A little life update

Some casual selfies with my styles from last weekend. Not a fancy picture, but some words: I'm currently living away from home, as I've relocated for a few weeks to another city. Maybe you noticed all the selfies with Fuxi and the new flat in the background of my pictures? That's due to the fact that I'm currently living in an AirBnB that's located in the city Fuxi lives. In the city I used to live in as a student years ago, that still feels like home to me.

Why? Because I needed a break from my routine and same same at home - and because my boss surprisingly agreed to me working 100% remote for 7 weeks. So I'm still working full time, but it's way more relaxed not having to spend 1h per day in my car to drive to and back from the office. Also it's lovely to be in a city with so many events and so many of my friends. I've been constantly busy meeting people, going out, re-connecting, even playing a small DnD campaign here and doing pole in a new studio. Last weekend some friends from home visited, so we did some touristy stuff. It’s also great to break out of the circle of constantly doing the same 4 things over and over at home. Re-considering the things I do and want to or not want to do.

I have not recorded a YouTube video here except for the one with Fuxi and Kikki about the new Pairadize Pants. Which was hilarious btw. But I took some creative shots here in the flat (the ones from the poll, yes) and even had a photo shoot with a new photographer in a loft, out of my comfort zone with lingerie. And with Fuxi. :D Unfortunately I'm not allowed to show these pictures here (photographer said no) but I'll upload them to my socials soon. And I have another shoot planned, so I am active. Just not with focus on YT at the moment, but with enjoying my time. I don't even have any pre-recorded YouTube videos anymore to be honest. I did, but I released them all by now. That's why there was no video last Sunday. And since I have to work at a festival today till Friday, there probably won't be a YT video next Sunday either.
What's playing into this YT gap: the last few videos performed rather poorly. Putting all the work into them and thinking "this should be a good-going video since the outfits are so great / it's funny" and then being dissappointed because YT does not show it to a lot of people or they didn't like it or whatever is happening at the moement, and it not hitting view counts anywhere close to satisfying. I don't know why YT is not broadcasting them to my audience and new potential viewers, as it did in the past.
Do I need to rethink what I'm doing? New topics? New whatever? Change the way I do my videos or what I’m showing? More unsubstantial, stupid try-ons? (I noticed an uprising of vids of girlies who are wearing wet clothing on YT as try-ons, but come on…) Re-Inventing me without loosing my core competence and my passion of fashion? Do more shorts? Do a longer break? Start a cooking or workout channel hahah? I’m a bit at loss at the moment. YT says to keep your channel going and growing, you'd have to change the type of content/topics you're soing every 2-3 year. But is that the key? Something I want? This circle of producing the same kind of videos but them not running well is certainly not something I want to spend my time and effort on. So maybe this time away from everything will help me. It certainly does in terms of social life and getting out of my shell again.
As fort he YT topic, I’ll open the group chat here on Patreon. Let’s chat. I’m valuing your input and your support on this platfrom. Thanks for sticking with me. 😊