[Personal] - Scope of Patreon/Storytelling.

This weekend I was at Further Confusion and I decided to do something new: not take a single commission. I started doing conventions in September 2009, and while I've been to dozens of cons, I've ALWAYS taken some sort of commission (with the exception of Origins, a gaming convention), hell, I even took a commission at Gen-Con! Anyways, at FC this year, I had my first experience nearly-solo running the beginners tournament for Furoticon, and that guaranteed I wouldn't have the time to take any sort of artwork at the con. Pro: I really felt like I helped a bunch of folks learn the game, and like I really earned both my pay and covered room/board/travel. Con: ...but...my money I usually get.... (ha!) Since I had a bit more time to myself after everything was said and done, I got a lot of thinking done. That along with my "Patreon 101" panel really had me thinking about a subject I've had on my mind for the past year or so: What the fuck am I -doing- with my art? And to a lesser extent, my Patreon. I believe in Patreon being the next movement in how folks support their favorite artists. The problem I'm having now is how to feel like I'm doing enough to make it worth supporting. All 29 of you are fantastic, please don't feel like I'm whining about my supporters, but like in any business, you do want to keep expanding. I would love if my Patreon was a place folks left comments and responded to more of my questions. I would love if you folks really felt included in my artistic process and like you get something special, even at just a dollar a month. I would like if I didn't have to take commissions each month to keep myself going, and I could work on the video games I want to make, comics I want to do, more animation, etc. I feel like I have things to say and stories to tell, but that's still so terrifying. I have the basic plan for the Neg/Headjack storyline, but I keep stopping myself from continuing because it does get intensely personal, despite being pretty abstracted from a narrative folks could understand without knowing me pretty well. Even writing this post puts me in a bit of a state of panic. I really pride myself in coming off as professional, and peeling back that facade is painful to say the least. When I took my last year off, I thought I'd kind of figure out my shit, but I still feel pretty lost. I don't feel like I post enough, don't feel like I'm engaging enough. Maybe I'm just having a lull after the convention, but I know I feel this way pretty often! If I were to kind of boil this down into something concrete for discussion, I think this is how it would go: - Should I start making my sketches and personal WIP's exclusive to Patreon? - What would you like to see more? Sketches? Blogs? Tutorials and such? Any thoughts?