Lust

I see a lot of "aesthetic" photography showing just some attractive body parts and that's it.  I really like it too, but I feel somewhat cheap if that makes sense?

I mean...Ok let me "rant" a bit. What I've really learned since I uploaded my art overall is that quality/time/skill/effort does not equal success. A great example would be NNN. I can tell you, that the most difficult and time consuming part of any artwork would be the face and hair, meaning, everything that doesn't include it, is automatically reducing it's production time by around 4h. The most successful artwork I ever uploaded is ironically the one that took the least time or effort to make. Literally. I am always so hard on myself to develop even more and try out new stuff, but it seems like it's not really necessary. I mean - for me as an artist it is - but I guess few value the work that goes into an artwork and rather look at "the pretty picture". I don't blame anyone, it's just one thing I noticed and that's hard for me to grasp, because I am automatically more attached to and proud of something that I worked hard on and poured like 20h of my life into it, rather than something that I created in a heartbeat if you know what I mean?

That being said; I really appreciate any comments or messages from you! You really need to guide me through and need to tell me what you like, because I can't pump out content like other artists may do /:

The problem with these kinds of artworks simply is, that around 50% of the time it usually takes is just missing and everything feels uncompleted, though, I would never upload something I myself am not satisfied with/is low in quality.

What I am trying to say I guess is: I am in a little crisis regarding my art.
Instead of feeling relieved that it took just 10h, I am nervous and confused. Instead of feeling happy, to basically achieved a good drawing with so little suffering, I am feeling cheap...

Ugh I am so sorry to pour my heart out like that recently, but that's just how it is.

To tell a bit more about this piece:
I am obsessed with veins recently. I try to keep them subtle but I add them everywhere I can haha! Also: Nips! Still hate them, still find them weird but I keep telling myself it's a process.

This is actually a drawing in a long time that I color balanced afterwards! Usually my artworks are as is. You can dissect each layer and see what it did. This time I bumped up the contrast a bit, because I couldn't achieve it with just layers. The monochromatic pieces are really interesting, though, I find they gulp up a lot of detail!
(Also can you tell I am super bad at naming things haha!?)