Tammy's Diary - Part 1

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Wednesday, 15th of January. Miss Diary, I will call you Miss from today onwards because you are like a close friend and not an adult. Hey, Miss Diary, guess what's happening today. Hmm, dear Miss Diary, today is my birthday, and I am very happy about it. I will be Tammy this birthday, not Tommy, the little pity. After I awoke, my mom came to my room and wished me a happy birthday. She baked me my favorite chocolate cupcake. I blew out the candle on the cupcake, and my mom sang happy birthday to me. It was a delicious cake. I got a little emotional, and mom hugged me tightly and said thank you. You are my beautiful daughter, and I love you very much. Embracing her again, I said, you are my sweetest mom.

Later, she told me to take a bath and get dressed, and as she was leaving, I asked her where my present was. Grinning back at me, she went outside my room and told me it was a surprise. When I become a young woman, I want to be like my mom since she is beautiful both inside and out. My thoughts during my bath were about my future as a girl. It would be fine if I were a girl, but it would be difficult; I don't know how many hurdles I will have to overcome because everyone calls me Tommy at school, and I can't wear a skirt to school; guys will kill me. My emotional state got relatively high, and I told myself there was no need for me to be anxious.

Following my bath, I screamed to my mom to ask her what I should wear. She said I could wear whatever I wanted. As I was skimming in my closet, I chose a crimson black dress with full sleeves, and since it was cold, I wore tights and mid-heeled pumps. Nonetheless, after getting dressed up, Mom called me down for breakfast. Am I looking good? Miss Diary, I wish you were a person.

Several minutes later, the phone rang; guess who was on the line, Miss Diary? Following my nightmares in which my father harassed me, my father's voice made me incredibly nervous.

"Hey, my little dude, how are you?" I was like, why is he calling dude?" Then I recalled he didn't know about Tammy."

''I'm fine, Dad," I replied, "That sounds very dull to me, Tommy." I wanted to tell him I am not your son anymore, but I retained myself.

Miss Diary, I completely forgot to tell you about my Dad. Like, mom, I don't like my Dad, but I don't hate him either.

On a weekend when my Dad was at home, we usually played throw ball and worked in our backyard. Our relationship rotted when he made me join a baseball team. I really don't like to play any sports; once I told him that I don't like baseball, he just whacked me on my face and yelled at me; I started crying, but he didn't care and beat me again and shouted in my ear, boys don't cry, and should play sports and do hardcore stuff. When mom heard me crying, she held me in her arms, brushed away my tears.

Even worse, Dad became furious and attacked mom in her face. "Tommy has become a sissy baby because of you," he shouted at mom. She didn't respond. She knew Dad's anger issues; he would get even crazy mad if she said anything. So when my Dad gets angry, my mom keeps quiet. Dad went outside a few minutes after all that swearing and beating. My mother and I both cried after he left. This has caused me to be terrified of him ever since. After a few weeks, he got a job in another city. I hope that he stays there. Miss Diary, I have nothing else to say to you about my Dad.

Let's move forward with Dad's call. He wished me a happy birthday and said he missed me a lot. He then told me to transfer the call to mom. Besides, I don't know what he will do or how he will react when he sees me as Tammy. Thank God he won't be coming here.

Anyhow, after my Dad's call, Vince called me, wishing me a happy birthday, and told me that he would be coming to my home in half an hour; he wanted to make my birthday even more special; when I asked what he was planning, he said it was a surprise and hung up the call—keeping me wandering for half an hour. Vince arrived half an hour later wearing a black suit and tie. He was one of the most handsome guy I have ever seen. I couldn't take my eyes off of him. He leaned in and kissed me on the cheek. Mom came in and questioned him about why he didn't go to school today. He responded to mom that he had a wrestling match today, which got canceled, and that he was free to do whatever he wanted since there were no important lectures in school. He also asked for permission to take me out. And mom agreed without argument. However, I insisted that he wait since I had to get ready. Mom followed me into my room as I rushed to get ready.

Fast forwarding the moment, I got all ready with mom, retouching my makeup and hair. Vince said I looked like a princess when he saw me, then he took my hand, and we walked to his car. Mom looked at us when I glanced at her; she just blinked her eyes. Mom then sprints over to Vince's car and warns him against driving in excess, avoiding hanky panky, and only staying until the evening. Vince nodded and promised mom to follow everything she said. I really like Vince. He is gentle and trustworthy, and my mother knows that. I am fortunate to have him as a friend; he is such a gentleman. Vince opened the door as I entered the car. Wow! It's possible for him to date any girl he wants at school, but he prefers to hang out with me.

As we were inside the car, he hugged me, and I kissed him on his cheeks. I'm so excited. When I asked where we were going, he replied that we were going to the movie theater to watch Toy Story 3. The movie had been on my wish list for a long time, but I had never seen it due to my mom's work schedule. We got stuck in terrible traffic, so we had to hurry up to the theater once we arrived at the mall. Thankfully, he got the tickets yesterday, so we rushed toward the multiplex. Once inside, it was dark, and the movie had already begun. There was a torch person who pointed out our seats. During the interval, I had to use the washroom, and I was nervous about which washroom to use. I asked Vince, and he said, "Why are you overthinking it? Just hurry up and go to the ladies section.".

Because of Vince's morale boost, I went straight inside without darting around, did my thing, then came out. It was the first time I went into the girl's washroom; compared to the men's washroom, it was kind of different, in a sense in a good way, they are cleaner, you will not get that nasty smell, and from my first experiences, it was much more organized.

After washing my hands, I looked into the mirror. In my opinion, most girls go to the washroom to touch up their makeup and lipstick. I found Vince waiting outside the washroom, holding a box of popcorn. We walked into the theater, and he asked me if I wanted anything to eat with the popcorn. I said thanks, and we held hands. Popcorn is my favorite movie snack. There was a romantic scene in the movie where Ken kissed Barbie. That was a truly beautiful moment; I felt like kissing Vince at that point. Although it was dark, we could glimpse each other's faces. 'I looked at Vince,' he looked at me. Then I whispered in his ear, "Would you like to kiss me now?". He just nodded and held my hand, and we kissed; it was not very hard but a soft, gentle kiss. Since there was no discomfort and we were both pleased, it was the best kiss I have ever had.

After the movie ended, our next stop was the play zone, where we played games for two hours before going to the food court. Due to Vince's strict diet plan he only ordered a veg salad, whereas I had a steak and cheese meal pack with coke and fries. I once asked my mother whether I should follow a diet plan, and she said kids my age shouldn't go on a diet plan since it could affect my health and the growth of the body. She also said I should eat nutritious food, but I can eat junk food once in a while. Vince told me he had a little surprise waiting for me upon finishing our meal. He held my hand, and we went to a beauty salon. I was greeted at the salon's doorway by the manager. I am delighted to have you. Please take your seat; we will begin your makeover. They started working on my nails, and one was making up my face.

Vince was nowhere to be found when I got the opportunity to peek around. Maybe he has gone somewhere else. Later, the Manager told me Vince would be back; he has some work in the mall. He'll be back when you're done. It made me wonder how he thought of that. I am delighted by the gift he has given me.

The only thing I was missing was my two besties, Sam and Cindy.

Regardless, they washed my hair and manicured and pedicured my nails. I won't bore you with the makeover process, Miss Diary, but I can tell you that it took almost two hours. After I had finished, I expressed my gratitude to everyone at the salon for making me beautiful. Thanks to Vince, this must be the best gift I got on my birthday.

While I was stepping outside the salon, Sam and Cindy jumped over me and hugged me. Cindy kissed me on my right and Sam on my left cheek. Together, they wished me a happy birthday. What a nice surprise! Vince was taking our snaps from his D S L R.

I asked Sam and Candy how they got here. They said it was already planned by Vince. Vince picked us up after school in his car; he also drove us home, then we changed quickly and came here. Everyone gathered around Vince and kissed him. Such a wonderful person. Once again, I thanked Vince, and we kissed in front of the busy mall. Sam snapped a photo of us. I asked him why he was doing this for me, and he simply replied, "because I am very special to him, and if the time comes, he can take a bullet for me." This was undoubtedly a day I'll remember forever.

Vince was a great friend; maybe I'm in love, I don't know, my heart was pounding rapidly. I just embraced him again. It was kind of an emotional moment. Candy cracked a gag to brighten the mood, and we all giggled. We then went window shopping since no one had carried money; Vince said that he had brought his credit card so that we could borrow money from him. I said no, you had spent adequate for the day.

We got tired after trying on clothes and footwear. Vince notified us that we were getting late as he had promised my mom that they would return before dark. We rushed into the parking lot to retrieve the car.

On the way back home, I slept the entire time. When I woke up, we were standing outside my house. As I entered, it was all pitch dark. Turning back, no one was there. Upon entering, the door got locked, and because of that, I was amazed. Out of nowhere, everyone came over and sang happy birthday. My mom, aunty, Glenn, Alexis, Tonya, Sam's mom, Dad, Cindy, and Vince were at my party. The doorbell rang as I cut my cake, and my mom opened it; her expression changed. I also looked at the door; what I saw was my worst nightmare, my Dad was at the doorway.