wonky art i'm not sure i'll post elsewhere

oh this post ended up being kind of long again. uh here's the song i'm listening to right now if you want music to go with it

i feel kinda silly for posting art that i'm basically like, "ehh i don't really like it and i'm probably not going to put it on twitter or whatever"

but hey i mean dvd special features and collector's editions and stuff often include outtakes and home demos and whatever. think of this as being like that! ahaha

i wasn't really leaning in to the angular thing as much and it ended up being kind of awkward. if you're wondering about a timeline, the colored ones i think i made after that asswolf couture one, which isn't very angular

i think my thought process was like, "oh that one's got smooth shapes and stuff, i should do that again" but it just ended up being kind of awkward and hmm, more two dimensional? more at odds with my own style, at least

the pic of sammy on the beach ended up being kind of wonky. i was trying to do the Round thing that doesn't really mesh super well with how i draw. it's funny because obviously i draw a lot of huge butts and thighs and nuts and stuff, but if i try to make everything round and flowy like how normal people draw, it just never works super well

it's a little weird trying to make myself give in more to my true uh, visual vocabulary? because it's a lot more hm, graphic designy? graffiti-ish? than i feel like is okay. like, it makes me feel like i'm worse at art than people who can draw things very accurately with solid realistic anatomy and stuff, despite that not being an explicit goal of mine ahaha

like sometimes i feel like i do sloppy distorted electric guitar music while wistfully looking over at people playing violin and piano skillfully and intricately. it's kind of silly because it's just kind of a different thing entirely. and when i fight the nature of what i do and try to play guitar in my garage punk band more like classical violin it just sounds bad because it's not my thing, despite appreciating it

continuing from that, it'd honestly be a bad idea to try to branch out into classical music more -- it's not really my thing and i'd be starting from scratch doing something i'm not very passionate about and would probably just be more fuel for the lack-of-confidence thing that's the problem in the first place. i think it'd be more productive in the long run making an effort to become more comfortable with the Thing i do

boy, that analogy got stretched thing lmfao

anyway

the vic/hella pic is an idea i'd at least like to revisit later. i haven't paired JUST them up before for some reason. i feel like there's some potential there for getting their dumb llama necks tangled up while fucking. the drawing itself ended up very off-model though and i ended up tripping over myself in an attempt to not give in to drawing like My Style (i.e. more abstract and angular -- see here and here for better examples of My Style)

the tiny chibi candy is just an idea of what sort of proportions i think i want to go for in terms of a 3/4th perspective twin-stick shooter. readable from a distance and as a low res sprite. i've fucked around with blender a fair bit over the years and a low-res sprite render probably wouldn't need an incredible professional quality model. something i've been meaning to get around to

the Flat Vic is just a doodle i did while feeling down ahah. i usually can't do vent art and i'm kind of envious of people who can -- this is probably the closest thing to that i've ever done, and probably the sole example of anything i could even remotely call "vent art"

anyway hey thanks!! everybody!! i just wanted to also mention that i really appreciate that you decided to become a patron! yes, you specifically! thank you!! ;ω;