Being Don Being Donny - Chapter One

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The lawyer dad went to see agreed with Mrs. Morgan. Dad had a good case for recovery of lost income and damages. In order to proceed, dad’s condition had to be evaluated by doctors. The lawyer arranged for me to go to a summer camp for a week while dad was being checked out. Dried out, was more like it.

When I got back from camp, I attended a meeting in the new lawyer’s office with a county health department official. The doctors found my dad’s liver and kidneys had deteriorated from his drinking. They had to keep dad in the hospital. He’d return to drinking if they sent him home, and he didn’t hide that from them. If he left the hospital and refused the prescribed treatment, not only would he get sicker and maybe die, it would hurt his court case. The lawyer filed suit against dad’s company. I was remanded to the county official as a ward of the state.

At sixteen, I could remain at home. The county official accepted the new lawyer’s request for self-cognizance, subject to proper supervision by a responsible adult. The caseworker would visit and inspect the house to assure I was behaving.

What did she expect? I didn’t have relatives that could keep an eye on me, not that I needed to be looked after. Hell, I spent a good part of my time looking after dad! I did most of the cooking, cleaning, and laundry. When he wasn’t drunk, he was asleep. I cooked; cleaned, cut the grass took out the garbage. I did it all!

From the lawyer’s office, the caseworker took me home. She checked out all the rooms and declared the house a safe, clean, wholesome environment. All that I needed was for me to give her the name and relationship of a willing guardian, the person who would assure I complied with the conditions the county imposed.

"I don’t have anybody. Dad is my only living relative."

"Well, you will need someone willing to look in on you, at the least. I can’t come here daily to check up on you until your dad is out of the hospital. Unless you can establish that you have a responsible adult in charge, we’ll have to arrange for you to stay in a county home, until your dad returns. Donny, it may sound overly protective. I trust that you can take care of things until your dad is well, but I can’t approve of your staying here unless you have a guardian. It’s the rules. I could lose my job if something happened to you. Do you want me to lose my job?

How about asking a neighbor, or the parents of one of your friends?"

"The next-door neighbors don’t talk to us. Dad drove over that one’s bushes pulling into the driveway. The other one thinks dad sideswiped his new Volvo one night. Dad had too much to drink and passed out cold when it happened. They think I covered up for him by lying about it.

The whole neighborhood cheered right in front of me when I said he had to go to the hospital. We weren’t even invited to the block party, but I went to it, just the same. I live here, too. I’m sorry I went. They all said they hope the bank will foreclose when I explained why he was in the hospital. I don’t understand it. They were all so nice to us when mom was still here. Now they hate us."

"And your friends? Surely one of them would come forward."

"I’m afraid to ask. Dad spilled a drink all over one friend. He caught hell for it. His folks think my friend came over to drink. I can’t stand the sight of alcohol. Look what it has done to us. No matter how I explained, they think I’m a bad influence. None of my school friends, the few I had, will be caught dead here. Their parents don’t want them to associate with me. No chance!"

"Isn’t there anyone you can turn to? Surely, there must be one concerned citizen that will take a few moments a day to look in on you? I can’t approve a request for your self-cognizance without a sponsor. Think hard, Donny."

"The bank’s loan officer! She knew my mom. Said something about setting up a savings account in my name that mom arranged through her with the bank as trustee. Dad didn’t know a thing about it. Good thing. He might have used it for liquor. She’s only two blocks from here at the bank. Do you think she qualifies?"

"We could inquire. If she is so close, she might assent under the circumstances. She may agree to supervise you to make sure the house isn’t vandalized while it is unoccupied. Otherwise, I’ll have to declare your house unfit, and you ineligible for self-cognizance. The bank has a vested interest to protect their collateral."

Fortunately, she was in her office. The caseworker did all the talking. Good thing. She made it sound like she was protecting the bank’s collateral. The two women were obviously of similar backgrounds. They talked in a language hard for me to follow, as if I weren’t there. The caseworker had Mrs. Morgan sign some forms. Mrs. Morgan called someone on the phone to come over to notarize and witness the forms. She made copies and the county caseworker left me in her charge.

"I want to thank you, Mrs. Morgan. If you didn’t volunteer, she was going to close the house and make me go to an orphanage. Won’t be long. Dad will come home before we know it. He’s as strong as an ox."

"Donny. I’m your legal guardian now until your father is no longer incapacitated. I don’t think it’s necessary for you to be formal in addressing me. Besides, it’s not Mrs.; it’s Miss Morgan, Terry Morgan. For reasons that aren’t too important right now, I never married. In a few years, you will be old enough to stand on your own two feet. You may want to marry and start a family of your own.

I’ll do what I feel is appropriate to ensure you will be ready to live independently. Take a closer look at your copy of the forms I signed for your caseworker. Until your dad is released from the doctor's care, you may consider me an older sister or your stepmother if you prefer. I liked your mom a lot. She’d appreciate what I have agreed to do. You seem like a nice young man. You eat too much for your own good, but at your age, I wasn’t much different, not much different at all.

As to why I am willing to act as your guardian? For now, let’s say we both have a lot in common. I lost both my parents when I was about your age. Both of them died from alcohol abuse. I know what’s going on in your head. You’re wrong.

Your dad isn’t out of the woods, yet. Far from it! The damage to his system won’t go away overnight. You may think he will bounce back. I felt the same about my dad. He hung on for two years after my mom died. Try as he might, he was lost without her." Miss Morgan spoke to me, but I could tell she was also talking to someone else at the same time. I got the feeling she was talking to her late mom and dad, telling them why she volunteered to be my guardian, too.

"Donny, when your dad came in here last week, he had the same cocky attitude my dad had. Men all think they’re invincible. Nothing can daunt them. They’ll live forever in spite of the odds. He was as adamant as my dad, too. He could bail out of this mortgage crisis on his own, without anyone’s help. I couldn’t do a thing to help my dad back when I was your age. I lost him, my mom, our very home, and everything that I held dear.

I agreed to be your guardian because I might be able to help, now. Maybe, it will rid me of the guilt I carry over not being able to help my own parents. I’m telling you all this upfront, so you don’t get the crazy idea that I have some mercenary intentions like your dad thought. You’ll be able to keep your house. What’s more important, your father may survive, as well. If I have to, I’ll advance my own funds to carry the mortgage until he can return to work and support you properly. I’ll keep track of what I advance and your dad can pay me back when he’s able. If he wins his case against his last employer, he can pay me then."

"Can you use the money that my mom put away for me, Miss Morgan?"

"We’ll be seeing each other every day from now on. We need to address each other more casually, don’t you think, Donny? I don’t want to have to refer to you as Master Henderson, unless we’re in a formal proceeding, like in court."

"Okay. The deal, but I’d rather you call me Don if you don’t mind. Donny is what my mom called me. When she died, dad started calling me ‘Donny’. He didn’t before. He’d say ‘Kid’ or ‘Rascal’. Sometimes he called me ‘Chubby’ to get my goat or when I was overeating. He’s as slim as a rail, so he had the right to poke fun at my weight problem. How about if I call you ‘ma’am’?"

"Mmmm! Okay, ‘ma’am’ sounds good to me, but I prefer to stick to ‘Donny’ for the time being. One of the uncles that took me in for a time after my folks passed on was named Don. You don’t fit his image at all. I can call you ‘Don’ or ‘young Mr. Henderson’ while we’re with others, but I want you to feel at ease with me when we’re alone. Give in a little. For my sake, let me call you ‘Donny’."

"Alright. Where do we go from here?"

"I think you should invite me over to see where I’ll be checking in on you. How are you fixed for groceries? Can I invite myself to dinner to find out how you will manage on your own? I assumed that you could fend for yourself from what the county caseworker said. I hope she wasn’t window-dressing this project to sucker me into it. Can you cook?"

"I can cook. I’ve been managing the house for over a year. Dad didn’t do much.

As for food, the pantry is meager, but I don’t look like I do because I don’t eat. That’s for sure! Name it. I’ll bet I can cook it if we have it in the house. If we don’t have it the store isn’t that far away. I hope your coming over doesn’t spoil any plans you had. It’s Friday. A pretty lady like you must have a date tonight and on every night. I don’t want to keep you from your boyfriend."

"Well! Thank you, I think. I don’t have a date, so you aren’t imposing. You’re my dinner date for tonight! How’s that? What will you use for money?"

"Well, I don’t have much, a few dollars, but I can stretch a buck pretty good. I’ve had to lately. The unemployment checks and food stamps don’t last long if you like to eat a lot of steaks. Most of what we eat comes out of cans. It’s quick, easy to prepare, and doesn’t cost much."

"It’s a wonder you don’t weigh twice what you do. Canned food has tons of salt in it. Fresh foods cost a bit more but are much healthier. Looks like you don’t know as much about a proper diet as you think you do. Let’s leave now. I don’t have any appointments pending, and we can beat the evening rush at the store. Friday is the worst weekday to go grocery shopping, but we’ll have to manage. I’m going to make sure you have enough healthy food on hand to keep you from eating too much of the wrong stuff. C’mon. It’ll be fun."

We walked. Her pace was brisk, and I was huffing and puffing to keep up. Within an hour, she saw the house, checked the pantry, made out a list and explained her selections, and compared them to what I said I would have bought. She was easy to listen to; so smart, and a lawyer with a great job at a bank. I lucked out. She said she was willing to help to make up for not being able to help out her folks when she was my age.

The trip to the supermarket took longer. She took her time as her mom did. I ran in and out usually, with the standard stuff I always bought, without cruising every aisle for stuff I didn’t need. She said she was buying, so it was her call. She wanted to shop, so we shopped. I could bend with the breeze.

Besides, she was pretty. It was nice to be with a pretty woman. She was the first real pretty lady I had a chance to be with alone. Well, okay, we were in public in a grocery store, doing grocery shopping. No one else was there with us, so we two were alone together. Weren’t we? She couldn’t be more than twenty-five. That’s only a nine-year difference in our ages. She also called me her date, didn’t she? I wasn’t about to split hairs. She was my first real date, sort of.

We didn’t buy a whole lot. I carried most of it home. Well, I carried more than half of it, I think. When we got to the house, she took off her shoes and groaned. Her heels were like stilts. I offered her a chair. She didn’t argue. Her toenails were painted like her fingernails. She rubbed her toes while I put away the groceries, all but what we decided to have for dinner. I was nervous. Cooking for dad didn’t require much forethought: open cans, dump into pots, dump on plates, and eat. Dad barely touched his food. After he went back to watching TV, I’d eat what he left behind. No sense in wasting good food, too costly.

I looked at the pile of vegetables on the counter. I didn’t know what to do. I only used canned veggies. These had to be cut up. She saw. I looked stupid. I wanted to cry. "Give me a chance for circulation to return to my feet. Walking a mile in high heels is still a pain in the butt, Donny. I’ll wash and show you how to chop up carrots and green beans in a minute. Get two soup bowls out for our salads."

She smelled good. Standing together, her in nylons, explaining how to dice the vegetables and shred lettuce, lessened the difference in our heights. I could almost look at her eye to eye. She seemed so, so, perfect. Her makeup made her eyes look bigger and prettier. I closed my eyes to imprint her looks on my brain. I had something in mind to do later after she left. I wanted to envision her pretty face while I did it. I felt her lips touch my cheek. My eyes popped open.

"That’ll give you something to think about, later on, Donny."

Oh, no! She must have known what I was thinking! "

"Don’t worry about it, Donny. I did the same thing at your age. Human nature has a way of keeping people from being frustrated."

"But, but, you’re a woman!"

"So? Don’t women have feelings? Listen, Donny. We’re going to see a lot of each other for a while, at least once a day, probably more. We don’t know for how long, but at least for a few months. You feel as if you can handle everything here on your own, and you probably can. I’ll try to give you all the latitude that I can. There are some things I doubt your mom ever discussed with you, and your dad, well, let’s say I don’t think he was a good example or took the time to guide you.

I believe you are an honorable kid, but once you get into shape, I don’t want to find out you tried to bring a girl here to ‘explore’ life behind my back. You may let things get out of hand that you aren’t ready for. Some girls can be tricky and then blame you for something you didn’t do because you had an opportunity. The guy at fault may be a loser or isn’t around. If a situation like that occurs I could be held accountable. That isn’t going to happen, because you aren’t going to bring any girls here alone for some time. That’s rule number one. Got it?"

"Yes ma’am. I really wouldn’t do it, anyway. Girls don’t like me, ‘cause I’m fat."

"Yes, you are, but with the right food and by adopting some proper eating habits, you won’t be for long, and you’ll look more attractive. Don’t kid yourself. Under all that fat, there lurks a good-looking kid. If you’re willing to try, I’ll help you get the weight under control and get you looking like hot stuff.

I’ll try to help you out in any way I can, Donny. If you want to know what it’s like to touch a woman in certain ways, I’ll explain what girls like and what they don’t. No sense making an Adonis out of you if you’re going to be all thumbs around girls, but not here! Are you surprised that I talk so freely about the ‘taboo’ stuff?"

"Yes Ma’am! But, how did you know what I was thinking?"

"Your testosterone barometer is showing. Don’t be upset over it! I find it exciting that you could react that way by standing here close to me fixing a salad. Didn’t your dad ever tell you it isn’t polite to point?"

"Uh, no. He’s too old. Old people don’t think about sex, do they?"

She put the knife down and looked at me. "I think you are serious. Gee, Donny, I’m not very hungry, and this salad will keep until later. Let’s put these things in the fridge and sit down in the living room and have a talk for a while. I’ve got all evening and I have a feeling you’re hungry for some knowledge, not food."

All I could do was nod. I didn’t know what to say. We put the stuff away and went into the living room. I thought she would sit across from me, but she led me to the couch and pointed. Then she sat right next to me.

"Did you ever kiss a girl on her lips? Be honest. I’m trying to help."

"No, I never did. I only kissed mom on the cheek. I almost kissed a girl once at a Halloween party, playing ‘spin the bottle, but she got scared and ran off when it pointed at her when it was my turn to spin. No girl wants to kiss a ‘fatty’."

"Not true! Some girls like hefty guys. I do. I was heavier than you are at your age.

Being good-looking takes work, but the result is worth the effort, trust me, I know. Becoming pretty made my life a lot easier. Getting to be this good-looking was extremely hard for me to accomplish, and I would never have been able to do it right, if it wasn’t expected of me, no, make that demanded of me."

"You were forced to become pretty? Who would force you to do that?"

"My uncles did. I had to go live with them, they didn’t want me, but they were my only relatives. I had to do whatever they demanded to keep from getting batted around. Either I obeyed them or was sent to an orphanage, which would have been worse. I had no choice. I did what I had to do in order to survive. I learned all that I needed to know about sex at an early age. People where I was taken all find out about sex at an early age. Laws there are much different there. It was not a lot of fun when I first found out what was expected of me." She put her arm around me and drew my head to her shoulder. Mmmm, soft! That was nice.

"But you don’t have an accent, and you’re a lawyer. Where are you from?"

"I was born here in the states, but my uncle Don was visiting when mom and dad died. My uncles went into business when the war ended in Indo-China. Traveling there with him sounded like a fantastic adventure. Was I mistaken? I had no idea what I was in store for until I arrived overseas. At fifteen, I found out some girls are forced to become prostitutes at a much younger age, and it’s perfectly legal there. Young orphan boys are treated even more harshly.

I learned quickly how men get rowdy when they meet a pretty, available woman. That’s why most women here try to look their best, to attract and meet a good man. In some countries, they try to look more attractive to improve their lot, or to avoid facing some abject horrors. Donny, I want to be honest with you, we’ll both get along much better. I want you to know what could happen to orphans. I want you to consider how lucky you really are, in spite of the pickle you think you are in. Believe me, I had to do things you’d never even consider possible.

I’m not your mother or your sister. I’m not related to you at all. It’s only natural for you to be excited by being close to me, and I’m flattered by your attraction to me. Before I tell you about what happened to me, I want you to promise that you will keep everything that I reveal to you just between the two of us. I have a feeling we are going to be together for much longer than you think.

I feel it is important for you to trust me, and I won’t be able to gain that trust by keeping the truth about myself from you. You might find out about me some other way someday, and feel as if I betrayed you, asking for total honesty while hiding a deep, dark secret about my past from you. I want your word of honor that you’ll keep what I’m about to tell you to yourself, no matter what happens in the future."

"I promise, Ma’am."

"That won’t do, Donny. I want you to swear on your mother’s grave to hold each and every word I tell you in strict confidence."

"I swear on my mom’s grave and all that is holy that I’ll never tell anyone about what you tell me tonight." I was telling the truth. She looked me in the eye. She must have believed me because she continued.

"I live a completely different life now, but I could still be in Southeast Asia if I had ended up in an orphanage. Life there is so harsh there, the system is so corrupt, and local officials can sell kids and get away with it. They end up as slaves with little hope for survival. I wasn’t much more fortunate than that. I had my three uncles to thank for that. They got top dollar when I was ‘adult’ enough.

I’m going to shock you, Donny. When I was fifteen, I wasn’t pretty at all. I was fat and dumpy and looked a lot worse than you do. I’m not making fun of you. It’s all right to be heavy. I was, but I wasn’t a fat little girl. I was a very chubby child that was devastated by losing my parents. The only relatives I had to turn to were mercenaries that saw a chance to make big money out of my predicament.

You won’t believe this, but they dressed me up like a little girl and forced me to provide oral sex to them. I was drugged and forced to be their personal sex slave until I was thoroughly trained and transformed against my will to be good-looking enough to be sold to a rich buyer who would pay dearly for my peculiar qualities.

That took them over a year to accomplish and involved several painful surgeries and procedures imposed on me without my having any say in the matter. Some things were done without using the right anesthetics. I only wished to die from what they were making out of me. Each day was a living hell as I saw myself changing from a fat young boy into a shapely girl.

I had no choice in determining whether I wanted to become their curvy, supple, accommodating slave. They had me sculpted and carved until I looked like every man’s wet dream. I was brainwashed, programmed by drugs and torture, until I’d do anything to stop the constant pain or retain the ability to think with undistorted brain patterns for a single hour at a time. Drugs are cheap and easy to get there. The drugs kept me pliant and obedient. I needed a steady supply to keep from going crazy from the agony of withdrawal. At my lowest, I’d do anything, anything at all to get my daily fix. There wasn’t much I didn’t do.

My only hope for survival was my total surrender of will and absolute compliance. When I accepted my new body without recourse and conformed to use it for the purpose it was transformed, I was weaned off of the drugs and reprogrammed in preparation for sale to the highest bidder. They made sure I knew what to expect. They delighted in my learning I would be sold over and over as I got older until I finally would be nearly worthless, good enough to work in some cheap, hellish brothel satisfying the pleasures of the dregs of the Earth. They took me to one to show me what would happen if I let my beauty fade or failed to obey them.

My owner paid a fortune for me. He also demanded that I be delivered to his disease and drug-free to comprehend clearly what he wished for me to do for him at all times. He took me away to his lavish estate in the Middle East where he kept me in a harem as a prisoner, for his diversion, when he tired of his ready supply of real girls. I was the freak that he liked to show off to his friends.

I was so drained of free will I was willing to obey without question in return for the quality of care he provided to all his concubines. I was a piece of property to be handled with care to preserve its value. That was how I thought of myself at that stage. All the girls considered themselves to be property. That’s what life was like in a harem. I was taught how to enjoy sex as well as provide pleasure to others.

He soon tired of my peculiar oddities and I saw him infrequently. He was busy with business matters. He was gone for weeks at a time. I and other sex slaves had nothing to do but entertain each other to pass the time away. At least that was more fun than doing nothing. The real girls loved to tease me to the erection.

Normal sex was forbidden. At least, my penetration was. The girls used my penis often, but not where other men were allowed to use them. I had to use the same entry that men used when they penetrated me. By this time, my penis had shrunk and wasn’t painful for the girls to take in. It took a lot to arouse me.

Our master fell in love with a beautiful American girl while on a visit to the States. She knew what I really am and was so jealous, she required her new lover to set me free, as a gesture of his burning desire for her. She would tolerate the other concubines, as she often used them for her own satisfaction when he was away.

She would not permit our master to visit me to access my unique skills. My life lost its purpose and she became vicious toward me, as she couldn’t satisfy him in ways that I could. She knew I could penetrate him orally or anally. She despised me for still having my penis, small as it was.

To assure he would never return to my quarters and somehow interfere with her control over him, I was sent away to school, to skilled tutors that quickly groomed me for return to a private college back here in the states, so I could cease to be a looming symbol of his occasional lapses into the desire for some deviance.

I was told I could choose any curriculum, as long as I never tried to return and be a nuisance to her. I chose to attend a law school in hopes of learning how I could reap revenge on my unscrupulous uncles.

Before I graduated, I discovered my uncles were dead. All that pain and agony, and the almost total reversal of my identity, and someone deprived me of the goal: to achieve honorable revenge through the law and justice. Death was too easy an escape for the likes of them. I wanted all three of them to suffer many years in prison. I had to find a legal loophole for what they legally did to me.

I studied so hard to find the legal means for my revenge. Criminal retribution on my part would make me as despicable as they were. What good would it do if I used equally devious means to make them suffer, regardless of how deserving the three of them were? Stripped of my self-worth by torture and subjugation, my quest was to restore my confidence by legitimate, honorable means and demand justice.

Instead, they were murdered for reneging on a contract to supply another man with a transformed sex slave. Sometimes, justice may be slow, but in their case, it was sure. The unsatisfied buyer made them suffer. They were castrated and became garish, worthless eunuchs before he had them executed. The boy who they were transforming killed himself rather than accept his changes. Thanks to my uncles, the laws there are changing. Guardians are no longer free to easily predict the lives of unwilling orphans.

I now hold a law degree but have no desire to practice law. So, I counsel bank customers with problems. I Donny, Donny, are you listening?"

I had fallen asleep. "Donny, did you hear anything I’ve been telling you?"

"Uh-huh. Yeah, must have dozed off for a minute. Sorry. Yeah, you said some kids in Indo-China were sold sometimes, as slaves and orphan girls were sold as prostitutes. It’s hard to believe the police let the politicians do it. That’s illegal.

Things like that can’t happen here, ma’am. Laws protect us from someone trying to force us into giving up our rights. I’m sure glad you agreed to offer to help us. I missed leaning on my mom’s shoulder and listening to her tell me stories like you just did. For a while, you sounded just like her when you whispered to me. It feels good to sit here like this and relax. Do you mind?"

"Harrumph! Well, you missed a few details I explained along the way, Donny, but you got most of the story right. Things like that can’t happen here. I’ll tell you the story again sometime when you get a little older. Not all of what happened was bad. Some of it was quite enjoyable. Relax, and make believe I’m your big sister. We’ll talk about it again. When the time is right and you aren’t so tired, I’ll tell you all about my world travels and adventures."