I will give up on the deadline
Added 2023-10-22 06:26:58 +0000 UTCOctober's reward will be the Azur Lane doujinshi I made in 2019.
It has been a year since I tried to fix the schedule. I already tried everything I could but it's just not working. There is no way to finish 2 months of work in one month without sacrificing quality. Whenever I try to do it, my mind just starts to make things become even more complicated in order to fix the quality hole and it always fails. It's nothing weird, I can only think about how to make things better, not worse so I just can't do it even if I want to.
Besides, both my mental and physical health are already at limit. I haven't had any real break since last year so I can't take this anymore.
Lately, I feel my liver become hot and It start to rash everywhere. I don't know the reason, maybe the stress and long days of lack of sleep finally get me. Even the time to meet the doctor, I don't even have that.
Also, I can't pause another month because it was very troublesome to pay the monthly bill last month. I am not making that much money compared to other artists. It's already pretty hard to keep drawing as my main job to be honest.
That is why please forgive me for not completing everything as I promised. The finance problems are harsh for everyone now but I really want when you guys leave, you leave when I did my best. I really can't bear the guilt of not making a complete product while I can do it. I am very sorry for this decision.
P/s: If you want to exchange the doujinshi with my old reward, just message me. I will get it for you. Anytime is fine.
Let's start again.
Comments
Thank you for your kind words. I still have work left to do. After I finish the Shiori's set, I will take a real long rest this time. Getting some rest is what I must do now. It has been a damn year and I can't make it man in the end. Can't say I feel okay with this but I already did all I could. But this is for the best. After a long rest, I will be back soon and make something better. Well, the source of all this trouble is that I spent too much time on a piece anyway. So I can't say for sure it won't happen again because you know, the idea takes me where it wants me to be. I also want to see how it end up like you guys. But I will have to be more careful to not repeat this tragedy again...
花田やのち - Yanochi Hanada
2023-10-22 15:12:04 +0000 UTCI'm sorry that you had to suffer the frustration of a loss of progress like this. No matter the specific endeavor, to sink your passion and effort into something only to have it destroyed by things out of your control is maddening. I wish there was a way I could help you out more. Like you said, the finances are tough for everyone right now, and I can't say I've been fortunate enough to escape that unscathed. But we're all doing what we can. I have a lot of respect for the effort you put into your work, the attention to detail and the way you transform your passion and vision into a reality that can be shared with us. With all the pressures on you, you've done an incredible job. I think you've earned success as much as you've earned a rest. Your health is critically important, but I understand how difficult it can be to balance that against a sense of duty and your own desire to push yourself. If anything good comes of this, it's a sense of gratitude that you're able to commit to resting now. I can say from the bottom of my heart that I care far more about you feeling better and taking care of yourself than chasing the deadline. Ultra is absolutely right, we care about you. I will continue to support you regardless. I hope you feel better soon, and I think it'll be nice to come back to things refreshed without worrying about old pressures. Stay safe and rest well! I will be around no matter what.
Toastywafflz
2023-10-22 13:48:47 +0000 UTCThank you for your kind words ! I understand my body better than anyone. What I really need right now is to stop pushing myself into impossible work and get some rest... Many fans are also concerned about my health and ask me to give up months ago but it's just my pride and stubbornness that make the situation worse. I am very sorry to make you guys worry. I will take some good rest after finishing the Shiori set. Finally, it's nearly over. I am very lucky to have fans like you. Once again, thank you very much !
花田やのち - Yanochi Hanada
2023-10-22 07:12:29 +0000 UTCI'm so sorry to hear that 😞 I can't imagine how frustrating and demotivating it is to have 10 days worth of work just gone in an instant. That and along with your health problems it must feel like you have the weight of the world holding you down with no escape. I honestly don't know what I could say that could help remedy the sitaution, but you'll always have my support. Keep your head high and I'm sure you'll make it through sometime in the future. Eventually you'll be able to look back and be proud of yourself for making it so far and getting out of that rough spot. If anything, please look after yourself and avoid doing things that may harm health. A lot of people really care about you ❤️ The best of luck to you and stay safe!
Ultra
2023-10-22 06:58:06 +0000 UTC
