State of The Things

Please do not read the hate anymore, its sole purpose is destruction. Political flavoring is just a thin façade to wield the hate and get away with it. You are a creator, the way to defeat hate is simple, keep on creating

Late comment here, but... thanks for all you do, Tex. You're a good human. Don't let those who aren't bring you down. Appreciate you so much, and all you do for our hobby. I hope a few weeks of downtime brought some much needed quiet.

As someone who has been trained with largely negative reinforcement, I can relate to how much those mindless rants affected you. Some people think that screaming words at another person is communicating with them. They are wrong. You are a good person taking action and doing excellent things for your community. They are couch surfing freeloaders that rely on others for their own creativity. They have no right to your time or intellectual work. Neither do I or anyone else. Thank you for sharing with us.

Augy-WMEC906

I think your 'politics' - interest in local over other stuff, is wise, but I wish you hadn't felt the need to talk about it - because politics isn't your world and *that's good.* I agree *entirely* with your politics as described here, but ... I wish you hadn't been driven to this. I can understand talking about it - but I wish you hadn't felt the need. I stand with you. My stance with you will include civility, but it will not include any kind of culture war. You are *precisely* as Mr. Rogers as you need to be. I miss Fred Rogers. I don't think I'd realized you'd filled that role in my world, at least to a degree, but I think you have.

Grigsbot

I'll repeat what i said on the other update, you're a top bloke, its an exceptionally rare individual that reasons calmly with outraged detractors. As to your request: "on this matter, and by my car keys (since i don't have a sword), i so swear" a touch theatrical/silly perhaps, but It felt good to say the words and commit to civility.

Wet farting at a wedding

Big Nick Rethemeyer

I stand with Tex.

Big Nick Rethemeyer

You’re a good man Tex. You did nothing wrong. There are people out there that only feel validated when they can tear others down. You have gone out of your way to be a good person, you have helped make people’s lives better, and I can empathize with how much it hurts when people who don’t know you condemn you when you’ve gone above and beyond the call of duty to be a good person. You’ve handled this like a saint in my opinion in trying to reason with the people that attacked you. For what it’s worth, and I hope it helps soothe your mind, I personally wouldn’t engage in your content if I thought you were a bad person. I honestly think you’re a better person than myself.

OhWolfy

Tex, I know that this is just one reply among many (Very well deserved!) But I can't really help wanting to chime in and say that while I hate that this has happened. This should have never gone the way it did, but groups of people that have spent a lifetime exposed only to sensationalism are conditioned only to over react. Your response to this entire snafu has been humbling to see. You did good. You tried to reach people, to communicate. Many people in your exact situation will not do that. And if I ever find myself in the same situation, I can only pray that I find the strength to handle it with even a shred of the care for the people in the crowd that you have shown. You were dealt a bad hand, and you did your best. I'm genuinely inspired. Edit: And now I have "surprisingly wet fart at a wedding" stuck in my head and am likely to use it at work. I'm not sure if this is good or bad.

Mad Ducks

I'm here for you Tex. You are a good person.

Jacob Webb

A follow up, I just finished the entire recording and nothing you said you should be regretting IMHO. If your host is an ass that is his deal and please do not take in on. Heal and know you will have support everyday from now until you decide to close this chapter. Until then keep taking care of you and making stompy Robot fun!

Jack Shepherd

Take care of you and know you are trusted and supported.

Jack Shepherd

Keep up the great work Tex. Can't match unreasonable expectations of crazies on the internet. Your work and fundraisers speak for themselves.

T V

I am totally new to the franchise, my first introduction was Mechwarrior 5, then the recent Battletech PC game. I found your content and I have immediately become addicted to the greater franchise, the lore... everything. Your work is brilliant and you are worthy of support and I stand with you against the knee jerk reaction of the internet at large from something like this. So from a new fan, I've got your back.

I'm a bit late commenting on this, but I just wanted to say that I only truly became interested in the BattleTech universe because of your content. Keep your head up and keep going, stay strong and just know that you are appreciated!

James Underwood

: If I haven't been clear before, I'll be the most specific now: You've kept me from ending it. Your stories, your life, your experiences shared through your gameplay helped distract my mind from dark places. I am thankful for that gift of friendship to someone you don't even know. : As for your message: well said. I've been in a similar position. I've had to build skills to adapt that are exhaustive. You are one of few that help me relax. I completely understand a change in what you talk about and share. "The less they have the less they can use". Do what you need to do Tex. Self care is the most important. I'm happy you've been on this path for so long and have come so far. Thank you.

Don’t let it get you down man your awesome. You have gotten me back into Battletech from playing mech games as a kid. And the fact that you TRY to be a good person proves that you are.

Michael Kimberling

Best community EVER. Best community LEADER ever.

mattcorran

"...Hobby or a craft" "It's the light to fight the darkness." Yes, sir! Well said! The best thing said in this!!!!

mattcorran

You made a mistake, but you'll learn from it. Remember who you are at heart. Remember, you are not this awful person. Thank you for rekindling my love of Battletech. Thank you for all the positive things you and this team of yours do. I am TRULY proud to be a member of Black Pants Legion!

mattcorran

I need to find more people like you, people who try to do better and be better than they were yesterday. People who work hard and make time to help. It reminds me to do better on my end. I hope you get recovered from this mess soon.

Agonized over this shit.  Hope it helps.  Your response to the filthy Capellans was far more honorable -- and kind -- than my own.  Our 40k kin have a saying.  About letting the galaxy burn.  Thank you very much.  You challenge me to improve. I was a former 40k player: Many of us have been there.  When the "fun" in your life becomes collectivist and malignant.  The Battletech community stands to gain a lot from some of those folks joining us.  And those who choose to join should find this community kinder.  Far less abusive of their time, money, and intelligence. We love your work, man.  I know, many of us don't really know you.  But we know your work.  And we Love It.  We love it because you care.  That shines through. Good luck, and God bless, with the head goblins.  I know some damn fool stranger saying so on the internet ain't going to fix your heart ache.  But the measure of a soul is that they build others up.  Not asking, How much can I get?  Who can I destroy?  But instead asking how much more can I give?  Keep back some for yourself, man.

Can you provide some examples, citations of the "absolute vile things" you have personally heard him say?

You take care of yourself, Tex.

And that ending where you advocate to just let the haters shuffle off and kindly encourage people to support what they love if they are disillusioned by something, incorrectly or not, is why I support you. It's not just because you are funny or have a great voice for youtube stuffs, not the memes or exploding spacemen though all that certainly encourages my decisions. It is that bound in stone determination to do what you think makes the world a better place and not be forced by others to taint it. To be kind when others would rage even if that would be a justifiable response. You may always question your worth or your decisions and effectiveness but hopefully we can always show you that you are making a difference and that we don't question it. Many people want support out here in the interwebs but I give it to you because you have the integrity and character to do something good with it. Never forget that a lot of us have your back on this man.

Mechanist Grimm

A world where a person has to state they are not a nazi when their content is about giant space robots driven feudal inbred lords...

Brian

Discount Dan would sell his grandma if it could turn a profit.

I didn't realize they'd let me write a thesis for a profile name and now I'm channelling my inner Fallout Boy

Everything is going to be ok, Tex even if it doesn't feel that way now. You have a good circle of people to support you as you deal with what is going on, just take your time and let them help you work through this. You have dealt with worse and survived that, you'll survive this. The majority of the community is here to stay and continue to support you and everything you do for us. If anything, this has probably brought in more people and encouraged others to up their support, myself included. It would appear that every cloud does indeed have a silver lining.

Tex, we're with you. Don't get upset by idiots!

Lot a folks are here for you, Tex. We've got your back Mechcommander. :)

No matter what, no matter when, we're here for you man. The people that vomit hate and vitriol at you are shitheels, barely even worth the oxygen they waste. We're here for you. The people that actually care are here.

Mr. Burd

Keep up the good work Tex, monsters exist sadly, and they're all sad people without an objective in life. They live to destroy, not to create, bc they're not able to create something, so they envy those who can create good things and are mad at them. bring it as a medal for your good deeds, have faith and always be positive. A big hugh and stay strong!!!! And i bought black pants too :D Oh! and sorry for my english, i'm still italian :D

Tex I first found you about a year ago watching your Space Station 13 videos. I binged a bunch then drifted away because of work and other things that got in the way. Then you got on that podcast with Arch, and the moment I heard your voice I felt all those laughs and good times roll back right away. Your content is magnificent and you produce something which truly brings people joy. You have single-handedly got me to set down my Thousand Sons, and pick up a 3D printer, Battletech (the 2018 game), Mechwarrior Online, and hopefully soon, the Battletech game itself. I've been absolutely adoring your Battletech lore videos so far and the universe has me gripped like nothing I've felt since Discworld or 40k. I wish you all the best and a speedy return to a stable state, and I wish the horrible, venomous little oiks who have been waging Internet Jihad against you a stay in the chair where it kicks their shins over and over forever with a metal foot. P.S. I'll buy your entire stock of Discount Dan's Ball Shavers P.P.S. This Covenant Is Sealed Mr Tex.

100% this.

Tex is one of the kindest and wisest people i've ever encountered, and he makes awesome entertainment to boot. I can only hope to one day be as good at any of those things as he is.

Ironguard

I need to give background, I have said before I am disabled, have PTSD from a savage life of abuse. I am... touchy at best. Last October 9, 2020 my mother died. She was the one person on this earth that understood me and I could speak my mind freely. I was and am devastated. I decided shortly after that I was going to kill myself. I hid the items from my family and set it up in my basement which is my wood shop. I would sit, numb, on my stool at the bench and just stare off. It was so quiet I put on the podcast. For a short short while I would just sit there and laugh. It stopped the feeling for just enough time for me to go back upstairs, hide the supplies and think to myself I would do it tomorrow. I would go back and listen to a podcast I missed the next day and repeat it. Tex, you and your band of fools saved my life. I know for a fact if I wasn't distracted with laughter during those times I would have done it. I have no doubt about it. I love your channel, the SS13 content has made me laugh more then anything I have watched on Youtube. The Battletech was like getting your favorite movie and I was so happy to see it premiere. This allowed me to claw my way to hurt but getting through it. I never told you this, as I didn't want to put the burdens of my life on you. I just wanted to let you know that your reach is sooo much more than you know, so much deeper than you know. You have at least one life saved, and I am willing to bet you have more. As to the issue at hand, your intentions were great. I would not have spoken to Arch given the absolute vile things I have personally heard and seen him say. However, I do NOT think you did anything serious. The attacks you have gotten are so far from beyond the pale as to be other worldly. I know you're hurt, you didn't do anything really wrong, you talked about Battletech. So my advice is, stop, do what your doing. Have someone read the comments and emails for a while, Continue to do what you were doing before, what happened is oddly NOT EVEN connected to it. Nothing that happened has anything to do with SS13, Battletech or any of the other lovely games you play. Nothing at all. You know the truth, we know the truth. It's time to move on, head down for those that support you. We know. Finally, now that I have told you what happened, I wanted to say thank you. Thank you for saving my life. I know that's a lot to put on someone, but I owe you a lot.

Dark Azial

You cannot blame the Corpsman. You can only do what you can, I was on the receiving end. Thank you, I don't know who you are the one who patched me up or if you are the nerd who patched me up. You can never blame yourself or those who help, I think most people want to do right by whomever and however.

Ex combat medic and paramedic here, I know all about the what ifs and "I coulda's" that can chew you up from an old job. It gets better eventually if you constantly walk yourself through the "I didn't take this shit, it's not my fault someone stepped in it and it needs to be cleaned up" mantra. You were enjoying your hobby, other people wanted to piss in your cheerios. Don't blame yourself ever for anything you didn't actually do.

It might have been said before but... stay strong, keep fighting, and never forget to be kind Tex. Thanks for being a good example that some of us may perhaps learn and grow from.

Nesguy

You do you boo, we will always be here for you.

Tex, as far as I'm concerned, all the people attacking you are Bad Faith actors that shoot before they aim, and have No trigger discipline. You do Good work, and, for what it's worth, im behind you all the way. As I said before Fuck Em.

Aaron Greene

Hey Tex, I came over from Arch's channel though I had subscribed to you on YouTube months ago. After the attack, I felt really bad about what the crazies did to you. I have loved battletech through the MechWarrior games for decades now and read several of the novels, mainly the warrior trilogy and blood of Kerensky. Take whatever time you need to get your head together, we'll be here. Personally, I hope you do another podcast with Arch one day as you two played very well off each other. Arch is a fighter but you're a good man. So Tex, I wish you well and when you're ready come back to us.

"I used to be embarrassed because I was just a comic-book writer while other people were building bridges or going on to medical careers. And then I began to realize: Entertainment is one of the most important things in people's lives. Without it they might go off the deep end. I feel that if you're able to entertain people, you're doing a good thing." -Stan Lee

Caboose

I'm with you. Respect.

Caboose

Stay strong Tex. We will see you on the other side of this. Until then, I will continue to keep it civil and shit post when and where I can, with love. Take care of yourself.

Bargained and Done.

PPC's4Life!

Bad with words. Several rewrites later and still nothing that really conveys what I'd like to say. Keep it simple. I feel you man. Some of what you've been going through these past few days hits real close to home and even then I can't even fathom it at the scale you've been dealing with. Don't know you beyond what has been shared publicly, but what you've shown through your work and your use of your influence within the community you seem like a level headed guy with a lot of passion and a big heart. More people could benefit from following the example you set.

I didn't realize they'd let me write a thesis for a profile name and now I'm channelling my inner Fallout Boy

Thank you for everything you do. I hope you're able to heal and find peace, and to tune out the petty vitriol of small people who view you as nothing more than a convenient target. ("Find his sponsors and show him what a horrible person he is so they'll cancel him?" That's fuckin' hilarious. I could not ask for a more perfect indicator that these people clearly have no idea who you actually are.)

Scott Jennings

You're such a good, fucking guy, Tex. You're so wise to take care of your mental health. I love you and I will work to be a kinder person.

Brian McKenzie

Since everyone has said everything else, I have to ask if Discount Dan would sell ball-shavers 🤔

ShikonNeko

Being human is difficult. I am happy you are one, and are continuing to choose to be one. Thank you for choosing to be a good one at that. You have got this. Keep doing what you love, because we very much enjoy being apart of what you are helping create.

Brandon Kruchin AKA Kru

Fuck them. Keep doing what you do. If I could do something more than throw you some meager financial support I would.

Sasha

I am going to reply to my own comment, because the edit button sucks on mobile… Edit: DAMN YOU WEB INTERFACE!!! Tex, we are not simping. Take the compliment, you’ve earned it. And put some of the patreon money aside for them taxes… no reason for the government to penalise you for doing good.

Tex, I don’t think in words I can explain how much of a damn good person you are. I can’t tell you in words what you’ve done for me and I know so many others. What I can try to convey to you is that you truly are loved by the Battletech community and just in general who you are. As I’ve said before, forget Battletech and all the amazing videos, you Tex are an example of what people should be like and how people should act. I hope you read this and truly understand this, I hope you go to bed knowing that you’re loved and respected. You sir have done so much for others, for this community, for people in need, there are evil people who wish to say things to brings other down, but remember what people say have no reflection on you, only on themselves. You know the good you’ve done, the positive things you said and how you’ve helped others and brought life to the Battletech universe. I can go on but I’ll leave it here. Keep your head up and know we have your back, no matter what. Much love.

Mathew C

Covenant signed

Dear Tex, Thank you. I just wanted to say that up front. And I am sorry some folks in this world have decided to chit on your part of it. It sucks and is uncalled for. I know you have come to this conclusion already but I am going to say it again as I have in multiple online threads at this point because I want you to hear it. You did nothing wrong. I applaud you for speaking to others whether they have the same beliefs you do or not. Thank you for being our unofficial ambassador. I and the friends I have appreciate it. We appreciate you videos for Battletech and other gaming videos. I don't know you personally but I feel that we are of a kindred spirit. In real life I do talk alot of politics but I have made it a mission of mine to try to never do so in the Battletech universe. It is a place for me to get away from the real life drama and I feel that in your videos. I have played since the 80's as you have and pretty much fall right in with your thinking on the clicky crap, jihad bs that tore our community apart. Thank you for all you do. Thank you for the charity work. I and I know others feel the same believe you are a major part of why Battletech is back in a huge way. We need you. Thank you for choosing to stay with us and to keep doing good works. I understand it is hard to see through the Bullshit hate posts but understand that there are alot more of us rooting for you then there are haters. I decided to join this Patron thing and to send you money because I believe in you and I believe in putting my money where my own mouth is. You probably won't take me up on this next bit but if you ever need to talk or vent or just chill feel free to holler my way. Someday I hope to meet you, shake your hand and tell you face to face, well fucking done, keep the faith, keep your head up, keep moving in a forward direction and from the bottom of my heart God Bless Dude... again Thank You for all you do.

That they tried to find "sponsors" and other avenues of attack tells you that these people, by and large, don't know you and don't watch or enjoy your content. That you sat down privately with those willing to talk, those who were most likely actual fans and people rational enough to speak, only continues to show your own virtue and goodness for this community and your openness. We here on Patreon do believe in you, and thank you again for everything you have done for this community and for introducing so many, such as myself, to his wonderful universe.

Clan snek cobra 4ever.

Whiskey_Corvid

Tex. I told people a while back, that this was one of the most wholesome channels on YouTube. I stand by that sentiment, but I will add something to that statement. You are a far better man than I am. I have tried to do charity work, I have helped where I could. I have donated a little of my money to causes, and now? Now I look at it, and go ‘I could have done more, I should have done more.’ You are right. None of the shit most of us fight over means one iota to the people struggling in the dirt and mud. I remembered that once. I forgot somewhere along the way. Thank you for reminding me. I cannot swear by my blood to always remain cordial, but you have my word that I shall try. Do well, and stand tall. You have reminded me of something I had forgotten.

I'm sorry you're getting shit on. You definitely don't deserve it. It's rarely easy to do, but the best thing you can do is keep doing what makes you happy, regardless of what people trying to punish you may attempt.

You aren't the one who did anything wrong Tex. Take whatever time is needed to recover from the bullshit the world tries to throw at you. We love you here and will have your back.

B100darrowz

Yeah, shame about all those people lying about him constantly. Oh well, Arch is a big boy, he'll carry on as usual.

Having tango'd with these sorts of people before, perhaps not to the same scale or degree, I know how it feels to be unjustly maligned for whatever reason. It can be hard at times to know there are people out there that feel that way about you, it makes it feel like the world can be out to get you. I still struggle with that feeling at times, and I guess I learned that it's just not worth dealing with them, they're not the target audience, the people that will buy the product, so to speak. That said, I'm an inconsistent viewer of your content at the best of times, but every time I come back and watch some of your stuff and listen to the stories you have to tell, I have come to deeply respect you. You've done so much good, struggled through so much, it's damn inspiring. Like, the kind of inspiring that makes me just want to do more with myself, be a better man. Maybe after I'm done languishing through college, completing a diploma I don't really care for all that much. Self improvement and all that, help from a position of personal strength and independence. I don't know if these words are the right ones to be said at this particular point in time, but I thought it might be worth putting it down on paper. You are *the* man, don't let others drag you down for nothing.

The makers of Fiesta Pail are probably getting some weird emails about now. "Who the fuck is this Tex guy, and why are people calling for us to stop sponsoring him?" Keep being you Tex, take some time to unwind and come back to us. Hearing you were thinking about stepping away from this to let Battletech grow, would have been a negative thing for the community. I've always been a lore nerd (doesn't matter the setting). I equate the quality of your videos (like the Amaris Civil War) to that of Baldermort's series on Rogal Dorn in 40k. It's hard to find content that drips with such love of the setting, and for that you have my thanks.

we're with ya man you did nothing wrong

Hang in there, Tex. You're doing good work.

Levi Whitney

Having lived through this kind of thing on a smaller scale, I feel for you my dude. I'm two years sober as well, so I also relate pretty hard to you. On the imposter syndrome and the PTSD, I feel you on all this too. Fuck, seeing people shit on you like you're a Cleveland Steamer is really hard to watch because no one person can just yell at all the assholes out there and make it stop. With all that out of the way, you went on a show and it backfired hard. That shit happens and it hurts and I'm sorry that you went through all this. A person is smart, people are dumb. Men in Black is so right on that. I'm on this Patreon because I believe in you and believe in the BPL and I know that you're a good fucking person. It's okay to hurt, and it's okay to feel like you're crushed. Work with your therapist and work with your support system.

I joined because it is my fucking money and I vote with Tex!

Sorry to hear that you've had to put up with all the BS. Keeps up the good work, a friend of mine is way big into BattleTech and shot me one of your videos a couple years ago. because of you I've tepidly gone down the Sunless Seas & Skies, SS13, and Rimworld rabbit hole. Left the 40K days behind about 12 years ago when they were handing out Cease and Desist orders like candy and Warhammer Fantasy was discontinued. I lived in Oklahoma at the time and the TT players were pretty toxic to be around.

I started watching BPL because of the quality of the content. I started donating to the BPL because of the charity work. Keep up the good work Tex, we're here for you.

ChainsawSnuggling

You and your crew are amazing, Tex. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise.

Curtis Thompson

We are here for you tex, take your time get your headspace and timing back. You have built an amazing tight knit community who have literally sent you on vacation cause we thought you were overworked

James A. Glier

Tex - you are a good man. I found your channel on a fluke and love your work. Please take care of yourself in the best way you can. You did nothing wrong, today's culture is a shit fest unfortunately where it is too easy for anonymous people to lash out without any sort of accountability. God bless and keep you Tex.

hang in there tex, i cant begin to imagine something like this happening to me, but i feel for you ,all i can say is we appreciate everything you do and im sorry that so many people seem to be dogpiling you, but seriously fuck the people who are being assholes, take care of yourself man.

Rider_Reaper

I've been quiet since this started, mostly because what I could have said had been said many times, and that you had just taken a blow to your character. After hearing how close you were to going on a hiatus I feel I must say how much I appreciate what you have done. Before I found the channel, all I played was the HBS game and didn't really care about the lore. But because of you i have a much deeper understanding of this universe of mech combat. I'm glad your still with us and I hope to see the community grow with you on its side.

Cpt. Wedge

Kudos. I would not have been able to stomach the punches and open up like you did. Furthermore, I don't give a shit what other people are saying about you. You are a kind, empathic and unselfish person. That is all I need to know. Please take care of yourself.

The more I learn about you Tex, the more I respect you as a person. I could never have handled this controversy the way you did, and for that, you have my unconditional support.

Net Zen

I hope the rest of this week treats you better Tex. Thank you for all of your hard work you put into your productions and the charity you promote. You make my days better consistently and have given me content and introduced me into communitied where I can bond with friends and family. As someone who is firmly under a rock most of the time, you help me actually come out of it to see the world more positively.

Baron von Muffinbeard III

Tex is a bigger, and more genuine man than most of us will ever be. As someone who spent far too many years for my own mental health stuck in the trenches of the internet culture war as a centrist (and getting flak from both sides as a result for not wanting to pick a damn team), the fact Tex had the compassion to not return the hatred he received is awe-inspiring. If there were a million people on the Internet like Tex, the world would definitely be a better place.

Net Zen

This will probably be buried, but to you or whoever screens this- for what its worth, thank you. Thank you for staying in, as you are a part of this beautiful Battletech renassaince. Thank you for being you, for being always so genuine, kind, and well thought. Thank you for making this beautiful community. And thank you for even trying to engage those people. That's a kindness given so much more than most. To your request at the end- absolutely. Bargained well and done. -danceman

AlecRazec

As someone who also suffers from depression/anxiety and a pretty big smattering of imposter syndrome, this post hit home. I for one will gladly accept the conditions of this covenant. Keep doing what you love, keep being unabashedly Tex because that's what I'm here for.

Create. Rise above. Succeed when others would see you fail. There is great catharsis in succeeding despite the efforts of others. :)

Medron Pryde

You've had the best reaction to all this, all things considered. You're sticking to your guns, but not antagonizing anyone. You aren't throwing anyone under the bus, and Arch does that enough to himself with both feet in his mouth, he doesn't need any help, lol.

Jm Brinkley

Tex even has the Glitches supporting him. What a man!

As someone who also has Imposter Syndrome, I know how bad it is. I've just gotten a new job that's a lot more complex than my prior job. I've been told by my new colleagues that I'm doing well but it's unimaginably frustrating, going from the guy everyone turns to for help to needing help to do what are basic things for my job. I tried explaining it to the people who interviewed and hired me but they think I'm a workaholic, particularly since I'm working through my breaks and I get in early so I can get a start on my work before my shift starts. I know exactly how you feel and it's one of those insidious things that can seem like a positive trait. You'll give everything you're working on 110% effort but the stress and the frustration, particularly when you make a mistake can be brutal. I'm sorry this happened to your Tex and I do hope Arch gave you a warning over what would happen or at least made sure you knew you can count on his support and the support of his fans like me. As hard as it may seem, your best bet is to try and ignore them, don't ever apologize and always remember how they treated you. These people are vicious and if you show a sign of weakness, they will pounce on you and do everything they can to attack, shame and harass you. Some will try to couch their abuse in concern, others will lie to you and more still will never forgive you even though you've done nothing wrong.

Tex, I wish I could send you a steak.

Denis Sater

Tex, if the world needs anything it's more folks like you. While I may never reach the amount of folks you do, I'll help you any way I can. I will honor your pact that you request, someday those who wronged you will mature and realize the gravity of their decision to behave the way they did when the community has altogether told them enough and exiled them. Star League above all.

The pact is sealed, now where can I get this BBQ? and do I get to give you a hug in person while getting said BBQ?

Nothing to add except you have my unconditional support. Anything you need, ANYTHING, it's yours. You are no imposter.

I respected you, Tex, as a creator. Now I deeply respect you as a person. Your response to your issues and troubles was not to curl up into yourself, but to put yourself out there and be of service to others. I envy you your strength, sir. I know it's just words from outside (as I say, you live in there, you don't see what the big deal is), but you are a wonderful human being. Keep doing what you do, the world is so much better for it.

Glad to hear you are sticking around. Just keep doing the things you enjoy and ar passionate about and you will never be an impostor. Thank you for making the world a better place. Stay strong.

You ARE a GOOD man Tex. Please stay strong. We are with you.

BadgerWi Johnson

I have no idea what happened but good luck to you Tex.

I'm a fairly stoic man. Bad things happen, you get through it. No matter how hard it will be, there are better days to live for. I stay dry eyed and strong for others at the funeral of a loved one. I say this not to boast or brag. In fact, I may have some emphatic disorder. I don't know. But what does make me choke up, and weep tears of emotion? Seeing a soldier, sailor, marine or airmen come home and suprise his or her family. I cry when I see a soldier returned home in a box, honored and draped with the flag. I cry when watching war films like Saving Private Ryan. And now... You TEX. My heart bleeds for you. In a good way. You have friends, and brothers in service who stand with you. I listened to you pour your heart out today during my shift. And I was not ashamed when my coworkers say me wipe my eyes and blow my nose. I believe in you TEX, and your staff and team and family in the Black Pants Legion. I look forward to you continuing on. Remember, even the humble Urbie, can fell an Atlas, and curb stomp a Mat Cat mk. II!

Tex if you're ever in the UK I'll buy you a beer. Take you time and heal how you have to.

Bronze Goose

Tex, take a moment to assess what your strategy is going to be to move forward. The people trying to hurt you can't be reasoned with, and are predatory. While your story, compassion, and commitment is heartwarming, it is being exploited as a vulnerability don't count on trying to change minds or defend yourself. Dig in, don't apologize for anything, and carry on your usual business. While the community absolutely appreciates your introspection being shared, your harrassesers are feeding off it. People who partake in these raids aren't used to your meaningful manner of speaking and will interpret it as dramatic instead of what it is, which is honest. Don't engage, carry on and above all: never say sorry.

Mr. Tex, I appreciate everything you do for the Battletech community. You and your channel reignited the passion I once felt for this hobby, this game. I know you care! It shows in every video, every interaction. I am floored (but sadly, not surprised) that people would shit on you like this. Please just know you are appreciated.

jagh yIbuStaH! pe’vIl mu’qaDmey!

Tex....I'm glad it's raining as I sit outside and have my lunch cigar, that way my coworkers can't see my tears as you pour your heart out to us. We, the community, love you Tex. And to see you hurt makes us hurt too. We are here because of a love of the hobby, the setting and of you. I was laid off for six months last year. I was lucky, and my company called me back, and they even gave me a raise for staying loyal. One of the first things I did once bills were caught up was join the patreon. I joined not to be part of an in crowd, but to support something I love. I've loved battletech ever since I discovered it in the 90s. What you have done to broaden the appeal to so many people has been nothing short of amazing. What you have done for charities has been incredible! You are a good soul, Tex, and I will stand by you through thick and thin. We stand by you. We love you Tex, and nothing will change that. Wish I could give you a great big hug right now. God bless you Tex.

Jason Turner

Tex, You are a good man, and you acted out of the same open heart that has driven so many other good works. I am sorry for the pain you have felt, and I am glad you're taking steps to give yourself some distance. Air out the wounds, let them heal, and take the time you need. I would not have blamed you for stepping off the train entirely. I am glad we will still have more to look forward to, and I hope that when all the dust settles, you come out with the warmth and support of the community behind you, a few new interesting scars to show off, and continuing to do good recklessly.

BZArcher (Blind Zen Archer)

As per my previous e-mail.... You're a good man, Tex. Hell, you're much more than that, considering you punched through the initial hurt and *talked* to some of the people that attacked you, trying to come to an understanding, and it friggin' worked for a number too. In my book you're a damn saint for having that kind of patience with the world. Hang in there, and let your friends help. From all I've heard, through the BPL podcast, streams and updates I have no doubt they'll do it gladly.

Erdanya

I would diagnose myself with imposter syndrome but I don't think I'm qualified. You are a little helper. It's what you do. People who help and don't care for the attention. "When I was a boy and I would see scary things in the news, my mother would say to me, 'Look for the helpers. You will always find people who are helping.'" - Fred Rogers Most people are. It's what makes community. When you are a little helper, you don't have to worry about imposter syndrome, because you DO...you don't make it known. Imposters don't do, they speak. Keep doing what you're doing. I'll keep doing what I am doing. And when people clue in on our examples, they'll start doing what they do. Save some for yourself, though. When I see people in my community burning out, I tell them this. "Apply thine own oxygen mask." The reason every air ride starts with that message is because most people are altruistic...to their own detriment...so they have to be reminded. You have to breath to help others breath. I don't want to add any more to the already long list of posts. I just thought I would share those two things. TLDR Little helpers can't be imposters. Apply thine own oxygen mask.

Happy to hear BT in general and Tex in particular has a new fan, but... the podcast in and of itself wasn't the problem. Tex didn't do much homework on the individual hosting the podcast, for reasons he already explaind. Tex wanted to offer the benefit of the doubt, and many others took that as implicit endorsement of that individual's own sins. That's what 'The Culture War' is all about. It's not about what is explicitly said, it's about what is (intentionally or not) implied.

Molly McAllister

We will be here if you need us. Stay strong and know that the people who love the Black Pants Legion will still be here. Our voices may fade amongst the shouts of the angry mobs, but we are still here supporting you.

Lukas Pennington

Very well said and put! I don’t have anything to add beyond letting you know I listened and was touched. I can’t do much to help you, but If you find yourself in the UK I will buy you a drink, minimum. Also I know you said you don’t do things for money and don’t sell merch… but man if you ever did a “Politics is anime for boring people” t-shirt I would buy it and wear it to work everyday as I sit at my desk littered with Gundam models!

I don't think your doing any harm. I appreciate your enthusiasm and dedication to an IP that I've loved from a young age. Hope you read the good comments.

I'm happy to hear you're getting through this, and sad that you had to witness 'the culture war' in this manner... from the killbox.

Molly McAllister

I love all that you do. You're honest and genuine. Hang in there Tex.

I actually joined to support for a few months because I want to help out Tex. Instead of do it here, I'm going to send a private EMAIL. Keep going, Tex.

Well, most of what i tought i should say, has allreddy been said. So il say only this: You CAN and WIL get trough this, you love the lore and this awsome game with a pasion that burns stronger then the heat of a ER PPC, and that, is what maters , the dedication and love for what you are doing. Soo, take your time, do what you need to do, and we'll be here, with a smile and good cheer. You are loved Tex, that is why soooo manny of us are outraged about this. You are Loved.

Vincent Von Wrath

Tex, don't forget your place in this Battletech Renaissance. Take pride in knowing that old players like me have used your videos to introduce the Inner Sphere to new players.

G Jacobs

People who make a hobby of gotcha shit aren’t worth giving the time of day. You are a kind person and a great artist. The vast majority of people see who you really are. The others are just trolls. Tex, you are loved. Take the time you need.

David Melton

Well said Tex, love your work I'm not going anywhere stay safe and we'll.

Hey Tex. Listening now and appreciating so much how you are opening up and communicating on your situation. And I deal with so much of the same shit (PTSD, anxiety & especially-especially-especially imposter syndrome) and I am empathizing with you so super hard right now. When people say, in situations like this, "Oh! Grow a thicker skin!" my response is "Why don't YOU grow a civil tongue in your damn mouth?" The history of Battletech videos have been such a huge comfort to me over the last year. You're like the Bob Ross of Battletech, in the best way, and as someone who considers themselves on the left (the actual left, not the DNC centrist "faux-left"), I'm so furious with the "internet kidz" who just sling rocks and arrows and don't take even two seconds to think about what they are doing. You are real and authentic, and doing far more good than any of your haters ever have. You keep being you Tex. You have nothing to fucking apologize for. Caring hurts. I get it. I get it more than I can possibly say in words. And bravo to you for not just lashing out and returning hatred with the same. Bravo to you for taking the time to reach out and talk to these people. That is the hardest and yet best path to forge. You, sir, are seriously my Big Damn Hero right now.

Cheers, Tex. I do get the whole parasocial relationship thing and yeah, I don't know you from Adam, but I like what you have to say and your actions speak loudly. I hope this week is smoother than the last.

Face Into Keyboard

Hey Tex 40k refugee here discovered your content recently and it has made me fall in love with this setting. I am sorry that you were draw into this and for the abuse you have had thrown at you over the past few days. You should not have been attacked for a conversation about your hobby no matter who it was with and I can't blame you for not wanting to touch social media after this. Please take all the time you need to rest and recover from this I have only been following a short while but from what I have seen of you, you are one of the most caring and decent creators on the platform and I hope to be able to support you and the BPL for many years to come. I and I'm sure the rest of the BPL will raise a salute to you and a large middle finger at the "people" (And i use that word loosely) who have attacked you merely for having a conversation. Stay strong your fans new and old are behind you whenever and wherever you need us.

Dear Tex I don't have the mastery of the English language. I really do support you and the BPL and will continue to carry on. The other creators you shown as part of your fantastic creations have brought many a joyous occasion of partaking in consuming content. But alas my knee jerk reaction was very negative even though I didn't listen to the interview with arch and I found out via the previous pateron. Am glad I didn't speak out and let my feelings out about the matter as some kind of release of emotion. Why should I a lowly consumer be so connected to a random shitposter on the internet? This goes to a point though. You being close to your community yet hidden has given many fan deep connection of being part of your listeners. Please don't stop being you. So for some I guess we fell in love with your works and rightly we should for they are excellent pieces of media worth the time of day we spend on it, every dam penny we throw at pateron to encourage more creation that we indeed love. (Even if the spectre of you on SS13 is kinda annoying) I hope you forgive me when I say We all love you Tex for making our days better and forgive us for failing our Gom Jabbor

I am an asshole, and I try to be better - deal with it, and try to not get mad. But when I see others getting picked on that makes me mad. Especially someone as good as Tex getting attacked, I wish it was 250 years ago when pistols at dawn was an option. Ok I rather wish talking to people and find common ground - agree to disagree would work, sadly these days it seems you can't do that. And honestly I know everyone is flawed if you don't try to help, or put out a hand, they never will get better. Still sucks. Sorry Mr. Tex. You're good because you do help, try to not judge others, and share your joys and honestly do try to care about not hurting others, and honestly are trying to fix something that isn't even your fault. Sad people aren't seeing that. Thanks for all you do. Take care of yourself please. Know I don't know you - parasocial relationship... still I don't think I'm wrong in my opinion of you. But I'll take that challenge to be better. What's the worst thar can happen I become nicer and smile more?

You ARE a good man Tex. I know that my life has certainly been enriched by the work you've done. I honestly don't care what your politics are, it's not why I'm here. The fact that the BPL is a politico free zone is one of the reasons I keep coming back - I can get my daily dose of doom-scrolling somewhere else. It's not like there's a shortage of injustice and suffering in the world. Here I can just be a nerd amongst fellow nerds talking about nerd shit we all love, and for that I'm eternally grateful.

You're a kinder man than I am for talking people who shit on you like that. My own time is short enough and precious to me. Anyone who treated me like that wouldn't get the time of day. The sound and fury of the internet is just that. Keep your head up and listen those you've chosen to keep close.

Dopeskone

Take all the time you need to get back up. I'll be waiting. Politely and paiently, for whatever you offer us for our entertainment, for free, and I'll keep that burgermoney flowing. Because I know you'll either keep entertaining me with it, Or make more use out of it to actually help people that need it than some random charity paying for TV adds or door to door 'salesmen'

take the time you need to recover you are a good man and a rare kind of awesome human being.

take care of yourself, the people who fund this know the content of your character. We know you aren't whatever fucked bullshit you are being accused of.

David Sirkin

You *ARE* wanted. It's that they can't attack Arch anymore because he doesn't respond to them. This is why they're attacking you. It's because their voices are impotent against Arch, but they need to hurt someone, and so they attack you because you talked to him. Additionally, anti-social media has never been worth anyones wile.

Urst_

You do good work, Tex.

Stargazer

Thank you Tex, your work brightens up my day and I got into BattleTech thanks to you and Razorfist. Take care, best wishes from me, and fuck the hate mob.

CookingUp

Take whatever time you need boss. Take care of yourself, and know that that's okay to put yourself first in your own life. Especially in shitstorms like this.

Thanks Tex. One of my best friends worked for emergency services for Baltimore County for 30 years. About 25 of those as a dispatcher. That's a hard life, and it is easier when you have good people around you to support you through the dark times that come along with it. You think a lot like I do, its one of the reasons I enjoy your content so much. Build bridges, make friends, enjoy life and what folks have in common rather than tearing each other down. You have my support Tex, be well and I hope the break from social media helps you get to a good place with it all. I'm sending a meme I made for you as soon as I find it... Keep on keeping on Professor Tex.

Sean O'Donnell

Tex, when I had COVID back in April, your videos gave me something I could watch that I enjoyed. You put a smile on my face when I felt half dead. I may not be a big time sponsor and I'm not one of those folks blessed by your charity work. But during the worst illness I've ever had, it was your work that rekindled my love of the Battletech Universe that I've loved since playing Mechwarrior 2 as a kid. You don't deserve the flak being fired at you. And I hope to the gods that you take it to heart that to those of us who love and appreciate your work, mistakes made by being an actual human being are NOTHING in comparison to the greatness you bring to the world.

Baron Ouranos Helaine

Keep going strong, Tex. You are the kind of person that the world needs. Your rationality, your caring, and your openness are amazing qualities, and I'm sorry that more people do not have those qualities. Take the time you need. Your mental and physical health are more important than internet people. We will be here waiting.

Seth Smith

No better words could have spoken this day. Much love! ❤ you've reminded me what it means to give back to the community at large. When I get out of a semi (hopefully in the nearer future) I will be able to do the same.

You still have my cheeseburger money because you're the best at what you do. And what you do is bring a little light to a corner of the internet. It's weird, it's wild, sometimes it's insightful and thoughtful, sometimes it's crazy charities that are successful because this weird wild collective is something special. Many times has your voice and thoughts, your joy in the games you've played (I adored dick wizard in arcanum, and the captain of sunless skies) has brought unexpected thoughts of my own, places I explore in my own time trapped in my head. The raw laughter from the shitposts and the Tex Talks has been relief from... dark places of my own. I don't know that it makes a difference, knowing that the best among us can still be made to hurt over the cruelty and stupidity of others. I don't have answers, to anything after all this. But.. you're among the best of us. You may not believe it, because it's hard. But your reactions have always been to search for middle grounds, for understanding and joy. That's important. Don't lose that. I, others, appreciate this more than the words of a stranger at a keyboard could hope to bring across. Cheers.

Big Mac

Hey there Tex, the pact is sealed!!! Screw those other guys, they're just Capellan weirdos (therefore not worth your time and focus). Keep being you man, and always remember; no matter what happens, we got your back pal!!!

Chris

As the sun does fall and the moon shall rise, this too shall pass, Mr. Tex. Remember, you are loved and you are cherished by thousands of people, stay strong.

I stand by you Tex, because you have and keep earning it by beeing you. We can't control the actions of strangers or even friends.

Sons of Lorgar

Discount Dan will never pull his sponsorship! Stay strong, stay loving, stay YOU, Tex <3

You're good, Tex. They throw all the crap they can to get you to quit. The successful treat it as the fertilizer it is and use it to grow. You're going to be fine and both you and the BPL community will be stronger for this. I also hope you got the email I sent with the broken Warhammer (mech) pic.

James Schardt

My hats off to you, Tex. Your reaction to all this has been that of a bigger person - you tried to talk with your critics and find common ground, and even though that did not always work out, you were able to make it work with some of the supposed critics , and you did not react to the reactionaries from either direction by lashing back or sinking into the mud with them. Keep your head up - you did good, man!

Andrew N

Tex. You bring joy to so many people. You bring the Battletech universe, something you clearly love, to life far better than any crappy animated TV show or next-gen video game ever could. Don't let the bastards tear you down.

I feel you on the imposter syndrome, suffering from it myself. I am rooting for you Tex, this whole talk was a bit eye opening. Just to say it again, your content is amazing and I am glad I get to enjoy it. Plus, I can share it with other people who don't know about Battletech and get them interested! You are an amazing ambassador for the Battletech community Tex.

Kharakian

This might not mean much in the long run, but I think the things that you’ve done for this community and in real life has meant a lot to me and others

Rebel Rebel

Love ya, Tex, hang in there!

Meg Sumner

We got you bro....

You are a good man, a bright spot in the lives of so many. It may not mean much from an internet stranger, but it is true. If I could help in any real way I will and would going forward.

Tex, you already know that pact is made. Forever to be civil. Forever to be kind. Forever to be supportive.

Wild Cat 144

Sucks dude. Hard to hear. I only saw the shitty comments on the CBT page, and I got pissed. Can't imagine the weight.

Tex, you are the hero we need. Not the one we deserve, as nobody could ever deserve the quiet heroism and humility you are showcasing right now. You’re the most heartwarmingly American man I’ve ever had the pleasure of listening to, and I hope to God that one day He will gift me with even a quarter of the patience, honesty, and sincerity He gave to you. Keep doing what you’re doing, block out those people who seek to tear you down for no reason other than malice, and feel better soon! I love you, brother.

Keep doing what you do. We have your back.

Michael Carpenter

And one more time the opportunity to talk about an important issue is lost by people who would rather demonize a good man than have a difficult conversation.

Reza Chan

Keep fighting the good fight Tex. You are a good man.

Take your time, I'm still proud to be a part of this.

Tex, I am one of those new people. I'm one of the 99 out there giving you no end of praise. Please, please, please. Take the time, talk to the folks you need to talk to. I will always support you. I apologize that it took to this to get me to put my money where my mouth is. I'll admit that this hits particularly hard because we just lost a friend in our community outreach program. You are a fucking beacon of hope and fucking joy in the desolate wasteland. You try to be a good man. You ARE a good man. This shit wouldn't hurt if you weren't such a good man. Never forget that you have a literal group of folks paying to support you and the other shitposters. We are here for you. We sponsor you because we believe in you. We got your back, sir. Always will. Be safe. Be sane. Be well.

Tex, you have been consistently saying the same things about the way you use Patreon money and how you try and treat others for years, and have been backing this up with actions, showing you truly believe it. Anyone who actually ‘knows’ you even in a parasocial sense can see that clearly. You are a decent human being, because the act of striving to be a decent human being makes you one. Shitty people don’t doubt themselves like that. Take care of yourself mate.

Daniel Genn

We’re with you man, ignore the mob.

Rebel Rebel

You can't "Cancel" what has no sponsors!

House

Good luck. Get better. Social media sucks. The Legion has your back.

HedgehogBC

Tex. Thanks for your content. Thanks for your utter devotion to doing something you love and being an inspiration, let alone doing so without compromise. Thanks for bringing this ugliness up upfront and letting us know, help in our small ways, and also for bearing the brunt of this shit. I'm not normally one to ever post on here, I'm sorry about that, but I hope whatever little I can do with my words now, helps a little. You're an inspiration and matter more to me not because you're perfect (you nearly are), but because you're human and have flaws. There might not be any solid door to slam these haters behind, but hopefully, a flood of posts from people who believe in your can focus you away from those. If taking time out to rethink social media is what you need, please go. I can at least promise I will be here. Still here. When you return. I can't promise for others, but that's at least mine. Hope this helps a little.

Infado

Sorry this is happening to you and the BPL, Tex. You have been doing things the right way. Just keep at it and do your best to ignore the virtue signalers and klout chasers.

I'd never heard of the podcast you went on until you were on it honestly, I left the GW space a long time ago (5th to 6th ed), and I REALLY liked your take on things there. Nothing at all I heard was objectionable and I've really liked your BT content, so hoping you do continue here.

Paul Chappell

Hang tight mate

PrimaFacie

Anytime you need anything Tex, you've got my number, I don't give it out lightly.

Hugs

CattusExMachina