redcoatcat

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Added 2021-08-04 18:58:05 +0000 UTC

I know I'm a little behind in posting right now. I planned on having the next page of synthetic Instinct done, it's inked/blocked just needs flatting and colouring.

Saturday night we rushed my cat Tora to the ER as 6 months before she got diagnosed with Congestive Heart Failure. She was doing really well, aside from her white whiskers you couldn't tell her age as she was always kooky-talkitive and upbeat. I knew this isn't a condition that can get better but could be managed for a time. I guess I was hopeful and presumed she would live past that time expectation. She did not, medication was working but her heart was not anymore.
I had a choice to bring her home and she would live maybe a few hours if I was lucky a day or two but it could be a very painful, scary death.
I choice to let her go and spare her that.

I had her for 18 years it's really hard to accept she's not here. I lost my other cat Tatya last year suddenly and so young as she would have turned 8.
I felt like I was just coming to terms that Tatya died and I loose Tora.

I wish I could say I'm handling this well.... But I'm not.
When I lost Tatya I just hyper fixated on my work and well being of Tora. Now I'm alone and it's hard to find a routine as my work and routines were always around my cats well being.
They were the family I've always had.

So please bare with me here, I'm trying to figure all this out. I get some routine worked out, I legitimately like working on art and comics.