Therapy

Recently, thanks to a wonderful person, I remembered an interesting topic.

This theme is digital drawing.

I did this for quite a long time, about a year. It all started with the fact that I began to understand more and more about myself, my emotions and their understanding. It turned out that I understand very poorly the emotions not only of mine, but also of other people. There is nothing out of the ordinary, I feel them in myself just like all people, but it’s hard for me to characterize them.

All of the above led to my partner and I spending a lot of time discussing this topic. And we came to the conclusion that practicing digital drawing every day for half an hour to an hour in the morning could help me. It was planned that it would be a kind of therapy for me, and that’s how it turned out in the end. I started looking for a program in which I would like to paint, tried several and settled on Krita, since it has a nice and user-friendly interface and many different brushes. And I started drawing every day, at first it was difficult, it took me a long time to get used to it, but I tried to pull myself together and maintain this practice.

When I first started doing this, I didn’t think about what technique I would use to draw. I tried different techniques, drew, trying different brushes, using my old tablet. Gradually it became a breath of fresh air for me, adding variety to my daily routine. I am a rather depressed and anxious person, and drawing helped me to sublimate my emotions, giving them to a digital canvas, to understand and experience a little. As a result, the drawings turned out gloomy and from this my style developed, which I like. Even though these are not fun color pictures, it helps me, and overall it looks good in my opinion.

In the last 2-3 months I haven't been drawing specifically for the purpose of drawing, only sometimes I make drawings for posts on Patreon. And now, after about a year, I began to better understand what was happening to me and how I felt. The urgent need to draw has faded into the background, giving way to 3D modeling, which is also therapy for me to some extent, but of a different kind.

This is how my experience with drawing influenced me in an interesting way. Yes, this is not a new practice, there are many options for art therapy, but for me it was something new, because all my adult life I have been involved in art in its various manifestations and did not consider it as therapy, and this is a funny paradox that for me stabotal, which in principle is not surprising.

What methods of therapy and living through emotions do you have, my dear Patrons?