Update

I usually don't share much... Ok I really don't share anything from my private life on social media, but I would like to share with you guys what's been going on. This does not mean I won't be posting anymore, but I just want you all to know I haven't forgotten about my patreons. I've been dealing with a lot of technical issues that have made uploading on here impossible and as of late my financial situation has gotten much worse aka I'm two months behind on rent and all that lovely shit so I had to pawn my laptop which holds a ton of my work and makes editing/uploading a crap ton harder when I'm working from my shitty phone. Every time I feel like I've figured out one thing the next crashes. And unrelated to the technical problems I've had a lot of issues with photographers in the past few months overstepping boundaries and getting very inappropriate to the point where I'm no longer capable of going to shoots alone. Last year I was sexually assaulted by a photographer at a shoot and now when photographers cross the line (for instance at a shoot in Philly a photographer started rubbing his crotch while shooting me) I get extremely triggered and it makes me horrified of shooting. I've also been getting a lot of really qualitatively poor images from photographers that I don't even want to post anywhere. It's just been overall an incredibly frustrating season and today my family got the test results back from my aunts' most recent biopsy and it's confirmed that her illness is in the end stages which is the most aggressive form of Leukemia. As some of you may know, I grew up without a mother and my aunt is everything to me and we don't know if she's going to make it. Her daughter is getting married this week but my aunt and her husband and her youngest daughter will be at a clinic in Arizona instead of the wedding to hopefully buy her a few more months. I will be at my cousins' wedding trying to take on all my aunts' tasks that she would have fulfilled. Her two brothers will walk her down the isle. I'm really lost and sad and I hope you all can forgive me for being such a mess and I hope one of these days my friends can help me post a ton of stuff. I have 4 shoots next week so I'll be able to post from those shoots, they are all in Chicago so my roomie will come with me to make sure I'm safe. Thank you all so so much for your support and patience. I appreciate you all very very much! Carina