That big leap| Life update

I'm pretty open and I Love giving out options-- so if you're noisy, interested, or just bored, I provided a longer vers. of this life update.  But here's the table of context :

• Short Story 
• Longer Story
• So what is next...
• What does that mean for Patreon...

Short Story:

I'm quitting my job. Its stressing me out, causing/triggering anxiety attacks, I find a few things about this company to be a bit unprofessional in my fair opinion and under paying me. So I have to make this work. I want to make this work and I deserve a job that keeps me on my toes, busy in the communities I stand with and creating smiles.

Longer Story:

The years 2019-2020, I was a fulltime freelance artist due to loosing my job. I wouldn't look for another job till the year of 2021. It would have been 3 years of living with my bestfriends ( 5 roommates in a 3 bedroom, 1 bath for $875) and we thought it would be best that we branch out and do this adulting thing a bit more solo. Making sure that we could afford the life style we needed to fund, I was sadly working again. Completely New to the position, I was Stuck behind a counter, being micro managed and relearning society all over again after a 2 year hiatus ( the only faces I would ever see were my fiancé's and best friends due to Covid).  However, I was still met with open arms, and amazing people I couldn't imagine leaving behind. But over the next few scheduled work weeks ( Mind you, I'm only schedule to work 3 Days for this company ) I've honestly lost interest and the will to work for the company after this ( I will not release or state the name of the company, -- Because I am still employed there and will be for another few  months).

So, these past work weeks I've been accused of slander, and being unapproachable bc my new coworker, struggles to find the courage to just speak to me if they're in need, instead of projecting personal fears and feelings they may have. I'm a very lax, professional, funny, outgoing, empathic eccentric person,  and vocally honest in public. I'm not shy but, I find it doesn't take much to be over whelm by other peoples energy levels. So I tend to get quite and preserve my energy for our customers. I'm assuming that during these times my coworker finds it harder to approach me and ask for help. They are use to my manic and more energetic phases throughout the day, and expect me to keep up the energy even on down time when its appropriate to be more relax. Also, once again I'm a very honest person and if you want my perspective I will tell you how I feel. 

This companies wants robots, and I cant provide that for them. My concerns/ feedback about this company as an employee, get sum down and only seen as complaints/ slander and neg behavior. Instead of listening to my "neg slander"  and actively work towards improving on them for a better, productive work environment, They are forced doing interviews. I've seen 15 employees quit, over the span 10 months-- only making it past the first week, or no further than 3 months. We are a small local company with no more than 200 employees spread throughout 4 locations. Working mandatory over time, no PTO and proper training. I'm constantly denied raises and I refuse to continue to be devalued ( Coming in early to make sure the store is open and ready, staying after for employees, working solo on the busiest days bc employees called off) and being constantly ignored.

So what's the plan--

Patreon has to work, my art has to work, I want and need this to work. I manifested this,  begged the universe for this, I prayed for this and I'm so scared. Because now this becomes real and it's all or nothing.  So I'm only staying ( unless the universe tells me I'm stupid ) till the first pay week of Aug. I want to make sure that my fiancé has a backup savings to dip in if he needs help paying the rent. But my goal is to make my art my full time thing BIGGER AND BETTER, while surviving. We'll be going over something's before making this plan official. We've decided to put our wedding on the back burner to buy a house instead ( Jul. 2023) and go to the court ( in Jul.). So, our personal goal is to do what's best for us and do what ever it takes till that's achieved. So I want to thank you for helping me get this far, for supporting me this far and showing me I can do this.

What does that mean for patreon...

So I have always had big project I wanted to do, as well as I want and still need to maintain my life as a freelance artist. So I will be way more active and hands on then my original plan (  I was hoping to work for that company til 2024 and create a steady flow posting and being active only 4 days, going live on one of those 4 ). However I must prep myself for this transition, of working from home 4 days to 5-6 and being focus on you all. So as things unfold, you'll be notified first and hopefully from there we grow. But for now - heads up.