I remember this so vividly. When my brother was two and a half he saw me painting my toenails on the bathroom floor. I was four at the time and my mother had taught me how to use her red nail polish, they must have looked horrible but I was amazed that I could alter my appearance like that. I could be colorful externally, without relying on clothing purchased for me by the authorities that be. My brother sat with me and watched as we talked about whatever you talk about when you’re a toddler, I don’t have any idea anymore.
But I remember what he said after. He asked me to paint his toenails. He must have been just as amazed that something so wonderful existed. His clothes were duller than mine, no bright colors, no sparkles. He was a boy and that’s what little boys were given to wear.
So I had him stand and I laid on the floor and painted all of his tiny toes red. Then he brought down his toys and we painted their fingers red too. The bathroom looked like a crime scene.
My little brother is a proud queer man, he is braver than I am, he is stronger than I could ever hope to be, he is who he is and no one else. His first act of rebellion in a world that is against us was breathing, his second was asking me to paint his nails. It’s been twenty-three years and sometimes when we see each other he still asks me to do his nails.
So I draw characters like Crowley with painted nails. You may not like it. You don’t have to. But don’t think for a second that this is without meaning. It isn’t. Not to me.
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