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A very casual Alyx I originally made for getting 3k on my twitter alt and threw some color on it. I love purple... and alyx... I can't stop drawing her.. She is my comfort character! I get (and make) so many opportunities to draw her, and I feel very grateful and privileged people reach out to me about HL fan art and do all kinds of things for mods. VANCE SUBPRIME is just my bread and butter, it's my love letter to her character. Sometimes, when i get the feeling to draw her other than for VS or patreon, I TRY not to draw her, bc this little voice in my head says, "hey, hey, you draw alyx waaaay too much, go draw something else", and.. I do draw a lot of things, and have other interests. I have non-HL things I'm planning, but, what the hell, I'm gonna do what I want if it brings me joy. But, I've had conversations with others in and out of the community about this; I don't necessarily want to be known as “that artist that draws a lot of half life” forever. Of course, I'll never forget where I came from and what how formative this game and community are to my art, but goddamn, it is hard not to. Then, I remember some of my fav artists, like the legendary Makani, now working at Valve, who, at one point, had a whole fan website (acciobrain!) dedicated to all her Harry Potter fan art! And TB Choi, who often draws Dokkaebi from Rainbow 6 Siege. There are probably many others I don't know of… So, I'm not alone. I realize there will be a point where, the mods are done, the comic is done. I would've squeezed every ounce of myself into these projects at that point, and it'll be just me, left to my own devices. Doing all of these projects at once definitely contributes to the momentum of fan art I produce, since I just eat sleep and breathe HL at this point. I don't think ill ever stop drawing HL, but I would not be opposed to pumping the brakes on HL for a little while once everything is wrapped up, to pursue other projects and just branch out. I'd like to surprise people with whatever I do next.

Ok, to be honest, I did not plan on pouring my heart out in this post, but here we are. This was more cathartic for me than probably for you guys, but it was going to come out at some point. But if you've made it here, thanks for reading.