RS02 Niona
Added 2018-05-11 11:46:29 +0000 UTCI've thought about going back to my fantasy series a few times, but time is always an issue. In addition to that I've felt creatively crippled for some time now. The utter lack of hope I feel in my life makes writing a fantasy adventure very difficult, because I don't feel anything when I write. Maybe it will pass someday, but there's no way to tell. I can still make the comic because I'm so trained to do it my brain just does it almost on its own. I've got enough stored up I can run on empty for ages & still never get to the ending I want. So that's good at least in so far as being able to survive is concerned. This certainly isn't the first time in my life I've felt this way, but it's the longest by far. Anyway, I guess you guys get to experience this with me too. I'm starting to hesitate when it comes to sharing because people have been so mean when I do recently, but you guys are paying me to create, so you deserve to know where my head is from time to time. In any case I hope you enjoy this. I couldn't sleep so I just stayed up all night sketching in hopes it would kickstart my brain. If nothing else I think I can finally sleep.
Comments
I know all too well the throes of depression. Been dealing with the same garbage myself a lot lately, so I get it. You want to retreat but at the same time you want to talk to people about it. Its crushing. We appreciate your work and your efforts.
Sammo
2018-05-12 15:54:13 +0000 UTCSorry to hear that depression is getting to you. If it comforts you at all, you're not alone - I've seen a lot of creative folk say that the chaos of the world is really shutting down their inspiration. For me, the thing that seems to work best is to take a break from what I've been doing and completely go to input mode. In my case, that's going camping off-grid (so I can't be tempted by news) and just reading new fiction from my favorites. Everyone is different, but the key is to completely remove yourself from your current context so you HAVE to see life through fresh eyes.
Erik
2018-05-11 19:13:13 +0000 UTCIs that really depression? Because I haven't been able to do any serious drawing for going on three years now, and I've been wondering. I don't generally think of myself as "Depressed" in the clinical term... In fact I refused meds for it after my transplant, which they insisted on prescribing.
Churchill (formerly TeaBear)
2018-05-11 15:01:17 +0000 UTCWe are all here for you
DresdenQ
2018-05-11 14:26:00 +0000 UTCCan't say I know exactly what your going through, everyone's depression is their own beast we each have to deal with. But I'm rooting for you, and I hope it gets better/easier to deal with.
snilloc422
2018-05-11 13:53:38 +0000 UTCSounds like to me you need to go on an adventure of your own.
2018-05-11 13:15:46 +0000 UTCHope you get some sleep at least, insomnia makes everything else harder to deal with.
infernalperson
2018-05-11 12:56:57 +0000 UTCI can't imagine what it is like dealing with that day after day but I sincerely hope you're able to see better days. Comic or no, fantasy series or no, you are a valuable person to many. Much love.
TheTik
2018-05-11 12:20:41 +0000 UTCI know where you're coming from. I'm not a writer by a long shot, just a DM, but I have the same issue when my depression kicks in. I'm trying to tell myself it will come out the other side, and logically I know that, most likely, I will, but I struggle with it a lot. You're not alone. It helps me to hear that sometimes, so hopefully it might help you.
Ash Astra
2018-05-11 12:03:06 +0000 UTC
