays up or something in my personal life gets in the way, either screwing up my sleep pattern, like they are a bit now, or take away precious creative time and energy. Its frustrating I have dozens of  ideas as well as the ideas you guys request and commission me to do, but something always comes along to delay them. As much as I make from the Patreon and Fanbox, I do also feel like I've hit my ceiling as far as channel growth in concerned, tuck around the same number I've been for a good few years now.

Then after something that happen to a very important friend of mine....it all come crashing down on me. I feel weak, and stopped from fulfilling my full potential.

After all that, and a random dream where I brought 2 tigers that lived in my garden for some reason, I really sat and thought about what I am going to do about it.

The conclusion I've come up with is I need that daily update routine to come back this April.

Of course that means less life distractions to really focus on the content creating and I figured there is a personal sacrifice I can make to achieve this. It might sting for a bit, but ultimately its a lesson I need to really work myself like the old days.

Another factor I need is a more offensive action in promoting myself to grow the numbers needed to sort my life out. More updates all round, more informing folks via my social medias  and free galleries of when I update to reach more and more people, looking into more places like Patreon and Fanbox where I can post my works, and very importantly, fast track the much promised Discord channel to really create a community among you guys and update you better when I have these silent moments.

Any suggestions from you guys to further promote myself to gaining more new regular donators are very welcomed. We can discuss it in the comments, private message or in the Discord when it opens.

I'm sorry again for all the delays, all my real life BS that gets in my way and my mental health and anxiety but I'm really motivated to change my life and work schedule around with the plan. If successful, I should knock a lot of the requests I owe by the end of the month and start to have a more regular update routine. Just let me get Wrestlemania weekend out the way, and I'll get real started on Monday. :)

Wish me luck and no matter what happens, you guys are always so awesome. Thank you. <3