I Love My Girlfriend But? - Part 2

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Jake was able to motivate the heartbroken boy to go out after their little talk. Right now, they were walking down the stairs to get to the lobby. Two vans were already waiting in front of the hotel for the six young people.

'Ash?', Calum asked and the older boy looked up.

'Why is Kaitlin sitting in the lobby all by herself?', he asked but Axel didn't bother to answer his question.

'Kaitlin?', he asked hopeful and when she stood up and ran towards him, everything was forgotten.

'I love you, baby, I'm sorry, Axel said and Kaitlin apologized too, saying she should be the one who's sorry.

'No, no. It's my fault', he said and was more than happy to hold her in his arms.

Minutes passed and the others stood around awkwardly until Jake decided to make them noticeable again.

'Uhm, we have to go to the club now. Wanna still join or?', he asked and intertwined Sierra's fingers with his.

'I think we'll stay here, the oldest boy out of the band answered and so their ways parted.

The couple went upstairs to their room and after weeks of having only little touch, Kaitlin got close to Axel again.

'Are you sure? We really don't have to if you don't want to. I'm fine without it as long as you stay here with me, Axel rambled but Kaitlin shut him up by pressing her lips on his again. Clothes fell, sheets tangled and skin touched that night and Axel was convinced that he was the happiest man alive right now.

A few kilometers away from them, Jake was convinced that he was the most confused man alive right now. Right now, the blond boy stood in front of the big mirror that hung above the sinks in the men's restroom and was tugging on his slightly curled hair strands. He liked his current hairstyle but he also wanted his hair to be longer. How long does it take for hair to grow long? Jake decided to ask Google and reached into the pocket of his pants for his phone. Instead of his phone, his fingers found a small light pink tube.

'What is that?', he asked himself and pulled it out of his pocket. The writing on the tube said 'lip gloss' and he remembered Sierra giving it to him because she didn't want to lose it. The question about his hair was already forgotten and his whole attention was on the lip gloss in his hands. He liked the way it looked and with a last glance at the door, he opened the tube and squeezed some of the product on his finger. It was mostly clear and had little sprinkles of glitter in it.

Without a second thought, he applied the gloss on his lips, liking the way his lips started to shine in the dim light of the restroom.

'Jake? Jake, are you in here? We want to leave, Michael's voice echoed through the small room. Jake nodded and looked in the mirror one last time, before leaving with a smile on his glossy lips.

'Babe?'

'Babe. Your phone is buzzing for minutes', Kaitlin murmured and shook Axel awake.

Axel groaned and rolled over to grab his phone. 'Hello?' 'Hey Ashy', Jake's voice sounded up. 'Are you back?', Axel asked and yawned.

'Mhm yes. I'm sitting in the hallway', Jake said and Axel could tell by the way Jake slurred his words, that he was drunk.

'Why?'

'I couldn't sleep, and I didn't want to wake up Sierra', Jake admitted and Axel stood up to dress. He slipped in his briefs, a pair of sweatpants, and got a shirt out of his wardrobe to put on as well. With a last glance to the now sleeping Kaitlin, Axel grabbed one of the two cards to the room, opened the door, and stepped into the bright hallway. He hung up the phone and closed the door behind him, before turning around to be met with a wasted Jake sitting on the floor.

'Hey buddy', Axel said and kneeled down in front of the boy. 'Hey. You're here', Jake replied. 'You're here', Axel said back and Jake giggled. 'No, I said that.' 'I know', Axel answered with a grin but Jake had a serious face on. 'You can't say that if I say that because that's boring', Jake tried to make his point clear but Axel just shook his head and laughed. 'Ash? You think glossy lips are too much?', Jake asked all of a sudden and pursed his lips to show Axel the newly applied gloss. 'Uh Uhm no. It looks great on you actually', Axel answered and pushed a strand of Jake's hair back in place while looking at Jake's lips.

'Thanks, Ashy.' Neither of them moved and eventually, the light turned off and it was dark in the hall. Only the numbers of the rooms lit up the hallway but it was enough for Axel to see how beautiful Jake was.

Axel kept glancing at Jake's lips and started licking his own. Why was he acting like that?

'Why are you looking at my lips? Aren't they pretty? You said they were', Jake said with a pout on his lips that made them look even more kissable.

'No, I meant what I said. I just wonder what it tastes like', Axel replied and touched Jake's bottom lip softly.

'Wanna try?', Jake asked and before Axel could answer, he had pressed his lips against Axel's shortly.

'Now you can try and then you know what they taste like', Jake giggled. Axel only nodded hesitantly but slowly licked the gloss off of his lips, his eyes not leaving Jake for a second.

'Watermelon.' 'I like it.' 'I like it too', Jake answered but Axel shook his head.

'No, I don't think you understand', Axel mumbled and got closer to the blond boy. Jake was too drunk to think straight and parted his legs, so Axel could sit in between them.

'You are really beautiful', Axel said and cupped Jake's cheek with one hand, caressing it with his thumb.

'Thank you', Jake again said like the well-behaved boy he was. Since Axel was kneeling in front of Jake, he was a bit taller than him, which caused Jake to have to look up. Neither of them minded being this close and neither of them minded feeling each other's breath. Axel could smell the mixture of alcohol and watermelon and he would lie if he would say that he didn't enjoy sitting this close with a drunk Jake, at night in a dark hotel hallway.

Their noses were already brushing against each other and Axel could faintly feel Jake's lips against his, when a door opened and the light turned back on.

'Axel? What are you doing?', Kaitlin asked confused. But when she saw the position her boyfriend was in and made out Jake sitting underneath him, she pulled Axel violently away. Instead of yelling at him, she just went back into their room and left the door open.

'Go to sleep, yeah?', Axel said to Jake and walked off to get into his room. Jake was again too drunk to understand the situation and decided to just listen to his friend.

Axel on the other hand stood in front of a raging Kaitlin.

'What the fuck was that?'

'What are you talking about?', Axel asked and decided to play stupid even though he knew that she wouldn't let him brush it off that easily.

'You kissed Jake, Axel and last time I checked, I was your girlfriend.' 'You are.' 'Why did you kiss him then?', Kaitlin asked and rested both her hands on her waist, looking at her lying boyfriend with a raised eyebrow.

'I didn't Ka-', Axel started but Kaitlin interrupted him while shaking her head in disbelief.

'After all this time, you really think that you can lie to me like this? I'm not stupid, Axel. I know what I saw and I am asking you only once more. Why did you kiss him?', she said. The drummer didn't know what to say anymore because right now, he didn't knew himself why he did it.

'Axel honestly, if you like him and you two are having something going on just tell me instead of hiding. This isn't fair, neither for me nor Sierra', Kaitlin said, her face softening when she heard Axel sniffling.

'I don't know why I did that. I am so sorry, Axel whispered.

'Oh Axel', Kaitlin mumbled and hugged her boyfriend. She couldn't be mad at him anymore since he seemed to be confused himself. They would figure this out, together.

'Jake?' Sierra sat up and watched her boyfriend stumble through the room until he kneeled down on the floor in front of her bedside.

'Shh, Sierra is sleeping, Jake giggled.

'I am Sierra, you dummy, Sierra answered and watched him changing from confused to giggling again.

'Right, sorry.' 'It's fine baby but why aren't you sleeping?' 'I was in the hallway because I couldn't sleep and called Ashy, Jake explained while drawing patterns with his fingers on the bedsheet.

'Was he awake?' The blond boy nodded eagerly.

'And he wasn't mad?' Jake shook his head this time and smiled brightly, showing his teeth.

'Not at all. He gave me kisses, Jake answered, touching his lips. He could still feel the older boy's lips on his.

'Kisses?', Sierra asked confused. She wasn't sure whether he said that because he was drunk.

'Yes, like you do. No, I did. I'm a dummy, Jake rambled and stood up, just to lay down on his side of the bed.

Before Sierra could say anything else, the boy was already sound asleep and in his own dream world.

Everyone seemed equally confused or deep in thoughts the next morning.

Crystal and Michael hadn't shown up to breakfast in the first place and Sierra, Jake, Axel, and Kaitlin sat on a table along with Calum who seemed to be more than hung-over.

'Jake?' The addressed boy hummed in response.

'Can you remember last night?'

'Uhm, no not really, to be honest, but I feel like I'm still drunk anyway so..', Jake answered and continued eating breakfast just like everyone else. He didn't notice the few times that Axel had glanced at him while biting his lips.

Breakfast passed in silence and Jake and Calum seemed the only ones to not feel the tension that had build up. Jake was the first one to break the silence when Kaitlin got up and left the room they were currently sitting in.

'Is she okay?', Jake asked confused but Axel only got up with a sigh and followed his girlfriend.

'Sierra?'

'Don't worry about it', she shrugged it off, even though her voice gave away that she knew something and gave Jake a small smile. The blond boy had always been oblivious to things like that.

'Let's go to our room as well. I think Cal needs a couple more hours of sleep as well', she said and Calum nodded thankfully.

'Kaitlin, please, Axel said and watched Kaitlin ignoring him.

'What did I do wrong now?' She didn't answer and Axel was close to tears again when Kaitlin finally looked at him.

'I'm not asking for much but it would be lovely if I'd get a bit more attention. I am not asking to get more than Jake but at least just as much as you give him.'

'What makes you think he gets more?', Axel asked nervously, knowing exactly that he hadn't been able to tear away from his eyes from Jake. It wasn't Axel's fault that Jake was beautiful.

'If you'd look at me just once the way you looked at him, Kaitlin said.

'I do', the boy tried to defend himself but Kaitlin was quick to answer.

'You did, past tense, she said and with that, Axel was silent. It didn't matter how many times he looked at his girlfriend, she was just missing something he hadn't noticed before. She had always been enough for him until he realized that Jake was indeed a very handsome man. Kaitlin just wasn't Jake and Axel hated that he just couldn't be happy with his girlfriend.

'Kaitlin-'. 'I don't want to hear it, Axel. Do me favor and let me think this whole Jake thing over.'

'It's not a Jake thing, Axel mumbled and left the room without knowing where to go. Normally he would go to his best friend but that just happened to be Jake who was kind of the reason for his relationship problems.

Axel decided that Michael would probably be his best shot since Calum was most likely sleeping. With that in mind, he went to his friend's hotel room and knocked on the wooden door.

'Coming was heard from inside and only seconds later, Crystal opened the door.

'Oh hey, Axel. Mikey is showering right now, she said. When she saw Axel's face, she immediately let him in and offered him a seat that he gladly took.

'Do you want to talk?', she asked and sat down on one of the chairs in the room, pulling one knee up to her chest and resting her chin on her knee.

'I really don't want to bother you.'

'You're not bothering me, Ashy. We're friends too, remember? Now tell me what's giving you sleepless nights', she said, referring to the dark circles under the boy's eyes.

'I, Uhm it's complicated I guess', Axel said and fiddled with his fingers, not knowing how to continue.

'I'm sure, I will understand what you are trying to tell me. Just give it a try', she reassured him.

'Kaitlin and I aren't exactly on good terms lately.'

'Well, I feel like you never are, as harsh as that sounds, Crystal points out and Axel nods in agreement.

'Yeah and I just happened to.. well I tend to fall out of love instead of in', he said, furrowing his eyebrows at his poor attempt to explain his situation. Crystal on the other hand just nodded and waited for him to continue.

'There happened to be someone I just grew onto a little too much, I think.'

'So you've met someone new?', Crystal asked and Axel nodded.

'Not exactly someone new but yes, I think you could put it like that', he said, his eyes focusing on the oh-so-interesting patterned rug that covered a good amount of the wooden floor.

'Axel, I think you should talk to her. I feel like both of you aren't happy right now and to be honest, it isn't fair to Kaitlin if you are starting to lose interest', Crystal spoke out what Axel already knew.

'She kind of knows.' 'Kind of?' 'Yes.' 'What's that supposed to mean.'

'She caught us or rather me getting a little too close to him and yeah.. she saw and we fought', he added.

'Am I allowed to just say straight up what I think happened?', she asked and received a silent 'yes' from Axel.

'Are we talking about Jake and was it the night where Kaitlin left?' 'It was yesterday, he corrected her. 'So it is Jake and considering how much he drank, he can't remember a thing?' 'Yeah', Axel mumbled and buried his face in his hands. 'It's fine Axel. I get why you like him, he's a great guy, she says, making Axel smile a little. 'He is.'