Mom's Unique Punishment - Part 19

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The Date Begins

"Danielle, Kyle is here," my mother shouted up from downstairs.

Her voice sounded so calm and yet I was totally nervous and scared. Oh my God. Kyle is really here to take me out on a date. He's standing downstairs now talking to my mother waiting for me. What have I gotten myself into? It was only a little over a year ago that I first walked down the stairs to face my father, the first man in my life, with me dressed as a girl. Now tonight I would soon be walking down those same stairs to come face to face with another enormous challenge, my first date with a boy. I remember how stupid I felt last year when my father first saw me dressed as a girl. A year ago I was a scared, unconfident child dressed in an almost puritanical little girl dress, all sugar, and spice, complete with those white pantyhose and those stupid shoes Mom made me wear. What a sight I must have been. 

A lot sure has happened this past year. And I knew the next year would be full of changes and surprises as well. Tonight, as I gazed at myself in the mirror very little of that young, self-conscious little girl, remained. Tonight I looked older, more mature, and more confident. I still looked my age but not in a childish way. Tonight I looked much cuter and I think even more desirable. Yet underneath the surface, I was still in so many ways that same little girl. I was still a bit unsure of myself. I still felt uneasy in my role. It was a very scary feeling to be going out alone on my first date with a boy. Going out on a date was scary enough under normal circumstances but my dilemma was very unique. I mean boys are supposed to date girls, not other boys. Why did I ever agree to go out with Kyle? I must be crazy.

I took a deep breath, prayed a silent little prayer before I grabbed my bag, and walked out of my room. As I left the safety of my room I felt more than a little bit apprehensive. I was so nervous. As I stood at the top of the stairs, I giggled nervously as I thought about my future. The one thing I knew for sure was that my future would be very different than most boys my age. That thought really cracked me up. I mean, how many teenage boys would be wearing a cute outfit like mine for their first real date? Not too many that's for sure. Not too many boys would be going out on their first date with polished toenails and a pretty manicure either. Most boys would not have been concerned about what bra and panty set to wear under their clothes. Most boys would not be wearing makeup or a sweet, aromatic perfume either. And I knew for sure that most teenage boys would not be calling their first date, Kyle either. There was no denying that. My date was completely unique for a boy.

I could feel my heart pounding as I took that first step heading downstairs to face Kyle. It felt as if my heart would simply leap out of my chest. I was so nervous that I actually felt a bit nauseous  I could hear Kyle talking to my mom and brother. Oh shit, now I have to deal with my brother too, I thought. It was bad enough that Mom was there but now my brother was there too. I kind of hoped he would be somewhere else, somewhere far, far away. Well, there was nothing I could do about it now so I continued my slow descent down the stairs. 

As I walked down the next few stairs I could see Kyle's legs and feet. He was wearing a nice pair of khaki pants and loafers. I smiled as I thought how much easier most guys have it dressing for a date than a girl. He just had to throw on a few things, comb his hair and he was ready. Well, I knew I was a rare exception to that rule with my cute little mini skirt and my sexy little top. I just spent hours getting dressed, shaving my legs and underarms, applying my makeup, and fixing my hair. I hoped it was all worth it. As I took the next few stairs I could see Kyle as he turned his head towards the stairs and our eyes met very briefly. I was still watching my step since I didn't wear heels that often and I didn't want to trip. That would have been an entrance to remember for sure. I could sense Kyle giving me the once over very subtly since my mom was so close by. I also knew Mikey was watching my every move with equal intensity as I made my way gingerly down the stairs.

"Oh, there you are, sweetie. I don't you look pretty," Mom said as I cringed a little at her obvious compliment. I hated it when she called me those little pet names and it was a bit embarrassing to be told how pretty I look in front of my brother and my date but all I could do was smile.

"Hi, Dani. I agree. You look great," Kyle said sweetly, making me like him more already. It was so funny. When mom told me I looked pretty I felt awkward and silly but when Kyle agreed I felt like all my preparations were well worth the time and effort. I practically felt giddy. But I could also feel the blood rushing to my cheeks. I knew I had to be blushing bright red.

"Oh, thanks, Kyle," I answered coyly. I looked over at my brother and he just gave me a dumb little smirk. I was so relieved since I was expecting him to say something negative. Even though we were getting along much better I still felt very apprehensive with him right there in the midst of Mom, Kyle, and me, especially since he knew Kyle was taking me out on a real date.

"You all set?" Kyle asked me.

"Oh sure. I'm ready," I lied. Despite my nervousness about going out on a date, I was more nervous standing there in my cute little outfit, never knowing exactly what my mother or brother might say next. Being alone with Kyle had to be better than standing here any longer. Or at least I hoped it was.

"Dani, don't forget. I expect you to be home before midnight. You kids have fun and promise to be careful. Kyle, no speeding, right, young man?"

"Mom! Please! I know when to be home," I said embarrassed. I felt childish enough about having a curfew without her bringing it up. And then to make matters worse she had to chastise Kyle about his driving. My God, he'll think I'm a total baby.

"Yes, Mrs. Exner. I'm a good driver and I promise to take very good care of Danielle. And the movie is over early so we'll be sure to be home before midnight."

"Bye Mom," I said as she kissed me lightly on the cheek.

"Bye Mikey."

"Bye Sis. Have fun on your date," he said with a big grin as we walked out the front door.

And with that, we were off. I could still feel my heart racing as we navigated our way down my walkway to his waiting car. Not only was this my first real date with a boy, but it was also my first grown update where I didn't have to have an adult drive me. Tonight for the first time ever, I would be totally on my own with a boy who thought I was all girl. I was pleasantly surprised when Kyle opened the car door for me. I knew my mom and brother were probably watching so that was another plus for Kyle. I carefully sat down on the car seat and swung my legs into the car very demurely and ladylike. And believe me, that is a lot harder to do than it looks. I never realized what a challenge that was while wearing a really short skirt, especially with my relative lack of experience in such matters. Kyle was probably hoping to catch a glimpse of my panties anyway. You know how boys are.

I wish I could tell you about our conversation that night as we drove to the theater but I can't. I don't remember one thing we talked about on the entire ride. I probably made a complete fool of myself but I honestly don't remember one word. I was just so nervous sitting there in a car next to Kyle. I was half expecting him to just turn the car around and drop me back home thinking I was a total loser. Thankfully, he didn't do that. By the time we parked the car, I finally felt like I could breathe again. Kyle jumped out of the car and ran to my side to open the door for me, which for some reason made me giggle. I wasn't used to having boys cater to me like that but once again I managed to exit the car somewhat ladylike. I smiled at the apparent ease with which I exited the car in my skirt and heels. Kyle saw me smile and evidently thought I was making fun of him.

"I know. I'm a nerd, right," Kyle said with a grin. "I just think a guy should open the door for his girlfriend, especially on the first date and especially for such a pretty little thing like you."

I'm sure I blushed a bright red at his very sweet comment. And it felt strange to be referred to as his girlfriend but I guess I was or at least it was a strong possibility. "No, I think it's really sweet that you did that. It's really nice, Kyle. Thank you."

After we bought our tickets and got some popcorn I felt like I really had to go to the bathroom. Whenever I get nervous it makes me need to pee. And for some reason, I was very nervous tonight. So as soon as we had our seats, I excused myself and found my way to the ladies' room. This break gave me a chance to take a few deep breaths and finally compose myself. After I exited the stall, I washed my hands and fixed my lipstick before heading back to rejoin Kyle. Although it felt strange to be standing there re-applying my lipstick, the ritual seemed to relax me even more. So, by the time I rejoined Kyle, I felt totally at ease.

The movie was cute, a romantic comedy of sorts. Much to my surprise, I found myself getting really engrossed in the movie. I was so engrossed that I was almost unaware as Kyle slipped his arm around me. As I nestled myself in his strong chest muscle, I even managed to turn towards him, look him in his eyes and give him a big smile to indicate my approval. Kyle immediately noticed my reaction and gave me a little nudge, pulling me in a bit closer to him. This is how we watched the remainder of the

movie. It felt very strange sitting there in such a short little skirt with Kyle sitting so near. Well, strange probably isn't the right word, I felt very safe and secure with his arm around me which scared me a bit. I mean should I really be feeling this way? And when I actually caught Kyle looking at my legs a few times during the movie, it only served to intensify these feelings. Sandi was right. The skirt was a definite winner. I just hoped it wasn't catching too much of his interest. I was quickly learning that it's a very fine line girls have to walk.

It's funny how different a girl feels on a date. I've seen Kyle a number of times since we first met and we talked for hours on the phone over the past few weeks but tonight I felt like we just met for the first time. I wasn't sure why either. Maybe it was because he was such a gentleman; complimenting me, and opening car doors for me. Maybe it was because of the way I was dressed tonight. I know he liked my outfit. And I did catch him looking at my legs quite often during the movie. But I had to admit I kind of liked that too, even though I felt very shy for most of the night. I wasn't sure if this was normal or if my feelings were due to my secret. I couldn't tell if Kyle sensed this or if he had any of the same feelings but I didn't think so. He seemed more himself and he wasn't acting quite as shy as me.

After the movie, we stopped off for a hamburger, and then it was time to take me home. I breathed a sigh of relief when he pulled his car in front of my house. I did it! I actually survived my first date with a boy. I didn't make a fool of myself, at least not a major one. I was so relieved and pleased and then it dawned on me that he would probably kiss me goodnight. Not wanting to sit there too long I turned to thank him for a wonderful evening.

"I had a great time too, Dani. I'll call you tomorrow. Okay?"

"Oh sure. That will be..." Before I could finish my sentence he leaned over and pulled me close, kissing me fully on the lips. Without thinking I just let him kiss me, opening my mouth slightly to accept his eager tongue. In a way, I was relieved and pleased that he took charge of the situation. I don't think I would have enjoyed the kiss as much if I knew it was coming. If I knew I would have had to deal with all those boy thoughts but this way I just reacted; and yes I reacted like any other teenage girl. As we kissed I felt his hand rest briefly on my thigh. It was a nice feeling. Everything seemed to be going in slow motion. I could feel his lips pressing against mine. I like the thought of his strong hand very lightly resting on my soft, smooth thigh as some romantic song played on his car stereo. Although Jason had kissed me many times this kiss was so different in so many ways. Kyle only knew me as Danielle. Kyle found me totally attractive as a girl. Kyle wanted to kiss me and he

wanted to see me again. I was so enjoying the moment but I knew it was getting late and I had to go.

"Kyle, it's nearly midnight and I don't want my mom looking out to see if we're here," I said. "I sure don't want her to see us kissing like this. She's kind of strict with me."

"Yeah, I bet she is. Mom's are like that with their daughters I guess. But it's no problem. I don't want to get you into trouble by being late from our first date. Especially since I want to have more dates with you."

Kyle got out of the car. Naturally, he rushed over to my side and opened my door before he walked me to the front door. After I slipped the key in the lock and opened the door, Kyle took me into his arms, drew me close, and kissed me one last time. The kiss was long and passionate but I enjoyed every second of it. I enjoyed feeling his lips pressing against mine as his arms held me close to his chest. After our embrace, he released me from his strong arms. I felt like I was floating on air. 

"Kyle thanks for everything. I had a really nice time tonight. It was great," I said as I kissed him lightly on the lips before closing the door behind me. My first date as a girl was over. I survived. I had fun. And Kyle kissed me more than once and said he wants to see me again. Wow!

I was startled out of my daydream by my mother's voice.

"So how was your date, honey? Kyle seems like a nice young man, very well mannered and polite."

"Oh yes, mom. He is. He was so cute. He actually opened the car door for me all night long. He was so nice, which was good because I was so nervous in the beginning. Thank goodness I finally started calming down by the time we reached the theater. The movie was good too. Then we went out for a bite to eat at a little place in the mall. It was a nice night."

"And was he a good kisser?" Mom laughed with a little twinkle in her eye.

I wondered if she saw us in the doorway but that comment left little doubt that she did indeed see our goodnight kiss. "Mom! Were you spying on me? That's so mean."

"No. Honestly, I wasn't spying on you. I was just sitting here reading waiting for you to come home but when you came in you had the door wide open so I couldn't help but notice. So, see, I wasn't spying on you. I would not do that to you. I trust you. But since I couldn't help by notice, you can now tell me all about your kiss."

Oh my God. I can't believe my mom just saw us kissing. How could I be so stupid?  "Oh Mom, it's too embarrassing. I'm not going to talk to you about that. Its way too personal, mom."

"Sure you can. Believe me, I went through the same things when I was your age. I know how exciting that first kiss is. I can still remember my first kiss. It was with Jimmy Weston and he kissed me in Echo Park sitting on a bench by the lake. He was my first boyfriend. I remember almost floating home that night thinking about it. Wow. Some boy likes me enough to kiss me. It was a very special moment."

"Yeah, but did you tell grandma all about that boy kissing you? I bet you didn't say a word to her about that kiss." I could tell by her reaction that I was right but I figured I might as well tell her a bit since she already knew. 

"But since you already saw us, I guess I can tell you a little. Well, when we got back to the house, Kyle parked the car. That's when he kissed me for the first time. I was just sitting there getting ready to tell him I had a nice time and he just leaned over and kissed me. I know I should have expected him to do that, but I was totally surprised when he actually did. I wasn't sure if he had a good time tonight or if he really liked me that much. But when he kissed me I figured he must like me so I kind of kissed him back. I thought it would feel really weird but it didn't. It was such a nice kiss. I don't know. I'm just all mixed up. All this girl stuff has me totally confused about everything. I mean here I

am talking to my mom about kissing some boy. Even you have to admit that's weird, mom. I'm a boy impersonating a girl and here I am kissing another boy. And mom, please don't say anything about this in front of Mikey. I don't want him to know that Kyle kissed me. Please, Mom. You have to promise me that you won't say a word in front of him."

"Don't worry honey. That will be our little secret. I know things are hard for you right now, Danielle, but give it some time and it will all sort itself out. Some things just take time to figure out and this is one of them. Feelings and emotions are a very big part of maturing and you're at the very beginning of that process. In time your true feelings will make themselves very clear about Kyle and boys in general. You have a lot to learn and a lot of growing up to do in the next few years but you really did take a giant step tonight. A first date and a first kiss are very big steps for any teenager, but they're even more special for a girl, especially a pretty girl like you. So don't worry about it. And I know enough about boys to know Kyle is a good one. I can tell right away."

"Thanks, Mom. I think he's a nice guy too. Mom, I'm really beat so if you don't mind I'm going to go up to bed now. I'm exhausted." I said as I realized how drained I really was. I imagine any first date is exhausting all by itself but going on a first date impersonating a girl is a lot more challenging. Trust me. I know.

"Good night honey. And Danielle?"

"Yes, mom."

Just remember, you're not actually impersonating a girl. All the feelings and emotions you experienced tonight were the same, as any other young girl would experience. You were as real as any other girl, sweetie. Pleasant dreams." With that, she gave me a warm hug and a very soft kiss on the cheek. "I love you, honey."

"I love you too, mom," I said emotionally as I turned and walked towards my bedroom.

Alone in my room, I sat down on my bed. Exhausted from the entire evening, I found myself sitting there with tears running down my cheek. I couldn't even explain exactly why I was crying but it felt so good to release all those pent up emotions raging through my body and mind. I wasn't sure if I was crying from nerves or fear or some other emotion. I was just so confused by all my mixed feelings. However, within a few minutes, the feelings passed and I stopped crying. I got up and changed out of my pretty outfit. After I removed my skirt, top, and bra, I stepped out of my panties. I momentarily cringed as I saw my very small organ hanging limply. Quickly I slipped on an old oversized tee shirt. I went into the bathroom, washed my face to remove the remnants of makeup, and then applied my nightly ritual of beauty creams and lotions to my face and body. I felt good about most of my looks by now as long as that one appendage was hidden from sight. My skin was flawless and my creams made all my skin silky and soft. My hair was much thicker now and the highlights and hair products I was using gave it a brilliant sheen with just a bit of natural curl to it. My legs were long and lean from both cheerleading and my dance regiment. I was toned but not muscular in a boyish way. Even standing there in my oversized tee shirt with no makeup on and my hair pulled back, I looked cute.

Later, as I lay in bed trying to fall asleep, I felt so confused by everything. However, the one thing I was sure about was that I knew deep down inside I enjoyed being with Kyle. I liked it when he had his arm around me in the movies. I felt so safe and secure in his grasp. And when he kissed me I felt so nice. I just wanted to stay here held closely in his embrace with our lips pressing together. It was a wonderful feeling and I knew I would be going out with Kyle again as soon as he asked me. I fell asleep hugging my teddy bear while dreaming about Kyle.