The Patreon Podcast - Episode 114 - Alexander Pfeffel Wants Me Dead

Dan, you are my hero. I have been following you since I was probably too young to be watching your videos, I was probably around around 10 or 12 when a friend showed me your Red Faction Guerilla series. It's because of you that I got into more videogames than Minecraft and led to my love for computers. I'm starting college for UX design and if I never found you I think I would be on a completely different path in life. You made me laugh so much, (my humor mostly stems from you, my dad, and the Simpsons) but you also made me think about what is actually important to me. It isn't always what everyone else says is important. You seem to dance to your own beat and I absolutely love that. I've seen just about every YouTube video and love every stream I manage to catch. This is the first Patreon content I've seen and it is by far my favorite, I wish you were doing better but I'm glad to hear your honest feelings and thoughts. Nerdcubed is great but I love Dan. I tried to do YouTube seriously and turned something I enjoyed into unpleasant work with deadlines I didn't have time to meet. I realized some things are better done just for fun. You needed deadlines to get stuff done but it seems like without anxiety that doesn't work as much anymore so maybe the deadlines are more detrimental than beneficial. You enjoy writing, don't turn it into something you force yourself to do. But, you have a completely different life with completely different circumstances and completely different mind than me. This is just what I've learned from my life experiences and may not work for you. I told myself I would go back to making videos for fun but it's been months since I uploaded anything. I will always support your work, I love your YouTube videos but if you don't like YouTube don't do YouTube. If it's fun do it for fun. From watching you and my dad I learned to always put my mental health and personal wellbeing before my work life. That's worked well for me but I'm 18 and haven't had to pay the bills yet. Whatever you do just take care of yourself Dan, I'll always be a fan. (Hey that rhymes) Now I'm going to go read more Fuck Yeah Video Games.

Jack McCarthy

Hi Dan, I've been watching you for a rather long time, bout same age as you. Between you and Jenna Marbles you're one of my favourite people. Nevermind YouTube, just in general. I'm genuinely sad that Nerdcubed will be in gone in a few years, but I'm very much looking to your next ventures, whatever they may be. Look after yourself.

LinMac

i listened to 16 minutes so far, frankly i'm depressed by the out door world. I like lockdown 07 watch the osw review of iit, it's awesome https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8DTYKSkoxo4. I don't want anymore deaths from the rona, july 19th is too soon, why the fuck are the borders open, I could ramble for hours but won't so manily the joke

Xavier Allegaert

Dan I will find you and I will hug you! (after covid)

Nerd13

Dan you are allowed to be proud of your book and achievements. I'm sure your next book is going to be amazing too. YouTube was where a lot of people found you but I'm sure all the people here are more excited for patreon, books and streams. We know YouTube is shit and we will support you moving forward. I'll be sad when YouTube goes but also very glad because I know how much stress it causes

Ethan Pender

Gonna recommend Stardew Valley for a chill co-op game

Devin Albertson

I think FFP2 masks are still meant to be quite good as well, they're the equivalent of N95. It's what I wear.

Mike Jones

Dan!!! Every time you bring up how gay your sci fi book is I keep commenting and emailing how gay MY sci fi book is but you have never responded or acknowledged me and I am very desperate for you to see it in some way and I will not stop until you notice!!!!!!!!!

Pantscada

Dan, I think you'll be surprised how many people up their donations when the tiers come in. I've been on £1 since this began but I've grown up and have an income now. I'll be on £5 from then on. In fact. I think I'll sort that now. You deserve it for all the entertainment, hard work and weird aggressive wisdom over the years :)

Captain_Cone

I love football. But yeah wow they do bring out the worst in our country. Bloody England fans jumping on a double decker bus because we beat Denmark. It’s just so embarrassing. God help us if we win the final on Sunday 😅

James Samuel

man, do I feel that tired sense of defeat lately. My ADHD is acting up for whatever reason, probably staying inside for so long, and I haven't been able to work on any hobbies or projects really. I hope this whole thing can help people see that this type of government is bad for most, and that it could be fixed by replacing those people. And that this permanent fuzzy brain passes.

Jorg2

Daniel, you inspired my own positive outlook on humanity. To hear you giving up on yours is sad, heart-breaking really. But I still believe in your earlier message. Humanity can make it, and we are moving in the right direction. Cunts like Johnson and his ilk do not represent humanity, do not represent the future and will go down in history as a footnote among mistakes and setbacks. Conflict can only ever end, love and cooperation will last!

Elias Lipka

You should be creative and see how many different ways you can kill Aiden without repeating yourself

Narmatonia

Hey Dan. I get a lot out of these podcasts and really appreciate you doing them and gets me thinking. Like with the football which I can totally get all your view point. It's absolutely toxic and does really bring out the worst in a lot of people whilst also being quite boring as you said. I do think it can be a nice thing at the moment and I've enjoyed the time I've spent with my family during it. However I never care about football beyond these times. I think you've mentioned in the past but in terms of sports I think rugby is much better sport in all the areas you mentioned where football fails.

Tim Wiles

YES, PLEASE! I just wanna hug Dan. Sincerely.

Nerd13

reverse therapy, we pay to listen to you

Cole Lepper

Rebecca if you're reading this do me a favour: You are the only person who can hug Dan without risk at the moment. Please do so.

Spookyboob

Hey Dan, I don't have like the chronic health conditions you're talking about, but I am a fatass so covid would have done it's best to kill me. And the one good thing about being an American is that I got vaccinated months ago and it's been almost normal? Yeah got my first one in late March even. I get it though. I've been working from home and had to work harder than ever before honestly, especially at the start of covid. I'm fighting as much as I can to get my bosses to let us keep working at home now. And this would be to a workplace that despite being in America, is above 80% fully vaccinated. But I'm surrounded by idiots everywhere else who refuse to get vaccinated. My state has one of the lowest rates in the entire country. And I've given up feeling sympathetic for those people if they get sick. I just can't be bothered to feel bad for them. They tried their level best to kill me until I got vaccinated. Hell, half my driving will anymore is schadenfreude. The last podcast where you were talking about losing anxiety as a driving force, that was like, oh wait, that's what I did and why I struggle with motivation now. So you just simply can't spend your time wanting to help people like that. You can't. I've gotten far more cynical as I get older and people tell me not to be, but just like look around you! That's why I'm cynical. And it's not like I can ignore them because I'm kind of hyperaware of everyone always around me. None of this is helpful I'm sure. Just talking. But like, you aren't alone out in the world like this. It's just easier to close off and be cynical honestly. That way when people act like you expect it isn't disappointing, and when they're good it's always a positive surprise. But I hope at least talking helps.

Jason K

You should get yourself some FFP3 masks (as well as read up on the documentation surrounding documentation, there are NHSGGC and NHS England pdfs floating around the internet) They are the only mask designed to protect the wearer, so will keep you safe during your deliveries I absolutely despise the anti-mask crowd, they can all just jump in the bin. No doubt I'll be wearing masks for the rest of my life (but that's more about them just be so incredibly comfortable for me, I just like being covered up, it's nice) With the current football, the only thing I really know about it is that the alt-stupid crowd are convinced that england winning is a conspiracy by "deep woke" because the players are standing up for things like trans rights and all that, so (even though I'm scottish) I'm kind of hoping for them to win just to make the chuds angry haha The current numbers... I have completely given up. We're the first country in europe to open up and we're doing *BY FARRR* the worst. Also Taiwan recently had their first wave, really sad stuff. They now have a total case number of 14005, with 549 deaths 😔 Regarding people wanting to help, they're still there, but they're indoors and keeping safe :c So many people I know are being goodies, they're still out there, it's just they're all hidden by the small number of bad people taking lead of all the neutrals

Sandwich247

Only halfway through but I felt the sentiments expressed here deeply, and I wanted to give you a hug if i could. Much love to you and the family.

Exilegreen

As Stormzy said: Fuck Boris

Ian Murphy

i like football but yeah the large majority of football fans are just the worst humanity has to offer its disgusting

John Wicks

Sorry that our country is full of shit and shit people that you, me and many many others are having to endure, I really feel for you. Keep your head down, chin up and we’re always here for ya!

Richard Grayson

Rest assured Dan, I agree with you completely. I hate this government and I strongly dislike this country. If I could leave easily I would. And I plan to wear a mask in crowded public places forever, cos yiknow what, it's nice to not have any sort of cold or flu and if I can prevent it I will. I've also found myself caring less and less about the rest of society as the pandemic has gone on. That's mostly since last summer/autumn when it was so obvious that people didn't really care about helping each other and cases rose again. Of course there are people that do care, but eh, I'm happy doing my own thing now. Life's too short to try and fix everything. I would also be interested to know if there's a figure you have in mind that would represent financial security. Regardless of that, I'm upping my contribution. You've provided me with so much entertainment and happiness over the years, it hurts to hear that you're worried about this and if I can help I will.

Mike Jones

I am trans, with CFS, and severe health and social anxiety. I'm 99% sure Boris would have me assassinated of he wasn't so lazy

Mireaze

Im standing here listening to this while cooking dinner. I feel like dans therapist. I hope that him getting this off his chest and knowing that so many people care about him helps him get through.

Because they're idiots?

marcnet

sorry for clogging up this comments section haha, really enjoyed this

Mundane Pixels

I'm LOVING Try Hards right now, those guys are such a joy

Mundane Pixels

to be honest I think that football watching One Show portion of this country is as much of a minority as the rest of us, they've just got most of the microphones

Mundane Pixels

Your podcasts really help me to quieten the bees in my mind (if you have adhd you understand THE BEES!) sending you and Rebecca and all the pet babies the best ❤️

LukeSeawalker

Oh, yeah. They eased restrictions in the Netherlands some few weeks ago, including the mandatory masks. That was announced BEFORE I'd even gotten my first jab. I'm wearing mine, at the very least until I've had my second jab. Possibly even longer, depending on how things are going. I'm the only one at work still wearing a mask. And I hate all the fuckers. I understand them. It's no longer mandatory, and they're a nuisance. But I hate every colleague now. The supervisors even more.

Bjorn van Rijszen

Hey Dan, I hope you, Rebecca and the pets are well. Thanks for sharing this with us and I hope that us just by listening to this helps. <3

Wayne Chan

like I wouldn't have any issue at all with no one watching my stuff, if it wasn't still being shown to people who haven't cared for years who then, by ignoring it, tell YouTube that the content isn't worth showing to anyone who might actually love it

Mundane Pixels

I WISH I could delete all my old subscribers from back when I made mobile game videos as a kid, it makes getting anything I make shown to new people damn near impossible, super annoying

Mundane Pixels

Me before listening to this: what should I do while eating dinner?... Oh Dan released a new podcast... That should be a fun time... Me after listening: oh... I really hope Dan is ok and he really stays safe and well, mentally as well as physically.

Craig (CraigUntlNytTym) Penfold

I feel very lucky to have been able to receive both my covid vaccines ❤️ I think we can all recognise the anxiety of things “going back to normal” despite the data showing we absolutely shouldn’t! I’ve taken the steps to request a referral for what I believe is adhd which has been a struggle for me, excited to start my journey to (hopefully) diagnosis and treatment.

LukeSeawalker

Colleagues***

PBKitKat

Hey Dan, I don't have CFS but I do work a very physical job with an autoinflammatory disease and spinal issues. Thankfully my colleges are very accommodating but there are whole weeks where I'm completely bedridden after a particularly eventful day. I'm glad you feel comfortable to talk about these things, it's nice to have reminders we aren't alone in such struggles. Wishing you the best <3

PBKitKat

I just can't fathom why they're opening everything up before so so many people, myself included, are fully vaxxed. It's legitimately terrifying

Mundane Pixels

thank you for talking about this stuff Dan, it really is a comfort

Mundane Pixels