Let’s Be Real
Added 2019-12-30 22:46:29 +0000 UTCI have absolutely without a doubt been leaning on lower-tier ($1, $5) update posts in lieu of actually putting my head down and finishing up one of the many projects I am currently in the middle of.
I am REALLY good at starting things and really (not uppercase so there’s hope) bad at finishing things. I’ve shot every single day for the past two weeks but haven’t gotten around to the organizing and editing bits yet.
I’ve fallen into another sad girl blip and I blame the holidays... hence my attempted Christmas suicide stats. It’s completely fine and normal but it does influence my creative output in some obvious ways. I shoot readily well when I’m feeling small or soft or angry or lonesome or sad or am hurting too much. Being outside, running around naked— it’s an actual hobby in and of itself and I always leave feeling fulfilled and refreshed, if not also empowered to be doing something so therapeutic that is also free. Editing, arranging, and planning is another animal and requires a more powerful and stable mindset and bodyset. It hurts to sit and it’s hard for me to be at a computer while maintaining posture and not going stir crazy with the added heebie-jeebies that nerve pain creates. I do almost all of my editing while on the stair master at the gym.... which works really well despite seeming inconvenient. But I can only do so many stairs and rail so much protein powder. So messaging and editing is less fun and will generally be more intermittent during pain or stress flares... at least for someone who creates on their own terms instead of forcing consistent content. God I would hate that.
A take-away from this is that I have a lot of exciting and special content coming soon to my higher tiers ($15, $40, marriage tier) !!!
I will also be responding to direct messages this week... I’m sorry for the hiatus. Happy randomly denoted end of era to YOU.
I had a friend visit the High Country from the Front Range this weekend and we shot platonically together which is truly such a treat. I‘m pleased with the people I surround myself with (which is not very many). Curate your environment, control your experience.
Baker’s Bridge, Durango CO, Sony rx100, Dec 2019.99
Comments
Ok. Thanks and happy new year! I look forward to whatever art I will have available in the coming year. You're a bold and courageous woman and I admire you for that.
Roger Nehring
2019-12-31 17:12:13 +0000 UTCThanks Roger! But you are on the $5 tier so you will not be shown any of these projects. I see that you followed me on Venmo and I’ll have you know that my video tier is $40 and all of those videos are password protected and hidden so that only my Cervical Nod patrons can see. I’m (lately increasingly) informative about the tiers and their separate content categories that are organized foremost by subscription rate. More support = more content. You’re welcome to hit the “tiers” tab and read about what your tier entails! Yes this was close to the edge and there were tourists around. Through these small modes of documented self expression you will learn that this is what taking care of myself looks like. :)
Prana
2019-12-31 17:05:10 +0000 UTCI have no expectations. You are an artist, you have pain and sadness to deal with. I can wait and will wait, your work is inspiring. This is a scary and beautiful photo. Was it as dangerously close to the edge as it seems? Please take care of yourself. I just saw yout "First Suspension" on Vimeo and I had feathery feelings in the pit of my stomach. You were so high suspended on a cord!
Roger Nehring
2019-12-31 14:21:40 +0000 UTC
