Black Sand

The waves hit the shore line as my feet relaxed in the black sand which was oddly cool unlike what one would expect. The scenery around me was that of a dark beach. Nothing but black sand and water surrounded me. It was here that I felt at peace.

I don't know how long I've been here for. I don't even think it matters. I know that I’m here because I did the right thing. I did what I did to make sure that they could live their lives and move on. Though it’s a shame that I can't be a part of it.

I never thought that I would care about anyone besides myself in my entire life. From day one I have only ever thought about living for myself and no one else. That was the case until she showed up in my life.

She changed everything for me and showed me a side of myself that I never knew I had. I was able to make this decision because of what she did for me. I wonder if she would be mad at me for the decision I made? I wonder if she would be happy to see that I was able to care about someone besides myself for a change? I wonder if I’ll go to the same place that she did?

I sat down in the sand just to relax. Who knows if I'll ever be able to relax like this again. My whole life I thought that being near others was just a burden. I always thought that they were beneath me. They always relied on me though. I helped them out of pity, but the truth was that I needed there help all along.

All I ever truly wanted was someone that could give me the courage to acknowledge that I was alone. I tried hiding away for so long here in the darkness, trying to separate myself from others, but it turns out I was wrong.

Having at least one person in your life is all that anyone needs. To live alone is to no live at all. That’s what she showed me. By trying to live a life of solitude I was missing out on many different joys of life.

I may have been born from the darkness on these shores, but that doesn’t mean that I have to stay here. I don’t know where I’ll go when I’m gone but at least now I have hope. I have hope that it could be the start of something new.

I felt my body start to become lighter. I looked down and saw that my left hand had begun to crumble into sand. It was time that I returned from where I came from.

“I guess it's about time,” I said as I stood up. As I did more and more parts of my body were crumbling into black sand. I began to walk into the waters knowing full well that most likely just be carried away always a drift never staying in one place. It’s about time that I go to sleep.