Irrationality is governing, we know it as viewer but is it possible for a parent who lost a child to not try to hold them again ?
The answer is no. Same here.
I do not think someone would have the stenght to hold thyself back either.
The idea of Suansoo was doomed to fail from the start, and for Ong-sa, as a teenager, it was doomed to fail to not going back with young Suansoo.
As pathetic it was to try, I processed it easily. What I loved was the struggle to not accept you will failed anyway.