from smiles to tears
Added 2025-07-14 09:49:01 +0000 UTCI was going through the archive and found this photo shoot with Vika and a piece of video backstage where I tell her "I'm going to cry" and she continues to build the frame. after the photo shoot, I told her that I liked everything, but I would like to stay a little longer in the moment when I was overcome with emotions and share this moment with her.
"Ira, I don't remember this..."
if I'm not mistaken, this photo shoot was after the shelling, if not nightly, then during the week.
during a session with a therapist, I said that I notice a lot of ignoring the topic of war with others, that emotions, feelings and events are so masterfully ignored that I want to burp.
Now I've come to the point where I openly talk about the realities of my life on Patreon and the OF, and ask followers to take into account the fact that any glimpse of energy, playfulness and sexuality is a fucking event for me. I talk about what hurts, about how much is hidden behind beautiful portraits and nudes.
of course, this affects the number of subscriptions and money earned, but now I feel relieved that I'm cutting off the shit that I used to try to tolerate.
I'm tired of ignoring the duality of life and showing only one side of it, to those of you who don't even read to what i am saying
fuck it
