BURY YOURSELF (Alternate arrangement) + life update

this is the original version of BURY YOURSELF that i'd planned to put on UNKILLABLE ANGEL until my friend ginger suggested i try re-arranging it into the final version that's on the album - i prefer the final album version since i feel like it's more dynamic and colorful and has more of a payoff, but the original version has an interesting feel as well. the biggest change is probably that the bridge in the final version is the chorus in this version, and the final build/drop isn't present. the guitars are chopped and pitched samples as well, instead of chopped samples of a real guitar part like in the final version, and there's various other small mix details that are different.

ginger also made the point about this early version that some of the lyrics suggest i'm already past everything that the song is about ("i'm busy living" etc) but that i didn't sound over it - i definitely felt that so i tried to rewrite parts of the song to focus on how i felt in the moment instead of how i'd like to feel or how i'd like people to think i feel, which i think made the final album version hit harder and feel more honest.

hope u enjoy ! ive also got an album's worth of b-sides from UNKILLABLE ANGEL that i'm working on polishing and finalizing, i might post some tracks from that here too in the lead-up to its release . the b-sides comp is about 19 songs too (most of UA was written during 2024 but i'd been writing songs for what eventually mutated into that album since 2022) so there'll inevitably be some tracks that are cut - those will probably end up as patreon exclusives too.

hope ur all doing well out there and thanks so much for the support, it really means a lot right now since i'm currently trying to break my lease in montreal and move back to vancouver. i moved to montreal since rent is so affordable here and the move from toronto was cheaper, but i don't really know many people here and after the past year i've been pretty withdrawn so it's been hard to go out and make friends. after visiting vancouver a few times where all my friends live i've realized how badly i need to be around people i trust to feel supported and work on building myself back up again, so im unfortunately in the position of needing to move across the country to the most expensive city in canada haha... i'll try and keep up posting here tho to make ur pledges worth it . i'm also going to try and have the UGLY DEATH physicals out soon in order to help pay for the move. tysm again and take care <33

LYRICS:

sick and broken with a smile on my face
surviving every day somehow
i know you wanna be the victim again
even as you break my mind down

i won't let you take my agency again

on my own, no home
i'm broken open
but i know i won't ever allow this
ever again

you know
you know me
you know what you did to me
you know
you know me
you know what you did

you can make me question everything real
you can act like its complicated
put your words in my mouth but ill never allow
your world to get back in my head

when i left you said that it was you who did
i wont let you take my agency again

you just misconstrue
you never cared about truth
so your hold on me is something i dont owe you

on my own, no home
i'm broken open
but i know i wont ever allow this
ever again

bury yourself in fiction
you've made your own hell, live in it
keep telling lies, they'll listen
but i dont have time
im busy living