Heaven's Feel

"Sorry..." This is bad, this is insanely bad! "Please forgive me." My mind is so shattered that I can barely pay attention to the fact that my own mother is now bowing to me.

She shouldn't, because I'm the one who's standing around like an idiot, and because of that she almost fell to the ground, hurting herself. And... and she really does look super fragile.

Because she's a teenager. A bit younger than BB appeared to be... Is this a trick by BB? It has to be right? I mean, what else could explain the fact I suddenly found myself in the past!?

I take a deep breath and smile. "Um... It's okay, it was my fault." Without waiting for anything else she leaves. I guess she must be in a hurry.

As soon as I can't see her anymore, I fall to the ground. "What the hell is this...?" I feel like... I don't even know how I should feel. Overwhelmed, I'm completely overwhelmed, and my head feels like it's about to burst.

I desperately start trying to breathe, but I'm failing. "What do I do now...?" I feel like my body is moving without my control, and even my sense of touch is slowly disappearing. The only thing I still feel is the cold sweat across my body.

Is this a panic attack...? Why am I panicking in a situation such as this one? I mean, I handled the world ending like a champ, so surely I can handle time travel like it as well...? Yeah, I need to calm down and-.

"Are you okay?" My mother's voice reaches my ears. Did she come back for some reason...? "I'll... help you." Her tone is so cold I can barely recognize it, but it's also filled with disbelief, like she can't believe what she's doing.

But just her voice is alone to give me strength. "Thanks." In the end I basically get up alone.

And now we are awkwardly staring at each other... I should probably leave.

A common theme across time travel stories is that if I fuck something up here, everything is getting erased. For all I know, right now Sakura should be going on a date with my father. They met while young after all.

But just like a mom knows when their child needs help, their child can tell when something is bothering their parent. I don't like the look she's giving me... the look she's giving everything.

Which is why... "Hey, how about I buy you something? As an actual thanks." I don't even have any cash with me, but I can find a way. Specially when I still have the ring.

That's right, now that I calmed down, I can clearly see that mcguffin that has saved me many times on my hand. If it can heal my leg and give enough support to so many Servants, surely it can like... conjure up money?

I wonder if Altera is okay.

Sakura nods, she doesn't even pause to think about it. "Okay." For some reason that reaction bothers me far more than if she had just rejected my invitation. Just what is going on here...?

I suppose I might as well investigate a little. And if I get erased... My mom seems sad, the universe can go fuck itself with its cosmic laws or whatever.



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"Ah..." I cut myself again, cooking is as hard as ever. "Why do I even try this anyways?" I never had any talent, somehow I got nothing from my super talented parents in this area. How embarrassing.

Sakura doesn't even notice my comment, she just keeps preparing food. We both started at zero, but she's growing so fast compared to me that it's not even funny. That said, her face does remind me why I'm still trying to cook.

It's because she clearly enjoys it when we do it together. And besides, since I got kicked out from the kitchen pretty early in my life, this is a pretty unique opportunity! Who knows, maybe when I go back I will be able to sort of keep with her adult self.

Yeah, that ain't ever happening.

Sakura takes her eyes off the food for one moment, and then gasps. "Senpai, you're hurt...!" It's still weird, hearing her call me senpai of all things.

But it can't be helped, using the Regalia I pretty much invaded her school, and I put myself into the same year I was attending in my original timeline.

Honestly, the Regalia is just way too convenient. Maybe I'm just exaggerating, but I feel like it has gotten much stronger ever since BB stopped being around. Maybe she was interfering with it somehow?

Well, it doesn't matter. What matters is that the Regalia is probably my ticket back home.

I smile. "Don't worry Sakura, it's just a small cut." It's bleeding, but that's not an issue. Sakura may not know about the Regalia, but I could heal something like this without even thinking too hard about this.

She pouts. "It doesn't matter how small it is! We need to bandage it!" Hah... She's definitely making way too big a deal of this, but I suppose she's at least being more expressive now.

It's far better than what she used to be.

I hesitantly nod. "Sure, sure... It pains me to leave the kitchen behind though." I just genuinely love watching her cook. Because that's one of the rare moments when she's happy.

Genuinely happy. I can see right through the weak facades she puts on.

You see, my mother is being abused. I never knew much about her family, but that Shinji, my uncle, is a worthless piece of shit. And no matter how much I talk to the school about it, they never seem to listen.

I'll probably need to try some more direct methods soon, specially since I have other issues to deal with. Like the fact that my father always looks like he's having a PTSD attack, and somehow nobody comments on that.

Or how Auntie Rin has pretty much zero friends at school, and is clearly completely and utterly depressed because of that, even as she pushes away any who approach. Honestly, I never knew my family was such a mess.

Sakura's pout gets even more adorable. "Maybe you should just give up on cooking, Senpai." Wow, I'm having flashbacks to what my mom actually said in the past! "You always end up hurting yourself..." Sadly true.

As we walk towards the cabinet where the bandages are, I chuckle. "I can't give up cooking so easily, it's one of the excuses I have to spend time with you after all." Any time she spends away from her home is good.

I seriously might need to destroy the Matou's with a giant moon beam. I can actually do that by the way.

Sakura blushes. "Senpai, don't say things like that out of nowhere!" Man, if she makes a face like that when my father is around, my birth is pretty much guaranteed! "A-and... you can always watch when I cook, and then eat it." That would make me feel like such a lazy asshole though!

This is serious Auntie Rider behavior. "Nah, I need to do something to feel useful..." Honestly I have been feeling pretty restless recently, so I always want to be doing something, no matter how small.

Sakura already has the bandages in her hand, she gently wraps them around my finger. "Ugh, and you say Emiya-Senpai helps people too much..." As one can guess, I never stop talking about dad when near her. I want the two to get together after all.

I probably just come off as extremely gay though. Don't look at me with those eyes! Of course I would be my dad's number one hype man!

And besides... "Even if I do lend a hand here and there, we are not the same. I'm much more selfish... and pratical than Emiya." He helps people because that's the right thing to do, I sometimes help people because I can't stand seeing someone just stand around like a headless chicken.

There are exceptions for that of course, I would help my mother, my father, and my aunts without any hesitation at all. Obviously family is a very different occasion than some random pitiful human being.

Sakura smiles. "You're so hard on yourself Senpai.. If you're selfish, then what am I?" Abused into having low self-esteem. You aren't ready for that talk though, and you should have it with your therapist.

I wink in her direction. "You're the type of girl who helps a man who bumped into you, and then started having a panic attack like an idiot. Seriously, that was some hero moves."

She looks away. "That's... that doesn't matter. Senpai just gives off the aura of someone who must be protected." Maternal feelings transcend time and space!? That doesn't shock me at all to be honest.

I laugh. "That's not something a guy likes to hear." I'm slowly, but surely making her face even redder. "Well, next time I'll be the one helping you then. As payback, since I'm a selfish guy." If my legal plans don't work, I'm dumping Shinji into a ditch.

"You shouldn't say stuff like that, Senpai." Her tone went back to being super cold, she probably doesn't think I can do anything about her situation. Hell, she doesn't even know I know about her situation.

I smirk. "There are a few facts in life that one cannot change. I'll always payback any favour, Taiga will always be a tiger, Shirou will always be red, and you will always be super adorable, total wife material." Take my traditional, and sexist compliment Japanese woman from 2004!

She sputters. "Senpai...!" But before she can defend herself from my misogyny powers, I feel a sharp pain on my hand. It makes me flinch. "Hm?" And now she's looking at my hand, face completely pale.

I sigh. "Don't worry Sakura, I guess I must have hit my hand somewhere." Command Seals, or at the beginning of them, are appearing on my hand.

Things are about to get serious.



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"That was surprisingly easy..." My ring is much more broken and versatile than I thought, which means I pretty much dominated throughout the entire war.

The only people who gave me any trouble were Gilgamesh, who was simply way too strong and... That worm. Though in the end I killed him, and freed my mom. In summary things ended up being happy.

And now I'm staring at the window of my apartment. "What's next...?" This Holy Grail War was a bust. It couldn't grant any wishes, and so it couldn't bring me to my actual timeline.

So I'm still stranded here for the time being.

The door slowly opens. "Senpai...?" I recognize Sakura's voice, but I don't turn around to greet her. I'm still looking at Fuyuki, enamored by a time I really shouldn't be in, it's like Gilgamesh said, I'm a slow acting poison to this place.

Still, I do smile. "Yo, Sakura." I don't care if I accelerated the death of the universe, I don't care if that red shadow is constantly chasing after me now. In the end I helped my mother, and hell... I even helped and aunt I never met before.

I hear the sound of Sakura taking a deep breath. "Are you busy, Senpai? I can come back later..." I don't think I'll be busy for a while. My only job now is figuring out how to get back home.

So I wave her off. "It's fine Sakura. I'm never too busy for you." She is literally the person who raised me into the man I am. There's no way I could just turn her down. "In fact, always feel free to ask me anything." Yep, I'm a good son!

"Is that so...?" I hear the sound of something falling to the ground. "Then I don't you to turn around, Senpai. That's my first request." Okay...? I guess she's about to surprise me with something.

Is Sakura Mat- Tohsaka about to prank me!? Is this joyous occasion really happening!?

I can hear her breathing harder and harder, slowly walking over to me. "You really are way too selfless Senpai..." Huh? "Even though you made me so happy, even though you gave me everything, you still don't even look at me..." Isn't that what you want?

I keep hearing the sound of things falling to the ground, and before long Sakura is right behind me. "If you save a woman, it's only natural to ask for something in exchange..." She hugs me from behind.

She's not wearing anything. "Sakura?" Maybe this was a plot of BB after all?

She whispers in my ear. "Do you think I'm disgusting Senpai...?" Of course, not!

I shake my head. "N-no..." How is a man supposed to act in this situation? At this point I learned enough things about Sakura that I know simply rejecting her would be way too cruel. Even for me.

She tightens her hug. "Then... then please fuck me, Senpai." I...

As Hideaki Emiya, son of Shirou Emiya and Sakura Matou, there is only one thing I can do in such a unique situation.

Naturally I...!



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AN: Naturally he...!

Someday I will probably make a bigger F/SN omake, but that's what you get for now.