Bing Popular Bing Girl – Part 3

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The next day was pretty much like the first and Tiffany was getting anxious to go out with Jed. She liked him, he was funny, cute and very respectful and a man’s man.

Jed took Tiffany to dinner again only this time to a nicer restaurant. The evening was wonderful again and this time Jed took the initiative to give the good night kiss. He swept Tiffany into his arms and kissed her with much more lust than Tiffany did the night before. Tiffany liked that he took command and was responding to this kiss. Tiffany also noticed that Jed was becoming aroused by this interaction. She felt him becoming hard against her hip. Mmm, she thought I’m glad he likes me but she also didn’t want to go as far as she had with Mike, not just yet, she wanted him to have a good opinion of her. Jed broke the kiss and said goodnight and Tiffany entered her room, her hands were shaking, she was falling for this guy big time, it’s a good thing he lives far away from me or I would be in real trouble she thought. Tiffany undressed and went to bed and dreamed of Jed all night long. She dreamed they were married and had children. They were living on his ranch and he called to her to come to the barn. She went out the door and there was a large maze of alfalfa bales and try as she may she couldn’t find her way out. She saw a light and went to it and then she awoke and she was crying in her sleep because she knew she couldn’t bear children and didn’t know where the children in her dream came from. Tiffany dried her eyes and went back to sleep.

The last two days were like the first two, with Tiffany making many contacts with growers. She and Jed were inseparable in the evenings. The last night they wanted to be special so Jed brought Tiffany to the nicest restaurant in Fresno. She wore a pretty red dress that hugged her figure all the way to mid-thigh. The top was cut low enough to allow her cleavage to show and she looked hot. Jed dressed in a suit and Tiffany practically swooned when she saw him, he was so handsome. The dinner was special and the two lovers couldn’t keep from staring deeply into each other eyes knowing that this was their last night together. Jed and Tiffany finished dinner and Jed wanted to show Tiffany something special.

“Tiffany, I want to take you to a place that is special to me.”

“Where is that?”

“It’s a place on my ranch that I go to when I am stressed and need to relax.”

“If you promise not to kill me,” Tiffany giggled.

“Ah yes my dear, there is a full moon tonight and I feel my fangs growing as we speak,” Jed replied in his best Bella Lugosi accent.

The couple left the restaurant and drove east for about an hour. This was the first time Tiffany had really seen the Sierra Nevada mountain range and was in awe of the beauty if it.

“Jed I can’t believe how pretty those mountains are, and they are so high.”

“That is the tallest part of the range straight ahead, here we are.”

Jed turned off the highway onto a gravel road that led to a locked gate.

“Wait here while I unlock the gate.”

Jed opened the gate and drove his car through and then locked it shut. They proceeded about two miles through alfalfa fields until they entered an aspen grove. It was summer and the sun was just setting as Jed opened the car door for Tiffany.

“Here take my arm, it’s only a short distance to the spot. The ground is hard enough that you shouldn’t have trouble walking but hold my hand anyway.”

Tiffany did as requested and took Jed’s hand in hers and intertwined their fingers. The ground may have been hard but with four-inch heels, Tiffany was having anything but an easy time walking. They walked about one hundred yards until they entered a clearing next to a stream. The stream had been dammed by beavers, which created a large pond. There was a large log near the edge of the pond.

“Here Tiffany, let me put this blanket on the log so you don’t soil your dress, and then we can sit.”

Jed laid the blanket on the log and lifted Tiffany up and placed her on the log.

“Jed you’re so strong, you lifted me like I weighed nothing.”

“You are pretty light, so what do you think of my spot?”

“Oh Jed, it’s beautiful.”

“I’m glad you like it. Watch closely and you will be able to see the fish jump for insects,” just at that moment a large trout jumped out of the water and created a splash.

“Jed, did you see that?” Tiffany said excitedly.

“Of course I did, I see it all the time when I come up here, we might even see the beavers.”

Jed lifted himself up onto the log next to Tiffany and put his arm around her shoulder and pulled her tight to him. Tiffany laid her head on his shoulder and put both arms around his waist and the couple just sat and took in the silence. The beaver put in one appearance and then the sun disappeared creating a beautiful sunset. As the glow grew dimmer Jed lifted Tiffany’s lips to his and kissed her deeply. Tiffany took her arms from his waist and put them around his neck and kissed him back. They continued kissing and petting for hours until the air began to chill Tiffany. She quivered and broke the kiss.

“Jed darling, I’m catching a chill, I think we should go back to the car.”

“It does that when the sun goes down, let’s go.”

They returned to the car and Jed helped Tiffany into it. He loved watching her legs when he did. He went around to the other side and got in and was about to put the key in the ignition switch.

“Let’s not go yet,” said Tiffany. She was still hot from making out earlier and wanted to continue kissing Jed. She reached over to him and touched her lips to his and pulled him tight. Jed responded and when Tiffany parted her lips he pushed his tongue into her mouth. That’s more like it she thought. This went on for a while and Tiffany was losing control. She took Jed’s hand and placed it on her breast. Jed began to caress her softly and was becoming very aroused, as was Tiffany, her nipples growing hard with lust. She was almost going to grab Jed’s penis then stopped. She pushed Jed back and said, “Jed we shouldn’t be doing this, I want you so bad but if I were to give myself to you things would change between us. I’ve fallen in love with you but I’m afraid if we were to have sex then we will have given everything to each other and there would be nothing else to give, please understand.”

“Tiffany, you’re right. I brought you here tonight because it is a special place for me and I wanted to share it with you. Just being here is enough for me and you’re right, I would hate to spoil a special evening with you, I love you, Tiffany.”

The two embraced and held each other allowing their love to flow between themselves. Jed finally broke the embrace and drove Tiffany back to her hotel. They walked to Tiffany’s room and as Jed kissed Tiffany goodnight she began to feel her eyes tear.

Jed looked at Tiffany and asked, “What’s wrong?”

“I’m afraid I’ll never see you again after tonight.”

“Don’t be silly, Los Angeles is just an hour away.”

“Don’t you mean three hours with no traffic?”

“Did I forget to tell you about my twin-engine Cessna, silly me.”

“You have a plane?”

“Of course I have a plane, it’s the only way I can visit my leased land that I grow crops on. I lease property near Carson City, Nevada to grow alfalfa on and I grow rice north of Sacramento. I couldn’t possibly drive all those hours every week so I have a plane. Next weekend I’ll fly to Long Beach airport and we can spend the evening together if you would like.”

Tiffany pulled Jed to her lips and gave him the biggest kiss of the night.

“Does that answer your question?”

“I guess it does.”

Tiffany went into her room and packed to return home the next morning. She couldn’t wait to tell Betty about Jed.

It was Saturday morning and Tiffany drove the three hours back to Long Beach and had a hard time concentrating on her driving, all she could think about was Jed. Sure she thought about work a little but Jed always interrupted those thoughts, she was sure she was in love. Tiffany had just gotten onto the 405 when traffic stopped. A large truck had rolled over and she was stuck in traffic. I can’t stand it; I have to call Betty. She dialed her cell phone and waited for Betty to answer.

“Hello.”

“Betty, oh God,” Tiffany said excitedly, “You won’t believe what happened, I met a guy and well, were in love.”

“Tiffany, well hello to you too, okay so tell me what happened?”

“I was at a conference in Fresno and met this guy and we went out and he took me to this special place and that was it, I fell in love with him, oh God Betty, he’s so cute and such a hunk.”

“You didn’t have sex with him did you?”

“Of course not, it’s not like that, we really love each other.”

“You’ve only known him for three days and you think you’re in love?”

“I know I’m in love, he’s so special.”

“Does he know how special you are?”

“What do you mean by that?”

“You know what I mean, does he know you’re a man?”

“No and I don’t think he would care, we love each other.”

“You don’t think he would care if he loves you like you say he does I’m sure he will want to get married someday and have children and to have children the normal way he will have to have sex with you and you can’t have sex like that right now, so how do you think he might react?”

“I don’t know, I didn’t think about that, I just know I love him and want to be with him.”

“I’m happy for you Tiffany but you had better think this thing through before you get too much more involved with this guy, what’s his name?”

“Jed.”

“Do you plan on seeing him again?”

“Yes next weekend, he wants to take me to dinner.”

“He must be serious about you to drive all the way from Fresno just to have dinner.”

“Oh, I forgot to tell you, he has a plane and he’s flying down to see me.”

“A plane, you lucky girl, you found a guy with money, now I’m jealous.”

“You’re such a tease Betty, you have a wonderful guy already, oops I have to go, the traffic is moving, I’ll call you when I get home.”

Tiffany wanted to be careful when she drove because if she were to get in an accident there would be hell to pay when she would have to present her driver’s license and it still said Jason Randall on it. I had better start changing some things she thought, not only my license but my sex too or I’m going to be in real trouble.

Tiffany’s week started well and she was able to make some deals shipping produce overseas. She also found a buyer for Jed’s alfalfa in Japan and was able to buy it for top dollar, ship it and still make a sizable profit. The settlement check came from Quantum and now she could afford her surgery. She went to her appointment with Dr. Short and brought up the question as to whether or not she should not have her surgery.

“Dr. Short, I’ve been living as a woman for some time now and I think I want to take the next step, I’m ready.”

“You think you’re ready or you know you’re ready?”

“Does anyone ever really know?”

“I’m afraid they do, if you really know, you would do anything to change your sex.”

“But I want to be a woman now more than anything.”

“Why now, is it a way to be more popular?”

“That has nothing to do with it anymore, it just seems to be the right time.”

“There’s more to it than that isn’t there, you’ve met a man and you want to take it to another level and can’t until you’re a woman, am I correct?”

“Yes.”

“Tiffany that is not a good reason to want to change your sex. Before I can recommend surgery for you I want you to come in here and tell me why you have to become a woman for reasons other than, “I met a man.” I sympathize with you, but I won’t make recommendations based on that, you will have to want to be a woman more than anything you could wish, I bet you haven’t even told your parents about Tiffany. You go tell them and listen to what they have to say about what you are doing and then if being Tiffany is that important to you I might recommend the surgery because then you will be able to tell me why you want to be a woman.”

Dr. Short had never been so direct with Tiffany. He had always been encouraging and understanding to her wishes, why wouldn’t he help her now, a tear fell from her eye.

“I don’t understand Doctor, you’ve always been so supportive of my wishes.”

“I am being supportive Tiffany if I didn’t care about you I would let you have the surgery tomorrow but that is a big step and I want you to be sure that’s exactly what you want. Becoming a woman isn’t because you want to be more popular or to please a man; it’s more than that. There’s something I want you to do for me before our next session that I hope will help you make the right decision. I want you to imagine that you were born without being a man or a woman, you are only you. You’ve become an adult and you have to decide what you want to do with your life, do you want to protect the people around you or do you want to nurture them. You can do either as a man or a woman but think about how you would do it and tell me what you would do next week.”

“Yes, Doctor”

Tiffany left the doctor’s office and was more confused than ever. What did he mean did I want to protect or nurture and how am I going to tell my mother that I’m a woman now, or almost one. Tiffany was shattered, I have to be a woman or Jed will leave me, what am I going to do? All Tiffany could think about was Jed and not whether she should become a woman, it would take several more days for that to happen.

Tiffany was just finishing the paperwork for a problem she was having with customs on a shipment from China when her phone rang.

“Tiffany Randall.”

“Hello Tiffany, before you slam the phone down please hear me out, this is Tom Larsen.”

Tiffany’s heart dropped, “What do you want Tom?”

“I have an offer to make to you that you would be a fool to pass up. Quantum wants you back. Our share of the L.A. market has plummeted since you left and we finally came to our senses. Here’s what we can offer, a salary of three hundred thousand a year, any kind of car you want, a house on the beach at Malibu, and eleven percent of all Quantum shares. You will be on the board of directors and will have a say in all business decisions, what do you say?”

“Tom, I’m flattered, I didn’t think Quantum would want a woman on their board of directors, it’s always been such an old boys network.”

“We want you back but there is one thing, we want you back as Jason.”

“You want me back as Jason, but I’m not Jason anymore, I’m Tiffany.”

“But you could be Jason again, just think of the money and power you will have and you can keep the settlement we gave you.”

“So, I can have all that if I give up Tiffany and become Jason again, wow Tom that’s an easy decision to make, I give up being a woman and I become one of the most powerful men at Quantum, Tom, I can’t believe my good fortune, I’ve been wrestling with a decision all week and you just made it for me.”

“Then you’ll take the job?”

“No Tom, I won’t, and I’m sorry for not sounding too ladylike but you can take your offer and shove it up to your ass. I can’t believe you would have the nerve to even call me after what you did to me. You tried to ruin my life and now you want me back, well fuck you very much, I’m a woman now Tom, and if you think I would work for a sexist company like Quantum you’ve got another thing coming, good by Tom.”

Tiffany put the phone down and started to laugh hysterically, that bastard thought I would jump for him, not anymore, I’m a woman and I’m proud. Tiffany suddenly came to the realization that she wanted to be a woman, not maybe but for certain. Now she knew why Dr. Short did what he did, he wanted to be sure Tiffany wanted to be a woman. She did want to protect others but as a woman. If she had caved into the offer and become a man, the money would have been more important than his self-esteem. Sure he would be protecting others by being powerful on the job but what about when he was away from work, all he would be is a man with money, but as Tiffany, she was protecting others by being strong-willed and she knew that was the important thing, be true to yourself. Jason couldn’t nurture anyone if he was to take that job, but Tiffany could because she knew that people liked her as a person and she knew what was important to her and how people felt about her when she interacted with them. If she was to take the job as Jason he would be respected for his power as a figurehead and not as a caring person. She was so excited she had to call Dr. Short with her decision.

“Dr. Short, I figured it out, you were right, I wanted surgery for the wrong reasons, thank you for making me look at myself.”

“So why do you think you want to become a woman now?”

“Because I was given the opportunity to become a man again and I turned it down.”

“Why did you turn it down.”

“Because I realized that I had become Tiffany down to my heart and soul. The company I used to work for made me an offer only a fool would have given up but part of that offer was that I was to become Jason again. It took me about three seconds to realize that I would have to change my sex to have that job. I’m a woman now and there is no way I would give that up for any reason.”

“Now that’s the kind of answer I was looking for. I’m going to recommend that you go for corrective surgery to repair the wrong bits you were born with, congratulations Tiffany.”

Tiffany had one last chore before surgery and that was her mother and father. Tiffany was so excited about her doctor’s decision she just knew her mother and father would be too. She decided to wait until she got home to call because she knew her mom and dad would be excited for her and she didn’t want everyone hearing her squeal with delight.

“Hello, Mona speaking.”

“Mom, hi, it’s Tiff, err, I mean Jason.”

“Jason, hi you’re calling early this week, is everything alright?”

“Oh yes mom, I have exciting news and I know you will be happy for me.”

“Oh, and what news is that? Don’t tell me you finally found a girl and you want to get married,” Mona said excitedly.

“Did I hear you, Jason’s getting married?” asked Jason’s father.

“No mom, I’m not getting married and yes I’ve found a girl.”

“What’s her name?”

“Tiffany, and mom, there’s something I have to tell you about her.”

“What, she only has one leg,”  Mona giggled.

“No mom and it’s not funny, Tiffany is me.”

There was a sudden silence, Tiffany could hear her mother breathing on the other end of the phone, and then she cleared her throat before she spoke.

“I’m sorry Jason, I must have misunderstood you. You said you met a girl named Tiffany?”

“No mom, I said I found a girl named Tiffany. She was hidden from me and I found her and I have become her.”

“Are you telling me that you’ve become a girl?”

“Yes mom, aren’t you excited for me?”

“No, tell me it’s not true, what have you done?” she wailed.

“Mom, I’ve become a girl, is that so wrong?”

“Is that so wrong?” she shrieked, “Yes it is, God made you a boy and now you tell me you’re a girl? What about your thing did you cut it off?”

Tiffany didn’t like the way this was going, how could she be so naive as to think her mother would have been excited about this little revelation, hell she was worried that Jason would fall for one of those beach hussies with the large breasts and now he was telling her that he was one of them, well duh, maybe she did get a small dose of bimbo juice after all.

“Mom, I thought you would be happy for me.”

“Happy for you, happy for you, you stupid shit, what am I going to tell your father and the family, God this is so wrong.”

Tiffany had never heard her mother swear before and knew she was in trouble for what she had just told her. Tiffany had to gather her thoughts.

“Mother, it’s not wrong, would you feel this way if I had been born a girl?”

“Don’t get smart with me young man, of course, I wouldn’t because you would have already been a girl. If you told me that you had wanted to be a man I would be just as upset. Why did you do this to yourself?”

Tiffany could tell her mother was starting to cry. How could she tell her mom that she did it to be popular, God how stupid could she be?

“Did Jason say he was seeing a girl?” asked his father.

“Shut up Merv, Jason said he is a girl, not seeing one,” snapped his mother.

“Jason’s a girl? What the hell is going on?”

“I’m trying to find out now be quiet.”

“Mom, it’s just something that happened slowly, when I was Jason I had no life but when I became Tiffany I was happy and she slowly took over my life until there was no more Jason. Jason hasn’t been here for almost a year.”

“Why didn’t you say something sooner, we talk every week and you couldn’t say something about this thing, God I’m going to be sick.”

“I wanted to be sure this is what I wanted.”

“Jason, I have to hang up now, I can’t talk, I’m so upset right now. Your father and I have to discuss this and I’ll call you back but for now please don’t phone us until I talk to your father.”

Mona hung up the phone before Tiffany had a chance to tell her she loved her. She had always ended their conversations that way and now she felt empty inside. What have I done she wondered. Tiffany dissolved into tears, now I know what Dr. Short meant that I would be losing my popularity with the ones that mean the most to me. Tiffany fell into a fitful sleep. Tiffany dreamed of all kinds of bad dreams, the worse being the one where she was a girl and she was visiting her parents. She was having a conversation with her mother when her mother reached into her purse and removed a penis and told her to go put it on.

“I can’t, I’m a girl,” said Tiffany.

“Yes you can, here is some glue,” replied her mother handing her the penis and a container of household glue.

“No mother, I’m a girl and I don’t want that thing.”

“Your father and I want a boy, now go put it on.”

Tiffany did as told and attached the penis and cried, “I don’t want to be a boy.”

Tiffany awoke to shiver with fear, tears streaming down her cheeks, why oh why does this have to be so hard she asked herself.

The next day was a hard one for Tiffany. All she could think of was her mother and how she had disappointed her and tried to think of a way to make the situation better. Perhaps if she were to talk to Dr. Short he might have some ideas.

“Dr. Short, please.”

“Who may I say is calling?”

“Tiffany Randall.”

“Hello, Tiffany, how’s everything?”

“Terrible, I called my mother last night and I thought she would be excited for me but just the opposite was true, she practically disowned me.”

“What made you think she would be excited for you?”

“She has been so supportive of everything I have done. I call her once a week and tell her what I’m doing and she was always excited about everything, until last night. When I talked to her it was as though I had stabbed her in the chest with a knife.”

“Had you been hinting that you might want to change sex.”

“No.”

“And you expected her to jump up and down with joy because she had just lost a son and had him replaced with a daughter?”

“I, I didn’t think.”

“Tiffany, there have been many things you haven’t thought about during this transition. The only real clear thought you have had was when you realized that you were a woman yesterday and I was happy you came to that conclusion. Now you have to explain that to your mother, you have to tell her that you came to the realization that Tiffany was trapped inside Jason’s body and that you have freed her. Tell her that you were a woman all along but didn’t know that until you became Tiffany. Be kind but be firm and explain that there is no way that Jason can come back and that you want her to accept Tiffany as her daughter but if she can’t accept that then it will be her loss.”

“Doctor, this is so hard.”

“Yes it is, I warned you of that fact and you listened but I don’t think you knew how hard it would be for you. Just imagine how hard it is for girls that don’t even have a job and have to go through what you are but without any support at all, it can be a living hell.”

“I still don’t understand why my parents can’t be more supportive of my wishes.”

“Look at it from their perspective, they raised you by what you were born with between your legs. Everything they taught you was based on you being a boy. They spent twenty years teaching and loving you and hoping you would become the best man possible. Now you telling them that they wasted all that time and that they were wrong raising you that way, of course, they’re upset but with some time they can come around to love Tiffany, it’s just too early yet.”

“But I’m the same person inside,” Tiffany said tearfully.

“No Tiffany you aren’t, you were a boy before and now you are a lovely young woman and I think that is a shock for your parents. Your mother knows that if you are a girl you’re not the same boy inside that left they’re home in Iowa, that boy is gone and has been replaced by someone she doesn’t know, she’s as afraid of this change as you are.”

“But will they learn to accept me?”

“I can only hope so. Many families never come to accept a person like you and others embrace the change with loving arms, which one yours will be, well only time will tell.”

“I love my parents so much, I hope they come to love me as Tiffany but if they can’t then it’s a cross they must bear because being Tiffany is what is most important to me.”

“Tiffany, I think they will come around but it will take time, don’t push yourself on them, be patient but eventually they will come to love you.”

“Thank you, Doctor”

Tiffany hung up the phone and tried to reflect on what a week it had been. There had been the highs of telling Tom Larsen to shove it and coming to the realization that she was in fact a woman but with a few wrong parts and the low of her parent's reaction of finding out about Tiffany, what else could happen she wondered, just at that moment the phone rang.

“Tiffany Randall.”

“Wow, you sound so official and business-like,” said the voice, “This is Jed and I was wondering if we were still on for dinner tomorrow night?”

“You bet, I can’t wait to see you, what time are you flying in so I can pick you up.”

“I have to meet a client in Santa Barbara at noon and should be finished by 4 so I should arrive at Long Beach around 6:30.”

“I’ll see you then, kiss, kiss.”

Ahh, another high thought Tiffany, Jed is taking me to dinner tomorrow night, I’ve got to get my hair and nails done, I’ll call Betty to shop for a new dress.

“Betty, this is Tiffany, Jed is taking me to dinner tomorrow and I need a new dress, want to go shopping?”

“Spoken like a true female, of course, I want to go, is after work okay?”

“I’ll pick you up at home around 7.”

“Okay see you then.”

Tiffany picks up Betty and then it was off to the mall. The two girls caught up on the week’s happenings. Tiffany told Betty of how she blew off Tom Larsen and that she had decided on having her surgery. She also told her about her parent’s reaction to Tiffany and had to stop the car because it is too hard to drive while crying. Betty comforted her until she gained her composure.

“Tiffany, it is your parents' loss if they can’t accept you. You’re a wonderful girl and friend and if they can’t understand that then that’s just too bad. You have friends that love you and accept you here so don’t let it get you down.”

“I know Betty, it’s just so hard sometimes.”

“Oh, oh, I’ve got to tell you, after you turned down Ton Larsen the office manager came out and boy was he pissed, he wanted to move back east and now he’s stuck out here, girlfriend if you had been there I think he would have killed you,” giggled Betty.

The two friends reached the mall and started the search for the perfect dress. Tiffany found it at Macy’s, it was green satin, low cut in front, and had little straps that crossed the back and the hem ended mid-thigh. Tiffany found a pair of green pumps with four-inch heels to go with the dress. Just wait until Jed sees me in this she thought.

The next day Tiffany was at the salon to have her hair and nails done. Her hair had grown enough so she now was able to select different styles instead of that cute little cut one, one must wear when one has short hair. Tiffany explained that she had a hot date and wanted to look extra special. When she was done her hair had been highlighted, she had been waxed, legs and brows had a manicure and pedicure, and made up. When she walked from the salon she felt good once again, she felt special and looked special, she looked all woman,

Tiffany arrived at the home and dressed to pickup Jed. She drove to the airport and arrived five minutes before he did, she looked hot. Jed arrived and was struck with awe Tiffany looked so nice.

“Wow,” was all he could say.

“Do I look alright, this dress doesn’t make me look fat does it?”

“Tiffany, if you looked any better you would create a plane crash because the pilots wouldn’t be able to concentrate on landing their planes, and no that dress doesn’t make you look fat silly girl.”

“Thank you, sir.”

“I have to change into something more suitable for escorting a beautiful woman like you to dinner so I will be right back, don’t run off.”

Tiffany found a bench to sit on and crossed her legs seductively. While sitting her dress moved up her legs covering the barest amount of them. Tiffany had very nice legs and she was creating a commotion just sitting. Jed returned and had to say something.

“Tiffany, the next time you pick me up, you had better wear something more casual because the guys around here aren’t ready for a girl as pretty as you meeting me, come on let’s go before someone steals you away from me,” laughed Jed. The couple left and went to a restaurant for dinner. They entered and were seated by the host.

“Would you like a drink?” asked Jed.

“Yes, I’d like a glass of white wine.”

The waiter came to the table and asked if they would like a drink.

“Yes I would like a Manhattan over and the lady would like a glass of Chardonnay.”

“May I see your I.D., miss?” asked the waiter.

Oh my God, thought Tiffany, the only I.D. I have is for Jason and it’s in my purse. If I show it Jed will know I’m a man, shit what am I going to do.

“I’m sorry I left it at home,” answered Tiffany.

“I won’t be able to serve you any alcoholic beverages then, sorry miss. Would you like anything else instead?”

“I’ll have an iced tea.”

The waiter left and returned with their drinks. Tiffany was worried the whole evening after that thinking of what might happen again if she had to show her I.D. card. Jed picked up on Tiffany’s nervousness.

“What’s wrong Tiffany, you seem distracted tonight?”

“Oh, it’s nothing.”

“You can tell me, that’s what I’m here for.”

“I’ve never been carded before and when that waiter asked me for my I.D. and I didn’t have it with me, well I’m usually not like that, I don’t usually forget to bring important things with me especially my driver's license.”

“Don’t let it ruin our evening, let’s just enjoy each other’s company.”

“Jed, you’re so sweet, you really know how to make a girl feel better.”

The couple did enjoy the rest of the evening until Tiffany brought Jed back to the airport for his flight home.

“Jed, I’m going to miss you.”

“I feel the same way,” answered Jed.

“I wish you lived closer so we could be together more,” said Tiffany.

“I wish we were together more too but for now we will have to have a long-distance romance. Just being able to talk to you on the phone makes me feel good and this way we will be able to get to know each other better before we make a commitment.”

“Your right Jed, it’s just that you make me feel funny all over when I’m with you.”

“Trust me, Tiffany, you have no idea what you do to me when we are together, you affect me like no other woman has.”

“Oh Jed, really?”

“Yes, really.”

That was all Jed needed and he reached down and gave Tiffany the most passionate kiss he could. Tiffany responded and opened her mouth and took Jed’s tongue deep into her mouth. She pulled him tight to her body and felt him becoming erect against her pelvis. She wanted to take it in her hand and worship it but knew she couldn’t. Her nipples were becoming erect against his chest and the harder they became the more sensitive they were. She was in a situation she had no control of and was in trouble. Jed knew he could seduce this girl but because of his feelings for her, he didn’t want to risk losing her to a moment of passion. He had seduced his last girlfriend like this and lost her after they realized all they had was lust and this time he wanted something different, he wanted a soul mate.

“Tiffany, we had better stop before this gets out of hand,” Jed said as he broke the kiss.

“Oh honey please let’s not stop,” whined Tiffany as she reached up and kissed him again.

Jed kissed her back trying to control himself. Tiffany reached down and pulled Jed’s hand to her breast. Jed began to caress her softly and was becoming inflamed with passion. Now he wanted her as much as she wanted him. He pulled her hand to his erection and placed it on it. Tiffany felt a sense of relief when she touched it, it was as though it was a sealing of her femininity and that she was all woman. Tiffany wanted Jed to bed her, to tear her clothes from her body, to take her and fuck her deeply, to push his cock into her wet wanting pussy to tell her he loved her as she moaned with each thrust of his, of his, of, of, of this thing I have in my hand that I’m pushing against my own penis, oh my God what am I doing thought Tiffany. Tiffany let go of Jed’s penis and pushed him back enough for him to stop rubbing her breast.

“Jed,” she panted, still quivering with excitement, “I can’t do this right now, I want you so badly but if we do this thing it will ruin it for us, I’m sorry.”

Tiffany knew she couldn’t go any farther lest Jed discovers her secret.

“You’re right sweetheart, I couldn’t help myself, you just excite me so.”

“I have to go home, will you call me?”

“Every five minutes.”

“I, I, I love you.”

“Tiffany, that’s the most wonderful thing you could have said to me, I love you too.”

The couple kissed once again and just held each other not wanting this most precious of moments to escape before Jed departed for his plane.

Tiffany returned home and disrobed. She walked to the mirror and looked at herself. Her hair was growing nicely and her face had become soft-looking from the hormones. Her skin was smooth and had that certain look a woman’s skin has that differs from a man’s. Her breasts were what men wanted on a woman, well-shaped and large enough to excite and yet not so large as to be freakish. Her waist tapered down to her nicely rounded hips and then connected to her shapely legs and ended at her painted toenails. I’m a nice-looking woman she thought but then it was as though she was slapped in the face, I’m disfigured, my clitoris is too big and I have no vagina, I’m a freak. She took her penis in her hand and held it, it felt soft and smooth. She then held her scrotum and did the same, it was then she realized it felt disgusting to hold these things attached to her body, she wanted them gone. Tiffany still wasn’t the woman she wanted to be, she was still a man and she hated it. No longer did she care about being popular, there was a different longing now, it was a longing to be with her man, to care for him, to nurture him, to make love with him, and to care for his children, his children, God how am I going to do that she wondered.

Tiffany went to bed and tried to sleep. There were too many things happening to her right now to sleep soundly, life is such a mess she thought.

Tiffany started to dream as she slept. She dreamed that she was with Jed and they were making love. She felt so fulfilled as he entered her making her a real woman. She became pregnant and gave birth to twins, one boy, and one girl. She loved her children but as they grew they became her mother and father. They kept saying “You can’t have children you freak,” and she would say, “I gave birth to you and I love you,” and they would reply, “No you didn’t, you’re were man and now you can’t even make a girl pregnant.” “But you’re my children.” “Get away freak.” Tiffany awoke, tears streaming down her face and she was shaking violently, how could I have been so stupid she wondered. As she calmed down she thought more about her plight. Why did I want to be popular she thought, to the point of changing myself. Was it so important to be wanted? And wanted by whom, losers, someone who could care less if I’m alive or dead. I finally met someone that cared for me but only after it was too late and I had ruined my body with hormones and now I’ve met someone who loves me as I do him and I can’t have him because I’m not complete. The only good thing to come out of this is that I discovered Tiffany and even she isn’t complete. My mother and father hate me now, why don’t they understand, why don’t they love Tiffany as much as I do? Jason is gone and good riddance, I hated him, and I hated everything about him, especially his features, his damn delicate features, why couldn’t he have been a man’s man, why did he have to be born? Tiffany was in hysterics now, slamming her fists against her pillow, tears streaming from her eyes, better to be dead she thought, no reason to live, I can’t tell my boyfriend the truth, my parents will never speak to me again, God what’s the use. Tiffany was startled by the phone ringing next to her.

“Shit, who in the hell has the nerve to call this time of night,” she thought, “Probably some drunk.”

“Hello,” she whispered, her voice ruined by her hysterics.

“Tiffany honey, what’s wrong?”

“Jed?”

“Yes, I just wanted to call and let you know I made it home alright and tell you that I love you and I miss you.”

That was all it took, Tiffany dissolved into a mass of tears. She couldn’t speak, how could she be so lucky as to find a man like this, so thoughtful, so kind, so loving and so trusting.

Jed spoke again, “Honey what’s wrong?”

“Oh Jed, I love you so, please understand, I can’t talk right now, may I call you tomorrow?”

“Please do, I’m going to be worried about you all night, goodnight, I love you.”

“I love you too.”

Tiffany hung the phone and wondered what the hell she was thinking. Was she really thinking about suicide or was she just depressed and how could she be depressed with someone like Jed. God, I’m such a mess, she thought. Tiffany fell back into asleep but couldn’t stop the dreams, each one worse than the other. When she awoke the next morning she was wasted. I have to talk with Dr. Short about what is happening to me or I will kill myself.

The next week Tiffany was in Dr. Short’s office.

“Doctor, I’m at wit's end. My parents hate me and I can’t tell my boyfriend about me, what am I going to do. I actually entertained thoughts of killing myself the other night.”

“Why would you want to kill yourself?”

“So all this would be over.”

“Why would you want it over, you’ve become a very nice young woman.”

“But I’m not a woman, I’m still a man on the outside.”

“Not really, you may still have your man bits but your every bit a woman. How do you feel inside?”

“Like a pretty girl when I’m not depressed.”

“How do you feel when you’re depressed?”

“Like I shouldn’t have been born.”

“Do you mean you shouldn’t have been born at all or you shouldn’t have been born as a man?”

“I don’t know, I really haven’t given it much thought that way, it was either being born or not, not whether I should have been a boy or girl, but if I were given a choice, I would have been born a girl, I feel so complete like this.”

“Then maybe you should give some thought to completing your journey and having surgery to make you whole, now tell me more about your boyfriend.”

“He’s the most wonderful person I’ve ever met. I’m afraid if I tell him about myself he will hate me.”

“He might hate you, this is true but he might accept you too. There are two paths that you can take. One way is to be upfront with him and if he accepts you for who you are, you will have a love that nothing will be able to destroy. The other is to say nothing, have surgery, and hope he never finds out that you were once a man. I wouldn’t recommend that because some men go crazy when they find things like that about their wives and have been known to kill them. What I would do is have the surgery, tell him the truth after it is done and then if he accepts you as the woman you will have become then you will know he loves you but if he doesn’t, move on, you will find someone else.”

“What about my parents?”

“Give them time, all they remember is Jason and they still have a problem losing their boy and after they get to know Tiffany they might love her as much as Jason.”

“Thank you, Doctor”

Tiffany departed and tried to come to some conclusion as to what she should do. Should she tell Jed before or after her surgery, or should she tell him at all? She was thinking, maybe I can tell Jed that I had an accident when I was young and can’t have children, we could adopt and then he would never know. What if someone slipped and said I was once a man, what if my parents say something just to get back at me. What if a car hits me and Jed finds out at the hospital that I have a penis. What if a satellite falls from the sky and knocks me unconscious or I fall over a waterfall and my clothes are ripped off, God Tiffany get a grip you’re really losing it.

The weeks passed and Tiffany finally scheduled her surgery. It was to take place in two months' time. This would give her enough time to get her work in order when she would be off recuperating. There were other tasks for her to complete beforehand like her identification had to be changed from male to female and then there was Jed, what to do? Tiffany kept thinking of what she could tell him about herself and still have him love her. They had been talking to each other every night for weeks and had an occasional date when Jed had free time to fly into Long Beach. The bond between them had grown to the point that Jed was ready to ask Tiffany to marry him but he wanted to know how she felt about being a wife and a mother to his children before he popped the question.

Jed and Tiffany were out to see a play and when it was finished they stopped at a club to have a drink and catch up on their week.

“How is your job going, getting settled in?” asked Jed.

“It’s really wonderful, the people are so nice there.”

“Having a job you like is so important, are you going to keep working if you get married someday?”

“Gosh I really haven’t given that much thought, I guess I would, why do you ask?”

“Oh I don’t know, I guess it’s just that we have been seeing each other for a while and we have feelings that might one day progress to marriage and it’s important to know what the other person will want to do after they make that kind of commitment.”

“I’ve never even thought about it since I was spending all my time on my career. How would you feel about a working wife?”

“I wouldn’t have a problem with her working until we had children but I’m kind of old fashion that way and would expect her to stay home and raise them, is that asking too much?”

“No your not, how many children do you want to have?”

“Well like they say, they’re cheaper by the dozen, just kidding, but realistically maybe three or four, what about you how do you feel about kids?”

“That’s a nice number but it also brings us to another subject and that’s where they will come from.”

“They would come from my wife, where else?”

“I don’t know, I guess we should have had this conversation a long time ago. There is something you should know about me and I hope it won’t be too much of a disappointment, I can’t have children other than by adoption.”

“What do you mean, why not?”

“Because I had an accident when I was a child and it made it impossible for me to have children.”

“Can’t you have that artificial insemination thing?”

“No, I have no uterus.”

“God this puts a different light on everything, having kids is the one big thing in my life and I don’t know if I could give that up.”

“What’s wrong with adoption?” asked Tiffany, now she was becoming afraid of what he might say and for good reason because he was going to say what she feared.

“There’s nothing wrong with adoption, it’s just that I want my own kids made with my sperm and my wife’s egg. I love children but I want my own and not someone else’s.”

“Don’t you think you could come to love them?”

“Of course I would but before that happened I would want to try to have my own children.”

Tiffany could feel the tears forming in her eyes as she asked, “Then where does that leave us?”

“I don’t know sweetheart, I love you dearly, and to be honest, I wanted to ask you to marry me but I want to have kids with my wife and I don’t know right now, maybe we had better go, I have a lot of thinking to do.”

The couple left and Tiffany drove Jed back to his plane.

“I’ll call you,” he said as he kissed her good-bye.

Tiffany knew what he was going to say when he did. Maybe she wasn’t born a woman but she had gained a woman’s intuition and the kiss he gave her confirmed what she already knew, it was over. The kiss was cold and without feeling, he might as well have not have kissed her at all. She returned to her car and felt the dam break, the tears flowed. She couldn’t drive just yet as she couldn’t even see. Jed’s plane taxied the runway and then took off leaving Tiffany alone.

The week past and there was no call from Jed. Tiffany knew it would be a while before he would call but a week, come on, be a man and tell me that I don’t fit in your life and be done with it but don’t keep me hanging, was all Tiffany could think about.

The second seeks past much like the first and then on Sunday night the phone rang.

“Hello.”

“Tiffany?” It was a woman talking in a strained voice.

“Yes,”

“Tiffany,” there was a pause, “It’s your mother. I can’t go on like this, your father and I have talked for some time now and we have decided that it would do no good to reject you without even knowing you. We want to try to welcome you into our hearts much the same as Jason was.”

“Mother?”

“Yes sweetheart, it’s me.”

“Mom, I can’t believe it, I’ve missed you so much, how’s dad?”

“He’s fine, we're both fine, and what about you?”

“I’m fine mom, you know just some things I’m trying to sort out.”

“What things?”

“Nothing of importance,” Tiffany said, realizing that Jed was never going to call her again and wasn’t the man she thought he was because if he was he would have called and told her it was over. It was as though a weight was lifted from her back. She no longer had to lie to anyone about her past and after her surgery, she would be a woman and not have to worry again about her past. She would be straight forward about herself and “damn the torpedoes,” if her next boyfriend couldn’t accept her then too bad. Jed couldn’t accept her for not being able to bear children, then what would he have done if he had found out about her past, no more deceptions, Tiffany had finally found herself.

“Tiffany, you have to send us a photo of yourself.”

“I will mom, I hope you like me.”

“Honey, we already like you, I just want to see my daughter.”

“Your daughter?”

“Yes, honey, my daughter.”

“Oh, mom,” Tiffany replied, as her eyes filled with tears of happiness, “I have to go now, I love you.”

“I love you too.”

Tiffany called Dr. Short the next day and told him that she no longer needed him and that she was going to be okay. He could tell by her voice that she would be a woman he could be proud of.

It was a week before Tiffany was to have her surgery when Betty called.

“Tiffany are you ready for your big day?”

“I can’t wait, are you still coming with me?”

“Of course I am, I wouldn’t miss the birth of the girl I started years ago.”

“I’m glad, you’ve been such a good friend.”

“Tiffany I have one favor to ask of you though, Ron is going to a costume party and I can’t go because I’m too short so he asked me if you would go with him?”

“Why can’t you go, I’m only four or five inches taller than you.”

“He wants to go as Batman and Robin and we couldn’t find a costume small enough for me.”

“You want me to go as a boy?”

“Yes.”

“Good God no, isn’t that how all this started except with me being Zena, I swear Betty you get me in more trouble with these costumes. I’m a woman now and how am I supposed to hide my breasts?”

“Tiffany,” Betty started to laugh hysterically, “It’s April first, you know, April fools day, I’m just joking with you, I would never ask you to wear a costume after what happened last time.”

“I’m going to get you for this,” laughed Tiffany.

The girls made their plans for the trip east and the hung up the phone.

The next week found them at the hospital for Tiffany’s surgery.

“Are you afraid?” asked Betty.

“No, maybe a little because of the pain but not the of surgery it is self. I want to be a complete woman and after it’s done I will be.”

The anesthesiologist came to put Tiffany under.

“Betty, hold my hand please.”

Betty took her friend's hand and held it as the needle was pushed into her arm. Tiffany counted backward from one hundred, ninety-nine, ninety-eight, ninety-seven.

Tiffany awoke and her mouth was dry, yuck! She thought, my mouth tastes terrible. She tried to talk but nothing came out except a little groan. Betty saw her friend was awake and called the nurse.

“Well sleepy head, how do you feel?” asked the nurse.

“My mouth is dry, may I have some water?” she whispered.

“Not just yet, you can have a little chip of ice but that’s all until the doctor examines you. Do you feel any pain?”

“No, I just feel numb.”

“If you do let me know and I will increase your medication.”

The nurse left and Tiffany fell back to sleep. She slept for the rest of the day and night. The next morning she awoke with the pain in her groin. Ouch, she though it feels like I was just kicked in the balls, and then she remembered that she didn’t have them anymore. She rang for the nurse who increased her medication to counter the pain. Tiffany was awake now and wondered where Betty was. Betty was asleep in her hotel room as she had been up all night watching Tiffany be sure she was safe.

Betty returned that afternoon and the nurse showed her how to change Tiffany’s dressings. This went on for several days until Betty had to return home, she had been there for almost a week. Tiffany was going to be here for another week and would be returning home alone.

The big day arrived for the doctor to remove Tiffany’s packing, which meant she would have to start dilating herself. Tiffany placed her feet in the stirrups on the table and the doctor removed the packing from within her. Tiffany, thought she would throw up when the odor reached her nose.

“Ugh, that smells,” she said.

“It’s from the blood, now let me look at you. My, my, I must say we’ve done a very nice job here, you’re healing nicely and you look like a real woman, only a little swollen. Before you leave the hospital I will let you see it but I don’t want to scare you just now because you are still swollen down there. During this next week, you will have to learn how to dilate yourself and I want you walking to regain your strength.”

“Thank you, doctor,” Tiffany said as she removed her feet from the stirrups.

That afternoon the nurse came to show Tiffany how to use the device to dilate herself.

“Tiffany, you take this and put a lot of lubricant on it and then insert it like this. Be very careful so as not to injure yourself.”

The nurse slowly inserted the device into Tiffany. When she did Tiffany gasped, this thing was entering her and going quite deep. This wasn’t what Tiffany had expected, she thought it would be pleasurable but it wasn’t, it hurt.

“Ouch, that hurts.”

“It will until you’re healed and then to be honest it’s going to be a pain in the ass but you must do this every day or you will close up and you will have wasted a lot of money having this done. Some of the girls have told me though that it becomes pleasurable after a while and they actually look forward to doing this.”

“Well I wish it would hurry and heal then because this just plain sucks right now,” giggled Tiffany.

The nurse finished and left Tiffany to rest, her walks could wait until later.

The week past and Tiffany was now able to dilate with little trouble. The doctor discharged her but not before showing her the results of the operation.

“Well Tiffany, what do you think?” the doctor asked as he held a mirror for Tiffany.

“Doctor, it’s, it’s beautiful.”

“Yes it is, now I want you to take good care of it, keep it clean and be careful when you have sex, I don’t want you to return to me because you were careless.”

“I’ll be careful, thank you again.”

Tiffany left the hospital and registered at a hotel for a few days until it was time to travel home. She was beginning to feel better and decided to do some shopping. She walked to the shopping district and bought a few items and returned to her hotel. She found that her strength was returning and enjoyed the walk to and from the stores.

Tiffany finally returned home on her flight. She passed through security and felt that the man checking her lingered too long with his wand but she did get through without delay. She seated herself next to the window of the plane and tried to relax. It had been a long journey and now it was almost over. She would return to work and it would be complete.

Tiffany’s eyes were shut until she felt the man brush against her arm.

“I’m sorry, I hope I didn’t disturb you?” he asked.

“Oh no, I was just resting my eyes.”

The man finished seating himself and introduced himself to her.

“Well since we are to spend the next four hours together we should know each other, my name is Doug Smith.”

“Nice to meet you, Doug Smith, I’m Tiffany Randall,” she said as she extended her hand.

Doug took her hand and noticed how soft it was.

“You have beautiful hands.”

“Thank you, are you flying to L.A. on business?”

“Yes and no, I’ve just been transferred to our L.A. offices, and what about you?”

“I’m returning home, I just had some surgery to correct a birth defect. What do you do?”

“I’m a stockbroker. I hope the surgery went well, you’re to pretty to have any defects.”

This guy is hitting on me thought Tiffany; well he is kind of cute maybe I’ll see where this might go. Tiffany and Doug talked throughout the flight enjoying each other’s company. The plane was beginning it’s descent into LAX when Doug screwed up enough courage to ask Tiffany to dinner. Doug, it seems rarely dated and when he did the women he dated wanted someone more manly as Doug was a small-framed man, almost delicate.

“I guess we’re landing, I was wondering if you would join me for dinner?”

“I would love to.”

“You would?” Doug was surprised she would accept so easily.

“Of course I would, why wouldn’t I?”

“I don’t know, most women I ask usually don’t go out with me.”

“Why wouldn’t I, you’re very handsome.”

“I am?”

“Of course you are but before we do I want to be honest with you and after I tell you what I’m going to tell you, you may not want to see me again.”

“What could be so terrible that I wouldn’t want to see you, you’re a very attractive woman and fun to talk to.”

“That’s just it, I’ve only been a woman for three weeks, that’s the surgery I had.”

Doug sat in silence and Tiffany figured that there would be no way he would want take her to dinner now, so predictable she thought, why were men so hung up on being macho?

Doug turned to her and took her hands in his and said, “It would be my pleasure to escort such a beautiful woman to dinner.”

Now it was Tiffany’s turn to be surprised, her eyes began to mist, “Thank you, you have no idea how you just made me feel, you’re a wonderful man Doug Smith.”

Thus began a courtship that lasted for two years until Doug and Tiffany stood at the altar to exchange vows to love and honor each other until death do they part, which they did. Tiffany became a mother through adoption and her friend Betty also finally became a mother, only she did it the old fashion way. The two friends remained best of friends becoming Godparents to each other’s children. And as far as popularity was concerned Tiffany learned that love of family was what counted in life not the adulation of someone that could care less about you.

Tiffany’s thoughts were interrupted.

“Mom!”

“Yes, sweetheart?”

“Mom, Jimmy’s bothering me.”

Finally, peace in my life thought Tiffany.