Thank You, Alice Oseman - A Short Film by Jackie-Ross Lavender
Added 2023-07-25 05:00:03 +0000 UTCGood morning beautiful people,
I wasn't planning on sharing this quite so quickly... but, as soon as I got back to London I found myself glued to my laptop unable to stop editing until I was happy to the point where I think this is 95% done now. Still some small tweaks but overall I am very proud.
A pre-warning for you all that this video is a little heavy. I have poured my heart and soul into it in the hopes that it helps others and in the hopes that Alice see's it and understands the impacts she has had on my life.
So I hope you enjoy as I share a little something I've never spoken about before... I feel sick pressing upload on this one but I know I have to!
Love, always ♥️
Comments
It seems like we've shared a lot of similar experiences, Brian! I'm glad Alice's work has been as healing for you as it has been for me! <3
Jackie-Ross Lavender
2024-02-28 13:36:25 +0000 UTCJackie, oh my god. I am sitting here watching this, after watching your reactions to season 2, and crying harder than I have in ages. I am a 51 year old gay man, somewhere on the ace spectrum, who never met his father, and has so much childhood trauma that I am only now starting to deal with. This includes bullying because of some of my slightly effeminate mannerisms (which I fought to change and suppress), to a drug addicted, narcissistic mother, and a brother who I haven’t seen in 20+ years. I hurt the people I loved because I repressed who I was for so long, seriously impacting my mental health. Only recently has it come to the surface to be dealt with. Why now? Heartstopper. I felt silly starting the series as a then almost 50 year old man watching a show about teenagers. But at the end of episode 1 I was broken. I then devoured the rest of the season, and walked away finally starting to think seriously about all the pain and trauma that affected my life for decades. It was hopeful, funny, sweet, sad - I was so confused as to what I was feeling after watching the season in one sitting. But I keep going back, noticing new things, falling in love with Nick and Charlie, and pulling out of the show some of the tools I needed to get help. I can’t tell you how much your video has resonated with me. Alice Oseman created something wonderful and put it out into the universe. Your video is now part of that wonderful thing.
Brian Sheehan
2024-02-14 01:15:04 +0000 UTCSince I’m new to your Patreon I’ve been happily consuming your content all day. This however is special, oh my, Jackie you are an amazing and brave person. I’m so happy for you to finally have some peace and I send you so much love!
Darcy Bandaru
2023-10-27 07:00:49 +0000 UTCSending all the loves and hugs
Muchi Shaw
2023-08-07 16:39:03 +0000 UTCI was never on Patreon or YouTube til I saw hearstopper and found your reaction. To date you are still the only artist I patron and this is why. Jackie you truly say the things in my heart better than even I could. As s 54 year old sexual assault survivor, and finally and openly gay man, I can only say thank you to you and your voice. I cannot tell you how much you and Alice's work, have made my life better. I wish you hadn't had to go through that childhood trauma but sadly I knew you had. Your first reaction was mine and it rang to clear as a bell. All I can say is, it has made you who you are today and to me.... That's awesome. I can only say I'm sorry that experience was what you had to go through but the outcome -- the man you have become-- was worth the journey All my love T
Trey Cummins
2023-08-02 23:07:20 +0000 UTCThank you! This goes live on YouTube tomorrow and I am beyond nervous but it's time to share in the hope it helps others!
Jackie-Ross Lavender
2023-08-01 20:23:52 +0000 UTCSo sad. Nobody deserves that. Thanks for sharing and the wonderfuI Video, I hope Alice will see this ! Isend kisses and hugs from Germany.
Prinsassy
2023-08-01 20:19:32 +0000 UTCThank you! ♥️
Jackie-Ross Lavender
2023-07-28 09:09:15 +0000 UTCSending you love and hope and happiness. You are not alone. Thank you for your courage.
snallahej
2023-07-28 02:29:04 +0000 UTCA huge, huge welcome to the community, Nicky! This is a very special place and I think you'll love it here. Thank you so much for your kind words. It truly means the world. I really hope she gets to see it too. Maybe when it's on YouTube we can all spam her with it 🤣
Jackie-Ross Lavender
2023-07-26 09:05:00 +0000 UTC4 words: So PROUD of you!!
Cows With Webbed Feet
2023-07-26 00:57:12 +0000 UTCI am in tears!! Thank you for sharing your personal story and what Heartstopper means to you. I am speachless! Sooo beautiful and soo well done. I had to cry for a bit before beeing able to write this ... because me too, I head a similar journey of selfdiscovery and reflection and also healing through Heartstopper,. That wonderful and absolutely beautiful show lead me to Alice Osman and their books, which lead to the discovery that I am on the asexual spectrum as well (especialy through Loveless) at almost 30 years of age. Soo yes, thank you Alice ... soooo muuucchhh. Their work changed my life... I really hope she gets to see this, I really hope she knows how much her work means to sooo many people!! Anyway ... welcome to the ace community!!! 🖤🤍💜 btw Hi! Im Nicky (She/Her) from switzerland and I became a patreon today because I love your videos over on youtube and I watch your reaction of the Heartstopper Season 2 Trailer, were you were talking about this video and I just HAD to come over here and watch it, and I am soooo glad I did Sending you lots of love 🖤🤍💜
Nicky Van den Bosch
2023-07-25 21:49:45 +0000 UTCThank you for sharing such a personal story. I really respect your decision to tell the truth about your experience as a child. As a member of the Ace/Aero family it’s so important to finally see representation in media. Much love to you my friend
Kurt Anderson
2023-07-25 16:09:36 +0000 UTCOh man, I'm a bit speechless at the moment and still have goosebumps. First let me say very well done and I'm super proud of you! I turned 60 this year. When I was a young teenager all I knew was I was different. When I realized I didn't have the same attractions to girls that other boys did I thought that I was gay. I didn't understand it and I hated being different. As I became a young adult I did have crushes on both boys and girls but when the relationship became too serious I would break things off. At that point I thought oh I'm bisexual and I thought that for all these years until Heartstopper and like you it really changed my life. All the pieces began to come together and I realized I'm Asexual. I echo all the thanks to Alice you put in your video and wish so very badly I had that when I was that age but I am so happy and so thankful that the world has it now. I've since embraced my Aceness and it sounds like you have too! Much love to you my friend! ❤️
Joe Lancaster
2023-07-25 15:37:56 +0000 UTCExactly, Audrey. ❤️
Graham & Ruth May
2023-07-25 13:02:46 +0000 UTCI think I can speak for everyone and say that we are all 100% proud of you for taking the step in making this video and we are all 100% privileged that we are the ones that get to see it first and I am so so happy that you are ready to move on with your life 🥰😘❤️
Audrey Gunn
2023-07-25 12:39:04 +0000 UTCThank you all for such lovely comments and DM's. I absolutely adore you all and I am so pleased to be able to share this with you all today. I've poured my heart into this film in the hopes in helps others. A few people have asked so wanted to say I am 100% fine if not the best I've been in a while. There's a shot that didn't make it into the video where I was sat on the pier after the first day of filming and I say something like "This feels like the end of my healing journey... which is pretty cool". Art is healing for me. It's taken a long time to get to making this video but I couldn't be happier I've got it off my chest and now I can move on ♥️
Jackie-Ross Lavender
2023-07-25 12:32:05 +0000 UTCI don’t know that I can add anything to the words that others have already said so far. I am moved by your words and proud of you for being so forthright and honest about your story and how invaluable “Heartstopper” has been in allowing you to heal. Much love to you from the US. ❤️
Lane Wright
2023-07-25 12:02:35 +0000 UTCWow you’re a talented story teller and film maker Jackie. Sending lots of love and hugs your way. Thank you. 💜
Kim Engel
2023-07-25 11:26:20 +0000 UTC❤️❤️
jennifer
2023-07-25 10:54:46 +0000 UTCThank you for sharing this with all of us. I hope you know how loved you are. It's not easy to share such personal experiences and be so vulnerable. I hope you feel proud of being able to share your story and see how much you have achieved following your dreams. ❤️
Jayne Riley
2023-07-25 10:54:16 +0000 UTC💔❤️🩹❤️
Matt Allen
2023-07-25 09:59:09 +0000 UTCYou are sooo brave, Jackie! This is beautiful! Thank you for sharing with us. You are seen, you are loved. ♥️ Don't you ever forget about that!
Ingrid Machado Pena
2023-07-25 09:54:53 +0000 UTCthank you for sharing this with us jackie!!! absolutely stunning work and i had goosebumps the whole time🫶🫶
Olivia
2023-07-25 07:23:14 +0000 UTCYou are so loved by so many people, myself included in that and the next time I'm in London I will actually tell you who I am instead of just saying hi and will give you the biggest hug ever. This is so beautiful and moving and just know that I feel the same way about you coming into my life as you do with Alice coming into yours. I'm sure we can figure out a way of getting it to Alice between us all. 😘❤️
Audrey Gunn
2023-07-25 06:30:46 +0000 UTCGoosebumps from the beginning to the end…. I smiled but more so I cried… your video has so much depth and shows so much vulnerability. When you shared your terrible experience as a kid with us, it shook me and immediately filled my eyes with tears. I cannot even imagine the pain you went through but being a mother of a 10 and 4 year boy it broke my heart to hear this…I’m so glad that Alice was there at the right time to “save your life”! Thank you so so much for sharing something so personal with us 🫶🏽 I really hope Alice gets to see this!!! (If I can help with this somehow please let me know) Sending you all the hugs and love from afar ♥️
Frances
2023-07-25 06:27:43 +0000 UTCThank you for sharing this with us and for trusting us with it. As it’s unlikely that you’ll be in Cornwall any time soon, a virtual hug will have to do, but it’s a huge hug and says thank you for bringing me here to a community that means a lot to me and all because I watched your first Heartstopper video on YouTube.❤️x
Graham & Ruth May
2023-07-25 06:23:00 +0000 UTCKnow that you are seen and beloved. Thank you for sharing. When I get to London, I owe you a tremendous hug. ❤️ This is beautiful.
The Homesick Brit
2023-07-25 05:17:09 +0000 UTC
