Dear Patreons, Soulscorpion here:A message of my friend D-Z, you can also read it on our blog:

Come smoke through

As you can see there are virtually no updates in the past few months.

There have been some changes made in my life. I have been a chain smoker

for more than 10 years and this time I have decided to quit. I have

successfully stopped smoking for almost 2 months now. Some people

believe that diminishing cigarette consumption is a good approach but

these didn't hep me stop at all. Even nicotine patches and stuff like

that. These things just maintain peak withdrawal and would just prolong

your suffering until you come back to your old habits. So yeah cold

turkey is the best way. Just survive for 3 days then go for 2 weeks.

Just imagine this as a test of will.

My doctor told me that for every cigarette that you smoke the damage

don't come until 20 years later. Like if I started smoking when I was 18

years old then I will feel the first real destructive effect of that

stick when I am 38. So if I continued on smoking until today then I

would just keep further damaging my systems. Now let's assume that this

is true then we will definitely need ways to stop those incoming

negative effects. Maybe we can prevent them from happening. On some of

the stuff I've read around the net, the nicotine is purged entirely off

your system if you stopped smoking for 2 weeks. Then how come further

damage is expected? I have to ask my doctor about this but not until our

next meeting which would probably be after the holiday season. Some

suggestions I got from the net are the following.

1. Exercise.

2. Go to the sauna.

3. Smoke marijuana.

I had been playing around with these ideas.

1 requires much focus and dedication. What levels of patience you can learn from it you can apply to other aspects of your life.

2 is great. If there are no saunas near you, you can make your own

steam-bath at home, by either constructing a steam-bath room or just by

using water heaters in your bathroom. Google offers a bunch of methods.

3... Recently, I'd been smoking again at night to help me relax or

whenever I badly need cigarettes. It's bad that they totally relieve me

of my sense of focus so I just use them when there's nothing else to do

but go to bed.

What is the reason that I am doing this? I have decided that my methods

have to change. I am so dependent on 'the mood' and I always bitch about

stuff that don't really exist. I feel a lot of shitty things happening

with my body. Some people call these as symptoms of getting old but I do

not want to feel these as early as in my early 30s. Long story short I

am unhealthy. If I am going to build fantasy worlds then I have to be

healthy inside and out. I asked Soulscorpion one time if it was right to

feel guilty for not having released content in the last couple of

months but he simply told me that what's a few unproductive months if

you can come back refreshed and better than before? So I am like

undergoing this metamorphosis again like other artists do every now and

then. I just hope I can emerge as something much cooler and better

skilled than I ever was. 

To those, if there are any, who liked reading some of my 'Come and Smoke

Through' posts in NG before you may remember that I wrote that stuff

for each to last a stick of cigarette. Well, lol.

Oh yeah, what does this have to do with being unproductive?

- Quitting cigarettes makes you lose all focus that you have, makes you

have a bleaker view of the world and makes you eat all day and lazy as

fuck. This also means that I have been broke for the last couple of

months. To our supporters in Patreon, thank you very much, you have

really helped us monetarily through tough times. Thanks for buying our

food. We will make it up to you!

-DZ